CHAP FOUR: Grissom's Decision
He just stood there looking deeply into her dark eyes. The same dark eyes that he had made cry time and time again.
The question he kept asking himself over and over again was whether or not he wanted to risk hurting her again. ' I do wan't her back, but I wouldn't be able to handle her leaving again.'
Her thumbs gently rubbed his bearded cheek.
" Gil, please."
He closed his eyes and let out a deep breath, and with a shaky voice and tears now streaming down his face he said," I'm sorry, I can't."
He watched in pain as she slowly lowered her head towards the floor, and started sobbing uncontrollably.
" Please Sara you have to understand. I just don't want to hurt you anymore honey."
She looked up at him and said," But don't you get it, when I'm not with you I'm hurting. But when we are together I feel whole again."
" But what about that song? What about everything that you told me no less than an hour ago?"
She looked straight into his eyes. " That was me trying to make myself not love you anymore. I have been trying to do that since the day I left, since the day I saw you with her. But I know that no matter what, I won't ever be able to do it, because I will always love you."
She could see he was trying hard to do the best thing for both of them.
" Just dance with me please? One dance?"
He let her take his hand and lead him into the living room, the lights were dimmed,a song started on the radio.
As they wrapped their arms around each other and started swaying to the music he listened to the words and realized that no matter what he loved Sara too, and would never be able to live without her.
When the rain is blowing in your face
And the whole world is on your case
I could offer you a warm embrace
To make you feel my love
When evening shadows and the stars appear
And there's is no one to dry your tears
I could hold you for a million years
To make you feel my love
He could feel her warm breath on his neck, and his hands slowly started rubbing circles on her lower back.
She had her head on his chest listening to both the words and music of the song playing, and his steady heartbeat.
I know you haven't made your mind up yet
But I would never do you wrong
I've known it from the moment that we met
There's no doubt in my mind where you belong
I'd go hungry, I'd go black and blue
I'd go crawling down the avenue
There ain't nothing' that I wouldn't do
To make you feel my love
She let her hands roam from his shoulders to his neck. Her fingers started playing with his curls, feeling him pull her into an even tighter embrace sent a smile to her lips, causing her to close her eyes enjoying every moment of being with him again.
He loved that she was once again in his arms, placing his chin on her head while he got lost in both the moment ,and the truth of the song.
The storms are raging on a rolling sea
And on the highway of regret
The winds of change are blowing wild and free
You ain't seen nothin' like me yet
His hands went from her back to her neck, and then finally resting on her cheeks.
As she looked up into his eyes, he leaned down softly pressing his lips to hers in the sweetest, softest kiss.
There ain't nothin' that I wouldn't do
Go to the ends of the earth for you
Make you happy make your dreams come true
To make you feel my love
She slowly opened her eyes to see his misty blue ones looking at her. His stare seemed to go straight through her, she had never felt this way before in her life.
He was the only one that could make her feel the things she was feeling right now.
He took her hand and placed it over his chest and said," Do you feel that? You will always have my heart, you will always have my love."
She kissed him with more force this time wrapping her arms around his neck while exploring his mouth with her tongue.
He backed her up until her legs hit the couch and then gently without breaking their kiss lowered her onto the couch.
She wrapped her legs around his waist while kissing andnibbling on his neck.
Causing small moans to come from him.
They took their time undressing each other, exploring every inch of exposed skin with lips, tongues, teeth, and fingertips.
He slowly made his way licking a path from her neck down to her belly button.
Instead of licking back up he slowly blew up the path, causing her to shiver and moan at the same time.
He smiled as she ran her hand up his chest to rest on his neck.
" Please, I need you now Gil."
He slowly entered her as she wrapped her legs tighter around him. He pressed their foreheads together and said," God, I've missed you." Sara then pulled his lips to herskissed him.
They moved together in a slow rhythm that only they knew.
Soft moans and grunts filled the silence of the room.
Grissom leaned down and kissed her passionately as he felt her walls tighten around him, and soon after they both climaxed together.
Sara kissed his forehead as he rested his head on her chest.
She held tightly to his back, and felt the beads of sweat that had formed underneith her fingertips.
As their breathing returned to normal he maneuvered them so that she was now laying on his chest.
He could feel the coolness of the air against his hot skin and it sent a chill straight through him. He knew that if he was cold, she had to be freezing, so he grabbed the blanket on the end of the couch and covered them.
The silence was not one of discomfort, it was a peaceful one.
" Sara?"
"Hmm?"
" We need to talk in the morning. About us."
She moved to look up at him and he saw the worried look in her eyes.
" I'm not regretting this, or leaving you Sara. I just think we need to talk. I mean I live in Vegas, and you live in California."
" Oh, well I could always move back."
He looked down at her and said," You'd do that for me?"
She kissed him quickly and said," I'd do anything for you."
He wrapped his arms tightly around her and said," I love you."
" I love you too."
Shortly after that they both fell into a peaceful slumber.
TBC...
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This song is called To Make You Feel My Love by: Garth Brooks.
Thanks
Ash