Hey guys, sorry it's took so long! Anywayz here's chapter 30 x

Chapter 30

John looked down at what was left of Dean, he was unconscious and a bloody mess which in Johns opinion was a lot less that he actually deserved. Dean had continued to spit out crap about Becki which only fuelled John's anger, especially when Dean tried to go into detail regarding the stuff he had already put Becki through, so in return John did to Dean what he was describing.

He heard a noise outside, it was Matt and Randy arriving with the cops, Jeff must have told them where to go.

John rolled his eyes as he thought 'couldn't wait till I had time to get out of here could ya'. He kicked Dean a couple more times for good measure before the door opened.

Officer White walked into the cabin and sighed. This was what he expected to find, he didn't want to be in charge of this case, he had a daughter around the same age of the girl involved and it didn't help that as he arrived at the young girls house he was greeted with another man practically running out of the house carrying the unconscious girl. She looked in a bad way and all Officer White could think of was his daughter being in this situation. He would have killed the guy that did it to her so he wasn't surprised to find the man beaten to a pulp on the floor.

He looked at the young man stood over his fallen victim, his eyes burned with rage and if he looked closely he could see that his hands were shaking, he didn't need to ask to know that this was the girls boyfriend.

Sighing he said "Get out of here son"

"what?" John asked, he wasn't sure he heard right.

"Go to your girl, you weren't here when I arrived" not wanting to say anymore or do anything else against the rules of his job he pulled out his radio and called for paramedics as he waved John, Matt and Randy out of the cabin.

Matt and Randy followed John silently as he made his way back to Becki's house. Randy could see that John was still shaking, he figured it was from the adrenaline rush of beating the hell out of Dean. John knew he was shaking, he only wished it was from adrenaline, his anger was subsiding and was being replaced with guilt and fear. Dean had told him things that he didn't want to believe, but now as the words ran through his mind, fear of what he would find when he got to Becki was quickly growing.

"John, you ok?" Randy asked as Becki's house came into view and John had visibly slowed down.

"no!" John replied as he looked at her house "I shouldn't have left her here" he thought out loud.

"You couldn't have known this would happen John" Randy said as he stopped at his friends side.

"I'll go wait in the car" Matt said and headed round to the front of the house.

Randy watched Matt leave, he knew Matt had his own feelings of guilt to deal with, once Randy had told him what was going on the only thing Matt could say was "John asked me to look out for her, I should have took her with me" and Matt hadn't said a word since they saw Jeff carrying Becki out of the house.

John had stopped at Becki's back door, his hand hovering over the handle.

Looking over his shoulder Randy asked "Want me to go in?"

"she must have been so scared" John turned the handle and pushed the door open.

"John" Randy put his hand on Johns shoulder "This isn't your fault"

"I promised I wouldn't let him hurt her"

Randy followed John into the house "You didn't know he would force Mel to tell him where Becki was, your not to blame for any of this. "What are you doing?" he asked as John headed up the stairs.

"Becki's gonna need stuff"

Randy followed him up to Becki's bedroom, he was starting to worry about John, it was like he was trying to avoid seeing Becki. He watched as John gathered some of Becki's clothes,

"John I don't think …."

"She'll need them" he snapped as he scurried round the room picking things up.

"No! She needs you" Randy stood in front on John and placed his hands on Johns shoulders

"You haven't seen her Randy" John sighed "I'm the last thing she needs"

"I have seen her" Randy said as John slumped back against a wall "Jeff was taking her to the hospital"

"How was she?" John had concentrated on not looking too closely at Becki's condition when he found her, the only thing he could remember was how she cried in pain when he picked her up. Even that memory was too much for him.

"You didn't see her?" Randy asked confused.

"I didn't want to see how hurt she was"

Randy was now officially worried about John, he wasn't handling any of this particularly well.

"I don't know how bad she's hurt" It wasn't a total lie, he didn't know how bad she was hurt but he could tell when he saw her that it would be pretty bad. When John didn't reply Randy continued

"That's why we have to go to the hospital now, you can get her things later John"

John sighed "I don't think I can handle seeing her hurt" he paused "especially if it's like Mel"

"Listen to me! Becki has gone through god knows what, you can't go to pieces because she needs you!"

