I only have one thing to say on this update.
RIP Eddie we will never forget you
Chapter 37
"Make yourself at home, Matt's house is everyone's house"
John carried Becki inside as Matt ran into his living room and plumped up the cushions on his sofa.
"Thanks Matt" John said as he carefully placed Becki on the sofa.
Becki literally sank into it, she looked like she'd been swallowed by the huge cushions but she wasn't complaining, it was the first time she'd had something comfy to lie on since everything had happened.
"Comfy?" John grinned as she sank even further into the sofa.
"Yep"
Matt had ran upstairs and gathered a duvet and pillows, he placed the duvet over Becki and handed the pillows to John.
"Unless you guys need anything else, I'll leave you two alone for a while and go and bug Jeff"
"You don't have too Matt" Becki replied.
Matt grinned "I know, but I want too"
"Thanks man" John replied as Matt smiled at them both then left.
"Here, not that you need any pillows by the looks of it" John helped Bex sit up so he could put the pillows behind her.
"Don't want them" she said once she was sat up.
"Okay" John threw them on the floor and reached out to help Becki lay back down.
"Sit" Becki pointed to the space behind her
"Huh?" John frowned
"You forgot already that I employed you as my pillow?" Bex smiled
John laughed as he positioned himself behind her, he threw one leg onto the sofa so it was to the right of Becki's body and left his other leg on the floor.
"I don't recall excepting that job!"
Resting against the arm of the sofa he gently helped Bex lay back against his chest and pulled the duvet over them both.
"Better?" he asked as Becki sighed and rested her head against his left shoulder.
"Much better thank you"
"Can we talk now?" John gently wrapped his arms around her, his right arm carefully encircled her waist and Bex rested her left arm on top of it.
Becki sighed as John ran his left hand down her arm until their hands joined and replied "Yeah"
John hadn't wanted to talk at the hospital, he had said he wanted to get her home and comfortable first. Becki was fine with that, in truth since she found out Dean was awake she couldn't have got out of there quick enough. But this was a conversation neither of them really wanted to have.
"Dr Anderson told you didn't he?" Becki whispered
"He told me you had injuries of a sensitive nature"
Becki stared at the doorway in front of her "You can say it you know"
John sighed "Ok! I wont dance around the subject, did he or did he not rape you?"
John hadn't meant it to come out sounding so harsh but at the same time he didn't want to go back and forth for ages trying to get round it sensitively.
Had John's voice backed up his comment Becki would have been even more upset than she already was, but his voice lacked any sort of energy, he just sounded exhausted. There was no point in trying to soften her reply, nothing would make it any easier for either of them.
"Yes"
She felt John take a deep breath as his hand tightened around hers, but he said nothing.
They sat in silence for what felt like forever. John didn't know what to say or do, he just couldn't get his head round it even though he pretty much knew what her answer would be. He had too many thoughts running round in his head for him to form any sort of response.
"John say something please" At that point Bex didn't care what he said as long as he said something. She was terrified of what he would do, she had no explanation for her thoughts or emotions and the only thing running through her thoughts was that he was going to leave her now that he knew.
John was so caught up in his own thoughts he'd forgotten that Becki would be waiting for him to say something.
"I don't know what to say" he'd said it before he could even think about it.
"Oh" Bex didn't really know what she was expecting John to say, but it wasn't that.
The silence returned as John tried to compose himself and his thoughts. Becki just rested against him savouring the feel of his arms around her because she feared she wouldn't feel that again after this.
John's mind raced, he thought back to earlier that day and one comment burst into the forefront of his mind.
"Hell you never know she could even be pregnant and then you'll have a little me to look at!"
"Have you had tests?" he could have kicked himself as soon as the words came out of his mouth especially when Becki failed to hold back a sob.
"I'm sorry Bex, I didn't mean it to sound like that"
"It's ok" Becki whispered, she was trying her hardest not to cry, there was no emotion at all in John's voice and she wasn't sure how to take his comment.
"No it's not! I'm sorry, I shouldn't have said that"
"They did tests, they'll call when they get the results. They gave me the morning after pill thing too but I'll still have to do a pregnancy test. Is that what you wanted to know?"
When John didn't reply Becki decided to get the inevitable over with,
"Are you going to leave now?"
That snapped John out of his thoughts.
"What!"
"Are you going to leave now?" Becki whispered once more.
John stared at the top of her head for a moment, he'd been so caught up in his own thoughts he'd forgotten that Becki would be going through hell along with him.
"I'm not going anywhere! Baby I love you, why would you think I'd leave you?"
"Thought you wouldn't want me anymore" she didn't know why she thought that, she couldn't explain anything she thought anymore.
"Oh Bex" John whispered, he hugged her carefully and kissed the top of her head "I could never not want you! None of this is your fault, please don't think that it is."
Becki sank against him and whispered "sorry"
"No apologies! I'm here and we're gonna get through this together, no matter what happens!"
A couple of hours later Matt returned to find John and Becki still in the same position on the sofa. Becki was asleep and John was staring at the TV screen but not really watching it.
"Hey" Matt whispered
"Oh hey" John replied when he noticed Matt standing in the doorway
"You alright?"
John sighed "I guess"
"How about Bex?"
"She will be" John replied looking down at his sleeping girlfriend.
"Did you talk about work?"
"Nope, there's nothing to talk about"
Matt screwed up his face "Um….Bex knows about the belt and stuff"
"How did I know you'd spill!" John smirked then continued "Doesn't matter, I'm staying with Bex"
"Your not giving up that belt!" Becki said sleepily
"Bex…"
"No arguing! I wont let you give that up"
"think I best leave" Matt said before making a speedy exit.
"Becki I don't care about the belt!"
"That's a lie and you know it! I may not know much about wrestling but I can tell that winning that belt meant everything to you. You love what you do and I love you so I wont let you give it up, if you did you'd be unhappy and I don't want that"
"But you cant travel and I want you with me"
"Matt and Jeff are gonna be with me while your away, I'll be fine!"
"No Bex"
"Yes John"
John sighed "I'm not gonna win am I?"
"Nope! How long have you got till you have to go?"
"Day after tomorrow is when my week is up but there isn't a show till two days after that so I'm staying till then don't care what anyone says!"
Becki smiled "Ok I wont say anything"
"Good coz you wouldn't win!"
"Whatever" Becki replied as she snuggled up and went back to sleep.