Chapter 56

'Oh god what have I done?' Randy thought to himself as he paced across his room.

When Becki had realised what they were doing she'd pulled away from him, he'd muttered a stunned 'sorry' before rushing from the room. Leaving a shocked Becki behind.

John was going to murder him, painfully!

Randy felt even worse because kissing Bex had made him realise it really was Melody he wanted. He couldn't even explain what it was about Bex that had made him want to kiss her.

He wanted Melody and Bex had been the closest thing to her, that was the only thing Randy could think of, it was all so messed up.

'I'm a dead man' he muttered to himself as he flopped down onto his bed.

After everything John and Bex had been through he had to go and mess it up some more. He only hoped they'd be able to get through it. Once John had killed him of course!

'What have I done?' Bex thought as she sat stunned where Randy had left her.

Whatever mixed up feelings she had felt for Randy didn't matter anymore, all she could think about was John and what she had done. She'd kissed Randy back and betrayed John!

'Why he hell did I kiss him back?' it was a thought she couldn't answer, she didn't know why she had kissed him back.

A tear slid down her cheek, she loved John and now she'd messed it up. Dean had taken so much away from her, John was the one good thing she had, now she was gonna lose him and she only had herself to blame.

He'd stood by her despite what Dean had done, he'd risked giving up his title for her, he'd risked getting in trouble to spend extra time with her and now she'd come between John and his best friend.

'what else am I gonna put him through?' she thought

At that moment Bex hated herself, she caused nothing but pain. Melody was laying in a hospital bed because of her, John had got dragged into it all and could have got himself locked up for attacking Dean, he'd been hurt seeing her injured and now she was going to cause him more pain. She didn't want to cause him anymore pain.

Letting her tears flow Bex curled up on the bed while she thought about what she needed to do.

Matt stumbled out of bed at an ungodly hour to check on Bex. He'd heard Randy check on her before he went to bed but she'd been quiet all night since then and instinct told him to check on her. He was shocked when he found her sat on her bed crying over an envelope.

"Bex, what's wrong?"

Becki turned the envelope over in her hands, she didn't want to do this, but it was best for John. He was all she could think about she had to do what was best for him.

She knew what she had to do.

Looking down at the envelope in her hands she whispered "Matt I need your help"

Joanne and Jeff stumbled into the house at around 9am. Jeff headed straight to his bed without a word. Joanne dumped the bags in the hallway and headed up to her room but she didn't make it there, she was stopped by the phone ringing.

"Hello?" she yawned into the phone

"Sorry, is that Joanne?"

"Yeah, who is this?"

"It's David, Becki's dad"

"Oh sorry David, Hi, What's up?"

"Um well I'm calling about Mel" he sounded tired and distracted.

"What's wrong?"

"Early this morning she was rushed into theatre, she had too much fluid putting pressure on her brain"

"Oh my god! Is she ok?" Joanne was now wide awake.

"They drained the fluid this morning but the doctors say they'll have to do it again and hopefully after that she'll be ok. They don't know for sure"

"That's awful, poor Mel"

"Yeah, um she wanted Randy to know what happened and could you let Becki know"

"Sure" Joanne wasn't looking forward to telling Bex.

"Thank you, I'd better get back to Mel now"

"Give Mel a hug for me"

"I will, thanks again, bye"

"Bye David"

Putting the phone down Joanne sat on the stairs and thought about what David had just told her. Poor Mel, as if she hadn't been through enough. She didn't know who to tell first, neither Bex or Randy would take the news well.

'I'll get the worst one over with first' she thought and headed to Becki's room.

Joanne frowned when she found an empty bed.

'Huh? I didn't see her downstairs'

Joanne made her way back downstairs to look for Bex, she went in every room and out back by the pool and there was no sign of her. Scratching her head Jo headed back upstairs, Jeff's room was closest so she poked her head round the door to find Jeff sprawled across his bed fast asleep.

Next she used logic and headed to Randy's room only to find that empty too.

'Oh you had better not have done anything stupid Randy' she thought to herself as she figured that where ever Bex was Randy would be.

Deciding to ask Matt if he knew where they had gone she headed to his room, she was stopped in her tracks when she pushed the door open to find Randy pacing back and forth across the room.

"Why are you in here?" she asked with a raised eyebrow.

"Jo I've done something stupid" Randy looked at her with sad eyes.

"What've you done?" Jo stood frozen in the doorway, she didn't think she was gonna like his reply.

"I kissed Becki" he was distraught, John was going to kill him.

Joanne's eyes widened "You did what?" she asked slowly

"I kissed her and well…she kissed me back" Randy fell onto the bed and held his head in his hands.

"Oh my god Randy! Are you insane?"

