Chapter 50

John sat straight up stunned. His sudden movement however had jolted Becki from her sleep. Briefly she looked around dazed before she realised who the figure sat on the bed to her right, with their back to her was.

Rubbing her eyes with her left hand she said "John?"

John stared straight ahead, he was still stunned he'd only been gone two and half days and already Randy had wheedled his way into her bed and now her dreams.

'I'm so gonna kick his ass!' he thought but was interrupted.

"John?" Bex asked again

He turned around and felt like his heart would melt as a huge smile spread across her face

"Oh my god what are you doing here?" she squealed as she held her arms out to him.

"Took the house shows off so I could be with you" he laid back down and sighed as she wrapped her arms round him, he rested his head on her shoulder, their roles reversed.

"Are you allowed to do that?"

"They're not happy bout it, but they didn't have much of a choice"

"John! You…" John put his fingers to her lips as he turned to face her, propping himself up on his elbow.

"Sssh. It doesn't matter now coz I'm here and all I wanna do is be with you! Ok?"

"Ok" Bex grinned as he laid back down draping his arm over her waist.

They laid there in silence for what felt like forever, at first Bex was quite happy to do so but soon she noticed that John was tense and the silence soon became uncomfortable for them both. Becki wanting to know what was wrong and John trying to control his growing anger.

"John?"

"Huh? Oh…sorry what's up"

"I was gonna ask you that, you seem tense, what's wrong?"

John wasn't sure he could talk about without shouting and the last thing he wanted to do was shout at Bex or scare her. He was pretty sure that if he said anything it would more than likely end in both.

"Doesn't matter" it came out sounding harsh and angry, even just thinking about it had got him mad and he felt awful as he felt Bex flinch at his tone.

"Sorry" he said softer as he sat up.

"Please tell me what's wrong"

"Bex I don't wanna upset you and I don't think I can talk about this without doing that"

"Your upsetting me already" she whispered.

He was acting weird and she was scared he was gonna say he'd changed his mind about sticking with her through everything she still had to face.

"I'm sorry" he sighed

"You've changed your mind haven't you?" if this was what he wanted to do she wanted to get it over with.

"Huh?"

"You've changed your mind about staying with me" Becki would have cried but she had no more energy or tears left to cry.

"I have no idea what your talking about" John replied confused

"Your leaving me!" Bex stated

Johns mind reeled, where on earth had she got that conclusion? He'd been so caught up in being jealous of Randy he'd forgotten that Bex was still facing and fighting her demons.

"No! God no! Bex I'm not leaving you, not ever" he said venomously as he took her hands in his.

"Geez I'm such an idiot! I'm so sorry I didn't mean to make you think that" he gathered her carefully into his arms.

"Then tell me what's wrong"

John was starting to think he was over reacting, he didn't want to keep anything from her so he decided to tell Bex the truth. She was gonna get upset, mad too when he thought about it and he was gonna look like a complete fool when he'd finished.

"Ok, every time I see you with Randy I get jealous. This morning I found you in bed together and I sorta lost it, then when I came to wake you up you were whispering his name in your sleep"

"What do you mean you sorta lost it?"

"Um…Randy and I kinda had a fight"

Becki was speechless, she wasn't quite sure if she should be mad at John or not.

"John, Randy was in bed with me coz I asked him to stay with me. I was having a nightmare when he came and woke me up, I didn't want to have another one so I asked him to stay with me. As for saying his name in my sleep, I cant explain it but if you were trying to wake me up I probably thought it was him seeing as he had stayed with me. I cant believe you fought with him, he isn't hurt is he?"

"I don't think so"

"You need to apologise to him"

"I will" John replied as he hugged her to him.

"You don't need to be jealous, Randy and I are friends that's all" Bex mumbled feeling a little hurt.

"I know, I'm sorry I was being stupid" John replied

'Maybe your not being stupid' Bex thought as she remembered the tension in the room when Randy had helped her change. The way she felt like she couldn't breathe as Randy's hands touched her skin. The uncomfortable feeling she had the returned.

