Hey everyone! You guys are being treated so nicely-four chapters in four nights! takes a bow Sorry but you wont get five coz i'm stuck at my mums house and her computer sucks!

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Chapter 45

Later that night once Bex had fallen asleep John went to find Randy but was stopped by Joanne first.

"What's up?" John asked as Jo dragged him into her room.

"What's up with you?"

"huh?"

"I saw you earlier when Randy carried Bex into the kitchen! Randy saw it too! What was that look?"

"There wasn't a look!"

"Bull! What's going on?"

John sighed "It's nothing Jo"

"Well obviously it is something, so spill! Now!"

"Fine! I can't help but feel jealous when I see them together"

Joanne stared at him for a moment, sometimes she really didn't understand guys. Completely dumbstruck all she could reply was "Um…ok"

John stood glaring at her, he wished sometimes she'd just leave stuff alone as she obviously didn't have an answer for him.

"So you make me tell you, then all you say is ok? Jo why can't you just leave something's alone? If I needed your advice I'd come to you!" he growled

"Whoa" Jo was shocked at his outburst, it was the first time he'd ever really got fired up in front of her outside of work.

"First of all, all I can say is ok because it sounds ridiculous! You have absolutely no reason to be jealous of Randy. And secondly don't take it out on me, I'm only trying to help"

"You can't help though can you?" John lost it then.

Joanne took a step backwards as John continued to yell at her "Your always trying to fix everything! So how are you gonna fix all of this" John waved his arms around "Just leave it alone for once in your life…"

John froze as Joanne followed her first instinct and slapped him hard across his face.

Randy and Mark opened the door to see what all the shouting was about as Joanne said through clenched teeth "I understand that you have a lot to deal with right now…but don't you EVER speak to me like that again"

John hung his head as Joanne stormed out of the room with tears in her eyes. Mark followed her as Matt and Jeff came out of their rooms to see what was going on, when they noticed that Joanne was crying they followed her too.

Randy stood in the doorway and watched John. He hadn't moved at all, he was just stood there looking at the floor. Then without warning he spun round and walked straight past Randy.

After a minute Randy followed him, he found him stood in the doorway to Bex room watching her sleep. When John noticed him he sighed and closed the door quietly before heading downstairs. Randy continued to follow him, he hadn't had a proper chance to speak to John since he came back from England and it had been obvious that something was bothering John. Joanne had told him that John had a lot to deal with but he had never seen him like this and he certainly had never seen him yell at Joanne before. He watched John go out back and sit on the porch steps. He decided to check on Jo first before he got to the bottom of Johns problem.

Joanne was sat in living roomwith Mark, Matt and Jeff. She wasn't quite sure whether she was upset or fuming. She figured it was both.

"You ok?" Randy asked from the doorway

"Yeah" Jo shrugged

"What's his problem?" Mark asked

Randy shrugged as Jo replied "He has a lot to deal with, stuff you guys don't know about"

"still doesn't excuse him yelling at you" Randy replied but now he was intrigued.

"I know! I guess he's just not handling it as well as I thought he was" she sniffed

"I'll go knock some sense into him if you like" Mark offered knowing it would make her smile.

Sure enough Jo smiled "I can do that myself thanks!"

"Well before you do that let me have my chance to read him the riot act" Randy grinned at Jo as she nodded.

'Ok here we go' Randy said to himself as he headed out back.

Randy took a seat next to John on the steps. John didn't look at him he just sighed and ran his hands over his face.

"Wanna tell me what's going on?" Randy asked

"I don't think I know anymore, its all driving me nuts" John mumbled

"Okso start at the beginning? Jo said you've had a lot to deal with while I was in England"

"Yeah! You could say that!"

"So?"

John sighed and turned to look at Randy "He raped her!"

"Wha…What?" Randy didn't know what to say.

John looked away, he had no intention of saying it out loud again. "You heard me! Then you know what happened after that, with the jackass sending someone after her! It's not over either! I know its not!"

"Whoa! Slow down. Let me get this straight! Not the first bit, we'll come back to that. Dean sent someone after Bex, they trashed her house then threw a rock through Matt's kitchen window which hit him?"

"Yeah"

"So you went and broke his leg again?"

"Yeah!"

"But you don't think its over with?"

"I know its not, he wont stop just cos I broke his leg"

"He might!"

"Nah! He wont! The guy had the nerve to ask to speak to me and when I did he made it quite clear he wont stop"

"Wait you actually went and spoke to him?" Randy was beginning to think he'd entered the twilight zone.

"The cops wanted me too! So they could record it to gain evidence against him" John replied as he rested his head in his hands.

"Ok! So what exactly did he say that made it clear he wont stop?"

"He said if I didn't want Bex to end up the same way as the guy he ordered dead I'd have to leave her. Then…Jo doesn't know this so don't tell her!"