"I didn't mean for it to happen" he pleaded as Joanne glared at him.

"I cant believe you!" she got a sinking feeling in her stomach, now she knew why Bex was no where to be found, she couldn't even imagine the sort of emotional state she would be in. Joanne just hoped she hadn't done what Jo was thinking she had.

"I don't know what to do Jo! I mean I was so confused but I know I shouldn't have done it, I like Mel not Bex but it's just all so messed up"

Joanne shook her head, he was making no sense "Care to explain what that means?"

Randy shrugged "I don't know what it was with Bex but kissing her made me realise there's nothing there, its Mel I want"

"Too late now though isn't it? Randy you do realise what you've done?"

"Yes" Randy cried

Joanne sighed "It gets worse! Bex isn't in the house"

"Wha…What?"

"Becki isn't here! I've searched the house"

"No, god no" Randy whispered

"I cant believe you Randy! John is gonna murder you" as an afterthought she added "He's your best friend"

Randy couldn't reply, he just stared at the floor as Joanne walked away.

As Joanne walked away she realised that Matt was nowhere to be found either and the feeling that was growing in the pit of her stomach got worse.

Pulling her cell out of her pocket she dialled Matt's number, praying that he would answer but he didn't.

'Damnit Matt' she muttered as she slammed her cell shut.

Why did Randy have to go and kiss her? And what was with Bex kissing him back?

'Oh god! John!' Joanne whispered to herself.

He adored Bex, it was obvious he was utterly and completely head over heels in love with her. Joanne didn't want to even imagine how he was going to react to this. It was only a kiss but to John it would be so much more and both Bex and Randy knew it.

Joanne sat on the stairs staring at the front door.

'Any minute now Matt will walk in with Bex, he'll have taken her out for some fresh air or something and we'll be able to work this out without John finding out' she thought to herself.

Her optimism ended there when Matt walked in….alone.

"Oh…Hey" he said softly as he spotted Joanne on the stairs.

One look at his face said it all to Joanne and the sinking feeling she'd had hit her full force.

"Please tell me you don't know where Bex is"

Matt looked at her sadly as he closed the door behind him.

"Where is she?" Jo asked quietly

"On a plane"

She was pretty sure she knew the answer to the question she was going to ask but she asked anyway

"Where to?"

"England"

Joanne held her head in her hands, as 'I knew it' rang through her head.

"She left this for John" Matt held out the envelope Bex had been crying over.

"Oh god! John" Jo whispered once more as Matt sat beside her.

Two hours later Matt, Jeff and Randy were now sat on the sofa in the living room while Joanne paced. Randy was heartbroken, he couldn't believe what he had done. Joanne had told Matt and Jeff what had happened and neither of them had been particularly talkative towards Randy since.

"He's gonna tear you to pieces man!" Matt snapped, he was fuming at Randy for causing this. Even though it was just a kiss, it was still betrayal. Matt didn't blame Bex, after everything she had been through he knew her emotions would be all over the place. Becki was in a terrible state that morning when he'd taken her to the airport, she was heartbroken and he knew she didn't want to leave. She had told him not to ask her any questions, just help her. He respected her wishes because she was in such a state, now he wished he'd asked, maybe he could have stopped her. He felt so bad for John.

"I know" was all Randy could reply.

"Its gonna break his heart" Joanne whispered while both Matt and Jeff glared at Randy.

"What did she say again?" Jo asked Matt

"She gave me the envelope and said that it was best for John. That's all she'd tell me"

"Did you not question her?" Randy asked

"No! Because the poor girl was heartbroken" Matt snapped

Randy felt even worse, he should have known, Bex had been through too much for one person already. Her emotions were shot and he'd just gone and made it worse.

They all jumped as Randy's cell started to ring.

"It's him" Randy sighed as he checked the id.

"You should be the one to tell him" Jeff said, he'd stayed quiet the entire time but as far as he was concerned Randy should have known better and he should be the one to tell his best friend why his girlfriend had left.

"I cant" Randy pleaded with panic in his eyes.

"Give it here" Joanne snapped

Randy threw the phone to her, she caught it and gave one last glare to Randy before leaving the room.

"Hey John" she sighed

"Hey Jo, Why you answering Randy's phone?"

"He cant come to the phone" Jo wanted to cry, she couldn't bear to tell him.

"Why? what's wrong? Is Bex ok?"

"John" Jo whispered

"Joanne, what's going on?"

"I'm so sorry John, It's Becki"

"What? What about Becki"

"She's gone"

"What?"

"She's gone back to England, she's left"

Joanne listened to the eerie silence on the other end of the line and she knew she'd just broken John's heart.

A tear ran down her cheek as the line went dead.