"You ok?" John asked as she attempted to snuggle closer to him.

"Yeah, just glad your back" she whispered as a feeling of guilt spread throughout her.

Later in the day Becki was sat with Jeff in the living room. Matt and Joanne had disappeared off somewhere with Lucas and John had gone to apologise to Randy who hadn't left his room since the earlier incident.

Becki was still trying to work out her feelings, she felt guilty about the altercation between her and Randy a few nights ago.

'Why? Nothing happened!' she thought but she couldn't shake the feeling of how she felt as he helped her get dressed. The tension between them simply took her breath away! But she loved John and that would never change!

Her thoughts were disturbed by a loud bang above her head.

"Oh not again!" Jeff sighed as he stood up to go and separate the fight.

"Take me with you" Bex ordered

"Bex, that's not a good idea" Jeff replied raising an eyebrow.

"Jeff, take me with you! This is getting ridiculous!"

"Ok" Jeff picked her up and took her with him.

They didn't need to get to Randy's room to see what was going on. As they reached the top of the stairs they found John and Randy fighting in the hallway, pushing each other into the walls and shouting at each other.

"K, I'm not trying to separate them again, I landed on my ass last time" Jeff said to Becki as he put her down and helped her stand next to him.

"You wont have too" she replied glaring at the scuffling pair.

"Your insane!" Randy shouted as he tackled John to the floor

"Oh really! Then why is guilt written all over your face?" John spat back as he attempted to get Randy into a headlock.

"Well at least they're not throwing punches" Jeff observed then winced as Randy punched John "I stand corrected" he added.

"Stop it" Bex said as Randy went to punch John again.

"Stop it" she repeated as John stopped the punch and rolled him over.

"STOP IT!" Bex yelled as John was about to punch Randy.

Both of them froze and looked over to see Bex stood next Jeff with a look of horror and anger on her face. John let Randy go and stood up, he was about to walk over to Bex when she held up her hand, stopping him.

"Why are you two are fighting again? Your acting like a couple of five year olds! Don't you think I have enough to deal with without worrying about you two fighting every ten minutes! Your best friends for gods sake! Get over it and until you two sort this crap out I don't wanna see either of you!"

"Wait Bex…."

"No John! Jeff help me back downstairs"

Jeff looked at Randy and John and shrugged. He picked Bex back up and took her downstairs, he was dying to laugh, the look on their faces when she yelled at them was priceless.

"You ok?" he asked as he placed her back on the sofa.

"Ugh! They make me so mad! They were punching each other! What is the matter with them?"

"Well actually John never got to throw a punch! You stopped him!" Jeff smirked

Becki was angry with them both but when Jeff pointed that out she felt more anger towards Randy, he'd thrown the first punch, she would have expected it to be John seeing as he was the one with the temper, but Randy, why was he punching John first? Her anger was soon focused on both of them again when she realised that John was about to punch Randy too if she hadn't stopped them.

"Idiots" she muttered as Jeff started laughing at her.

Meanwhile upstairs both John and Randy were still stood in the hallway.

"Now see what you've done" John snapped

"What I've done? You're the one with the problem"

"Who attacked who?" John snapped.

When Randy didn't reply John continued "Yeah, you attacked me and now Bex is mad at me!"

"Sorry" Randy mumbled

"Whatever dude!"

"I am sorry! I don't want Bex to be mad at either of us"

"I'm sure you don't!" John replied sarcastically

"There you go again!"

"Its written all over your face Randy! That's why you attacked me when I called you on it"

Randy sighed "I attacked you coz it was the only way to shut you up"

"Yeah whatever! Keep telling yourself that even though we both know the real reason!"

"Fine I'll leave if that will make you feel better" Randy snapped

"No! Bex wants you here when I'm not! Take care of her, look out for her, make sure she's ok but keep your hands off her" John said before walking away.