"Ok"

"When I re-broke his leg he told me that it didn't matter if he went to prison, he'd keep sending people and the only way I could stop him would be to kill him!"

Randy was stunned, he had no idea what to say but he could understand why John was so stressed out.

"Does Bex know that?"

"Hell no! Are you crazy?" John snapped

"Sorry" Randy held his hands up "Just thought you may have told her"

"She has enough to worry about! She doesn't need to know her boyfriend has to murder to someone to keep her safe"

"Whoa! What? Your not actually thinking about killing him?"

Johns only response was to look at Randy and sigh.

"You cant be serious?" Randy was getting freaked out.

"I'm not gonna kill him! But how do I protect Bex? He's just gonna keep sending people"

"If he's in prison how's he gonna contact them?"

"They have phones in prison dumbass!"

Randy rolled his eyes "I know that! But they can also keep a track of his calls"

John shrugged "I guess"

"Only thing you can do is deal with it when or if it happens"

"Oh it will happen and your right I guess!" John replied as he stood up and started pacing he decided not mention that he really was willing to kill Dean if he came anywhere near Becki again.

Randy watched him quietly for while before plucking up the courage to say

"Ok back to what you said first!"

John stood still and ran his hand over his face again, he'd done his best to act like everything was fine in front of Bex but really he was anything but fine.

"He raped her?" Randy had to check he had heard right because he didn't want to believe it.

"Yeah and she might be pregnant!" John replied as he flopped back down onto a step.

"How's Becki coping with this?" Randy was struggling to process all this information, how can one person have to go through so much?

"She's scared, she thought I'd leave her because of it"

"Your not gonna are you?"

John felt another flash of jealousy and anger as he turned to look at Randy "Of course not! What sort of question is that?"

"Sorry, just checking. If she is pregnant could the kid be yours?" John nodded

"Ok so stupid question but how are you coping with this?"

John snorted "I'm coping by screaming at the one person who's been there for me through all of this crap!"

"Jo understands, so what are you gonna do if Bex is pregnant?"

"I don't know. It would be cool to be a dad but I'm not sure I could be a father to his child"

"What's Jo said? She's normally full of wisdom"

"She didn't have any advice, she could only look at it from Bex point of view"

Randy shrugged "That makes sense I guess but I don't think that would have helped you much"

"Made me feel worse if anything"

"God I feel so bad for Bex" as an afterthought he added "and you"

"What do I do?" John felt totally lost, it didn't help that he would be leaving soon.

"I don't know what to say buddy"

"what would you do?" John asked

Randy thought about it, he didn't know what he would do. He was pretty certain he'd handle it worse than John.

"I'd cross each bridge as I'd come to it"

"That's helpful" John sniggered despite himself

"Well it's true! As far as the whole pregnancy thing goes do you think you'd be able to try and forget that Dean could be the father?"

"Um…not really"

"So would you ask her to have an abortion?"

"No, I'd never suggest that unless Bex wanted to do that, but I don't think she would"

"Ok well the way I'd look at it is, if the baby was Deans and Bex wanted to keep it I'd hope that the fact the baby would be part of Bex would be enough to help me get through it and love the baby"

John was impressed, he'd never thought of it that way and it made sense to him. The first bit of sense he'd been able to make of the situation actually.

"Randall I do believe you've just become wise!"

"Why thank you" Randy pretended to take a bow even though he was sitting down.

After a few more minutes silence Randy sighed and asked "John I need to ask you something"

"Shoot" John replied, he was holding his head in his hands again. Completely drained of energy now.

"Um…well I think it's something to do with what you and Jo were arguing about earlier"

'Well Jo said he'd noticed' John said to himself as he looked up.

"Spit it out Randy!"

"When I brought Bex into the kitchen after she'd woke up you had this weird look on your face when you looked at us. What was that about?"

John had intended to have a conversation with Randy about it but he had no energy for it now. Plus he was beginning to think he was being stupid.

"It was nothing"

Randy sighed "Dude! It was something. Look I'll feel uncomfortable if you leave and I'm here with Bex if you've got a problem with it"

"I'm just being stupid, I have no problem with you staying with Bex"

"Just tell me what's bothering you then" Randy was getting impatient, he knew there was something behind the look John had given him earlier in the day and he was determined to find out what it was.

John could feel his temper rising so he decided he may as well just get it over with before he lost his cool completely again.

"Ok! I cant help but feel jealous when I see you with her"

Randy thought about it for a minute then laughed "Your right you are being stupid. You have no need to be jealous dude. I like Mel remember!"

"Yeah, Yeah. There's just something about the way you two interact that's all"

Randy realised John was right and it made him question himself. Had he gone to England because Bex wanted him too or because he cared about Mel? He'd always flirted with Bex but wasn't that just harmless fun? Bex was his friend, sure she was pretty, beautiful even. But he wasn't attracted to her, was he?