AN: Loved Babe and JR's talk today. God I love those two! Anyway, I'm going to put a couple chapters up tonight because... well I guess I'm just in a good mood. Today's AMC just put me in a JABE mood, so if anyone else feels like that here is some more JABE for ya! -Danielle

Ch. 9

Ruined

"Bianca, please, open up!" Kendall cried, knocking on Bianca's door.

Bianca opened the door, angry and ready to rage at Kendall, but when she saw her she forgot all about her anger.

"Kendall, oh my god." Bianca said, pulling Kendall into her apartment.

Kendall looked like crap. Her eyes were red and puffy from crying; her mascara mixed with her tears and covered her cheeks. Her usually soft curly hair was now thrown up carelessly and a frizzy mess. Kendall held tissues in her hand.

Bianca led her over to the couch and Kendall blew her nose, "Oh honey, I'm sorry."

"I really loved him, and I screwed it up! I was so stupid; I didn't want to get hurt and in the end I hurt myself more than Zach ever could. I'M the reason why Zach and I are getting divorced now!" Kendall wailed, and Bianca pulled her into a hug.

Bianca very seldom saw Kendall like this. Kendall was usually the strong, untouchable one.

"It wasn't your entire fault. Zach didn't exactly have the best track record with women. Take Maria..."

"Maria and I are nothing alike." Kendall snapped.

"You're right, you're right. You just didn't want to get hurt. I'm not saying what you did was right, but you had reason."

"But I wasn't even thinking about Zach at all Binks, that's the problem!" Kendall paused to blow her nose, "I wanted to get back at that back-stabbing bitch who took Miranda."

"Now maybe next time you'll listen to me when I tell you revenge isn't always an answer."

"I know, I know!" Kendall cried.

"Honey, I don't want to make you feel worse, but you do realize that you ruined two relationships. Yours and Zach's, and Babe and JR's."

"What kind of relationship could Babe and JR have had, though?" Kendall sat up, "After everything that Babe has put him through..."

"And what JR has put her through," Bianca interjected.

"They just shouldn't be together, that's all." Kendall finished.

"I don't know about that Kendall. I know they really love each other, well Babe really loves JR, and I know that love can conquer anything. Look at Maggie and I, our mother and Jack, and I know that with enough work, you and Zach can make it too."

"Do you really think so?" Kendall asked, hopeful.

Bianca nodded, "Yes, now go and talk to him!"

Kendall looked at her sister, "Not now Binks, its 2 in the morning."

"And you don't look so hot." Bianca told her.

Kendall faked shocked and hurt, and then grabbed a pillow and hit her sister.

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Jamie sat on his couch and leaned his head back, lost in thought. JR had left earlier without a clear answer whether Jamie would help him or not. Jamie told him he would call when he knew what to do. Jamie wanted to call Bianca and ask what she thought, but it was way too late... or too early, to call her and get her advice. Plus, he already knew what she would say.

How would he decide between his brother, and one of his old best friends turn ex-friend turned friend again? And he also had to think of the woman he loved, the woman JR also loved and wanted to be with, and she wanted to be with him. Jamie finally knew how JR felt when Babe chose to be with Jamie instead of JR.

Now as Jamie sat there and thought about the past and the future he could have had with Babe, he made his decision.

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Babe was sitting on her bed, still wearing the clothes she had on earlier. She put a hand close to her neck, reaching for her star necklace. She had had this necklace since JR and Babe were in San Diego. It always gave her comfort when she needed it, and she always wore it, except on times when she might run into JR. She didn't want him to know she still had it.

Babe had lied and told Jamie she had gotten the necklace from her grandmother, and he believed her. Whenever Babe was troubled by something she would just grab for the necklace, and when she felt the silver in her hands she instantly felt a little bit better, and she always remembered the words JR had told her when he first gave her the necklace. It was on the night before they were headed back to Pine Valley.

"I know leaving to meet a family is kind of scary, and with my family it's even worse so you have a right to be scared. But I got this necklace for you to wear, so whenever you are feeling scared or overwhelmed, you can just feel the weight of it around your neck or in your hand and think of me and know that I love you, and everything will be alright. I'll never let anything happen to you."

Babe smiled at the memory, and then started crying again. She made a fist around the necklace and yanked it off, hearing the clasp break. She held it in her hand for a moment, staring at it, and then chucked it at the wall. She lay back on her bed and spent the rest of the night crying, wishing that even though JR caused her all this pain, all she wanted was for him to hold her and tell her everything would be OK.