John's anger was starting to rear its head once more "What would you know? It's not your girl that's lying in a hospital"

"your not thinking straight so I'm not answering that" Randy said slowly with a stern tone in his voice.

"Sorry" John sighed.

"Doesn't matter" Randy replied, he sounded angry "Come on Matt's waiting"

Matt drove them to the hospital in an awkward silence. Tension bounced between Randy and John, Matt wondered what had happened in Becki's house but thought better than to ask them. When they arrived at the hospital Randy jumped out of the car and rushed inside, surprisingly John trailed behind.

Randy found Jeff sitting in a relatives waiting room staring at the floor.

"Jeff"

"Oh hey man" Jeff replied running a hand through his coloured hair.

"How is she?" he asked as Matt entered the room.

"I don't know, the doctors are still with her, no one will tell me anything. Where's John?"

Randy and Matt turned round but there was no sign of John.

"He was behind me a minute ago" Matt said

"I'm starting to worry about him, he's not handling this well at all" Randy stated.

"I'll go and look for him" Matt said

"Nah give him a minute, then I'll go get him" Randy said as he sat next to Jeff.

"Are they a couple?" Jeff asked

"Who?" Matt asked sitting at the other side of Jeff

"John and Becki, idiot!"

Randy smirked, despite everything that was going on the two brothers still managed to bicker and make him laugh "Yeah they are, John's crazy about her"

"Maybe that's why he's not handling it well, I know I wouldn't if it was my girlfriend"

Before anyone could reply a doctor walked in, Randy stood up first followed by Matt and Jeff.

"How is she?" Randy asked

"Are you family?"

"No her family are in England, we're the next best thing"

"Okay, we should have some news for you soon"

"So you can't tell us anything?" Jeff asked

"We are trying to access her injuries, she has a few broken bones but that is all we can tell you for now."

Jeff was about to complain but Matt cut him off "Thank you"

The doctor nodded and left the room. Randy flopped back down into the chair as Jeff muttered

"How long does it take to access injuries?"

"It must be pretty bad" Randy said to no one in particular.

"Don't you think we should find John?" Matt asked when he noticed John was still nowhere to be seen.

"I'll go" Randy sighed and stood up.

John stood outside the hospital in a world of his own. He could still hear Deans voice in his head telling him what he had done to Becki, it made him feel sick.

"What are you doing?" Randy appeared at his side.

"Thinking"

"Bout?"

"Becki"

"John you have to stop blaming yourself"

"Easier said than done"

"Ok just go home, your gonna be no use to Bex" Randy was losing his patience with John, fast.

John was about to reply when he saw Joanne sprinting across the parking lot followed by Dawn and Mark.

"What's happened?" she puffed as she came to a stop in front of John.

John looked from Joanne to Randy, "I called her" Randy shrugged.

"Well?" Joanne asked again as Dawn and Mark joined them.

"Come inside and we'll fill you in" Randy said as he made his way back in.

Dawn, Joanne and Mark followed him but John stayed where he was. He was only beginning to realise just how much he cared about Becki, just the thought of her being hurt, which he knew she was, was driving him insane. He'd failed her because he couldn't protect her.

Around ten minutes later Joanne came outside to find John in the same place.

"You should be in there you know?" she said softly

John sighed "I know"

"So why aren't you?"

"I let her down Jo" he slumped against the wall.

"No you haven't John. You may not have been able to stop him hurting her but you stopped him from killing her" she placed a hand on his arm "You know that was what he was going to do"

Joanne like Randy was worried about John, she didn't expect him to handle any of this well but she did expect him to want to be at Becki's side, but instead it seemed like he was avoiding being anywhere near her.

"Do you have to put it like that?" John didn't want to think about what could have happened.

"Yeah I do, because that's what would have happened if you wasn't there! You didn't let her down you saved her and now she needs you"

"guys the doctors have news" Jeff stuck his head out of the entrance then went back inside.

Joanne looked at John, she'd never seen him look so frightened, holding out her hand she said

"Come on! She's gonna be fine" John gratefully took her hand and followed her inside.