Ch. 16

Truth

The next day, Babe had called Lucky and asked her to come over. She was getting ready, not enjoying the feeling in her stomach. She was nervous. Babe planned on telling Lucky what she had done in her past today; she wanted to see how he would react. That would help her make her decision.

Babe had called Bianca late last night, and she told her about what JR had said. Bianca told Babe she should give JR a second chance because they belonged together. Babe wasn't so sure. Babe then compromised. She told Bianca she would tell Lucky about her past and see what he would do. Even though Bianca didn't tell Babe what she was thinking, she hoped Lucky didn't take it too well so Babe and JR could get together. If Lucky did take the news well, it would make it harder for Babe to decide.

Babe knew it should be a no-brainer. She loved JR, no one could ever compare. It wasn't even a choice between Lucky and JR, it was a choice between risking her heart again or making sure it stayed safe. Babe knew that if she stayed with Lucky, she would be fine because he wouldn't be able to hurt her. No matter what he did, he couldn't break her heart because she didn't love him.

But JR, he could hurt her. He could do it easily, too. JR held her heart in his fist, and any time he became angry or hurt, he could squeeze his fist and Babe's heart would break. Babe wasn't sure if she could go back to that.

She turned on the news to watch the weather. The weather man warned everyone to be careful because the roads were very icy today because of the freezing rain that occurred this morning. Babe shut off her TV and ran a brush through her straight hair, staring at herself in the mirror.

How am I going to do this? Babe thought to herself.

Babe heard a knock on her door and took a deep breath, preparing herself. She opened the door, trying to look cheery.

"Hey Babe, what's up?" Lucky asked.

"Well, I thought today would be a good day to go and look around PV." And to have a chance to talk, Babe thought but didn't add.

"Sounds good." Lucky told her and Babe locked her door and walked out to Lucky's car.

After a while of silence and driving in the car, Lucky asked, "Are you OK Babe? You're pretty quiet, and you didn't sound so good on the phone last night."

"I'm sorry, Lucky; I have a lot on my mind." Babe told him, and then looked around, they were by the park.

"Why don't you pull over here?" Babe suggested, and Lucky nodded.

After they had pulled over Lucky looked at her, "Babe, you look like you need to tell me something."

Babe nodded, "I do. But it's going to be really hard for me to say, and you might not want to be in the same car with me after I finish."

"Why don't you just tell me and I'll decide for myself?" Lucky said soothingly, and Babe nodded.

Babe started telling Lucky about how she had married JR, all the things she had done while married, keeping Bianca's child away from her, telling JR his son was dead and taking him on the run with Jamie, and countless other things that had happened.

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Bianca walked into the Chandler mansion and walked up the stairs and knocked on JR's door.

"Are you dressed this time?" Bianca called.

JR pulled open the door, wearing a pair of blue jeans and a grey sweater.

"I can see that you are." Bianca said, following JR into his room.

JR sat down on his bed and rubbed the bridge of his nose.

"I don't know what to do, Bianca." JR said hopelessly.

"Is this about Babe?" Bianca asked, sitting down next to him.

"I never though I would be back here, ya know? Feeling all these things for Babe again. After she told me my child was dead, and cheated on me, and lied to me, I was sure I could never feel anything for her again. And then all of the sudden, I just remember looking at her as she held my son... and I felt all these feelings that I hadn't felt in forever."

"And it scared you, didn't it?"

"I was terrified. I didn't want to feel anything for her, and I didn't want anyone to know I felt something for her. But it wasn't only that, I was scared I was going to get hurt again." JR admitted.

"When I talked to Babe and we decided to be friends again, I was taking a big risk. I wasn't sure if after everything I could trust her, or we could even be friends again. But in that one afternoon she changed my mind completely. I missed having Babe and her friendship around." Bianca told him.

"I know, and now that Babe is barely around anymore except when she comes and sees our son, I am so lonely. I forgot how lonely I actually was until Babe came into my life. She made me stop with all my revenge and my anger, at least for a little while." JR said.

"Babe changes people, and me, you, Jamie, Krystal and David seem to be the only people that know that. Everyone else hates her. I mean they have a right to, they just don't know the real woman underneath." Bianca explained.

"And now because of what I've done, I might have lost her forever. Well, Lucky Spencer seems like a good guy, right? He'll take care of her?"

Bianca looked at him, "Where did that come from?"

"Babe said she had to think decide between me and Lucky."

"She may have said that JR, but she didn't mean it."

"Huh?" JR asked, confused.

"JR, it has never been between you and Lucky. If it was that, Babe would have chosen you in a heartbeat."

"Then why did she say..."

"She is afraid to get hurt again, just like you are. Don't forget that you also did some really bad things to her. She knows that you don't trust her and that hurts her. Babe wants a relationship with you, more than anything. She wants to be a family with you and Little A, but she knows that it may not work out and she doesn't want to deal with that heartbreak again because this time it isn't just you and her, there is her son too. She doesn't want your relationship to end badly and you try and take full custody of your son and never let her see him again."

"I would never do that, well, not again at least."

"Are you sure, JR?"

"Bianca, I would never, ever do that to Babe again. I've learned my lesson."

"I believe that you have, JR." Bianca said honestly.

"Where is Babe now?" Bianca asked.

"She is with Lucky. She is telling him about her past."

JR sighed, and looked down.

"JR, you don't need to worry about Lucky. There is something about him you don't know."

JR looked at her with a puzzled expression on his face.