A/N: hey guys I'm back and I only have one thing to say which is 'this is still part of Suze's flashback'

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chapter:2 Good-bye

"What?" I asked Jesse

"I have figured out what it is that is holding me back, querida"

"I know what you said. When did you figure this out Jesse?" Jesse looked confused and let me tell you he looks so adorable like a cute little puppy when he is confused .

"When I was visiting Father Dominic two weeks ago" Jesse said sheepishly like he knew I would get mad and I was.

"Why didn't you tell me?" I said. I was also upset that he never told me about this, like this was a big deal and what was he just planning on keeping it a secret from me until I woke up one day and he was gone?

"I didn't tell you because I wasn't sure that I wanted to leave. The idea of leaving you was sickening"

"You weren't sure if you wanted to leave because of me?" I instantly felt bad, I would hate myself if I was the reason that Jesse didn't move on because Jesse was a good person he only deserved the best.

"Yes of course, I love you so much and I didn't want to leave you like this. You don't know how hard it was to make this decision, I even went to Father Dominic to ask for his advice and he said that it would be best to break it off now than later, you know he has never been happy about our relationship and now I see why."

"You 'see why'. What's that supposed to mean?"

"It's supposed to mean that I am dead Susannah and you are alive It will never work out between us. I know that I love you, but love is not enough. You need more and I will never be able to give you what you want"

"Jesse, all I want is you" I said crying. This was, like, my worst nightmare and it was coming true when I was awake. The worst thing about this is that I can't even wake up to Jesse soothing me like every other nightmare I have had.

"And all I want is you, querida, but ever since I have found out what is holding me back I have felt a tugging feeling that is pulling at me, and I have to complete what is holding me back so I can move on. I am not supposed to be here." I looked up into Jesse's eyes and saw that he two was crying. He looked back into my eyes and pulled me into a hug. We sat there for what felt like an hour just holding on to each other. After a while I broke apart and looked up at him and said

"So what is holding you back?"

"Before I left to go break off the wedding, my grandmother gave me this ring that used to be hers and told me to give it to the woman that I have fallen in love with. And since I was planning on breaking off the wedding, I left the ring at home in a secret spot in the floor boards. I had forgotten all about this ring until a ghost came in for mediation by Father Dominic, and asked him to find something that was hidden and give to a loved one. That is when I remembered about the ring." Jesse finished and looked at me waiting for my reply.

"So do you know where this ring is?" I asked already knowing the answer.

"Yes, it was still safely hidden under the floorboard in my room back at my old home 'the Ranch'"

"Wait, you already have the ring?"

"Si"

"So now what?"

"Now I give it to the only woman that I have ever loved and I will move on" Jesse paused and I said

"And that woman is?" I said hoping said woman was me.

"Why you of course, querida. You are the only woman that I have ever loved and will ever love. So after I give you this ring I will be gone and will be waiting for you in the afterlife. Susannah, I love you so much and always will. I want you to be happy and don't be sad. You will find another love, I already know that because I already know that someone else loves you. He will do anything for you just like I would" While Jesse was saying this I was crying, but when he said the part about someone else loving me I was confused.

"Huh" I said giving Jesse a look the said 'are you high?' 'cause I was lucky to find out that one guy loved me let alone two guys liking me at the same time.

"You will find out when the time is right but until then don't be sad, be happy and know that I will be waiting for you, and want you to go on with your life" with that said Jesse climbed back into my bedroom and a couple of minutes later he returned with a box held in his hands. "Querida, if I was alive I would someday ask you to marry me with this ring. But since I'm not alive, I am asking that you don't forget me and even though I know you will find a new love, I am asking that you will always love me to. I know that this is a lot to ask and I will-" Jesse said but I cut him off

"Of course Jesse. How could you think that I wouldn't" Jesse had the biggest grin on his face after I was done saying that.

"Querida you have made me the happiest man in the world." And with that said Jesse began to fade. I quickly wrapped my arms around him and he wrapped his arms around me. We held each other for a bit then he said "I love you Susannah, mi querida"

"And I love you Jesse" Jesse leaned in and kissed me then was gone in a flash of white light.

END OF FLASHBACK

That was the last time that I have ever seen or heard from Jesse again. Every night in the summer I would go outside and site on the roof and just look up at the stars and think about all the good times we had together. I wore the ring every night while I slept, but took it off during the day so I wouldn't get any weird questions from anybody about where I got the ring, and why it was so old. Every night while I sat out on the roof I would replay that night over and over in my head, while I played with the ring by twirling it around my finger. I never could come up with a person that loved me and would do anything for me. Once or twice I thought about Paul being that person but Jesse hated his guts so why would he be telling me to love Paul?

Summer was quickly coming to an end. I was working my last week at the hotel and golf resort, the same one that I worked at last year. Oh and guess what, Pauls family came back, and who gets to babysit Jack Slater. If you guessed Paul you were so wrong, but if you guessed me then bingo, right on the dot. It's not that I don't like Jack, no I love him, it's Paul (who by the way came to stay at the hotel with his parents), who wants to tag along saying 'I never get to see my little bro' (as if he was even paying attention to Jack) so instead of just babysitting Jack himself he goes everywhere with us. Nothing much happened at the hotel during the time that I worked there, except I got paid a lot of money.

I never did tell Paul that Jesse moved on, and I wasn't going to bring it up either. I never cried through-out the day so he couldn't catch me, so I had no reason for him to wonder why I was sad. The day after Jesse left I went to visit Father Dom and told him about Jesse moving on. Father Dom asked me a million things, about how I was doing and did I need to talk to anyone about my feelings. It got so bad I had to make up an excuse and leave. I felt bad about lying to a priest but instead of making me feel better he only made me feel worse.

The night before school started I looked through all of my new clothes and went to sit on the window ledge, like I do every night. I just sat there thinking about how I was hoping this year would go great and end better than last year.

A/N: so whad ya think? Good, bad ,ugly what? If you have any ideas let me know and pretty please review. Luv Suzie