Ch. 20

Who you really are

JR was calling Jamie on his cell phone from his car about ten minutes later. Bianca had stayed at the hospital, wanting to stay near Babe.

"Hello?" Jamie said on the other end.

"Jamie, it's me. Where are you?" JR asked.

"I'm pulling up at you're house, why?" Jamie wondered.

"I need you to wait for me to get there; I don't want you telling Krystal and David alone." JR said.

"You got it. How was she?" Jamie asked, concerned.

"As good as anyone could be if they didn't remember their whole life." JR said to him.

"This is going to destroy Krystal. Her daughter losing all the memories of them..." Jamie said.

"I know," JR said, staring straight ahead.

"This has got to be hard on you, too." Jamie said gently.

"You're right, it is. But I just have to know that our Babe will be back." JR told him.

"That's the way we have to think. This is Babe; she fights so hard for what she wants. And what she wants is to be a family with you and your son. She won't give up easily." Jamie tried to ease JR's fears.

"I hope so..." JR trailed off and then hung up, driving the rest of the way lost in his own thoughts.

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Babe was staring up at the ceiling, trying desperately to recall memories from her past. It was terrifying having to learn you're name from a complete stranger, not knowing who you were, or the people you loved or cared about. You hurt the people you supposedly do care about because you can't remember them.

Babe sighed. She was the one who couldn't remember anything, but she wasn't feeling sorry for herself, she felt sorry for JR. Babe saw the pain in his eyes when he realized that she really couldn't remember him. But even though she couldn't remember him, she just had this feeling when he was around. She felt safe, and happy.

This man must be important in my life, Babe thought to herself.

Babe also thought about how reluctant JR was being about telling her about her past. She knew it couldn't have been that good since he didn't really want to tell her. She wondered what could have happened, but she stopped because she knew she hadn't the faintest idea about what her occurred in her past.

And her son, she only knew his name and age. She didn't know what he looked like, or how he sounded, or the way he felt in her arms. She didn't know when he learned to walk, or when he was born.

How could I forget my own child? Babe thought.

Babe heard her door open and shut quietly. She opened her eyes and looked around, trying to get them used to the dark. She saw a small shadow near the door.

"Who's here?" She called out.

Finally, someone switched on the lights. A small, older woman was standing near the door. She had no smile on her face and Babe knew instantly that this woman and Babe were not friends.

"Who are you?" Babe asked.

"Oh Babe, such a shame. You suffering from amnesia and all." The woman said, walking closer and closer to Babe's bed.

"Who are you?" Babe repeated, louder.

"No need to get worked up now, Babe. I'm Erica Kane. I just wanted to come by and see you." Erica said smoothly.

"We aren't friends, are we?" Babe looked at the woman who was now smiling, but it wasn't a friendly smile.

"No, we aren't. But you and my daughter are. Have you seen Bianca yet?"

"Who's Bianca?" Babe wondered.

"Oh, so you haven't met her yet? Then I guess they haven't told you about your past, either."

"The only people I have met are JR and my doctors. What about my past?" Babe asked.

"Do you really want me to tell you? Fine, I will. But you won't like it. You don't have many fans in Pine Valley."

"Why not?"

"Because Babe, you let my sweet daughter Bianca believe her baby was dead! You kept Bianca's child for months, knowing full well that it was Bianca's child and not yours!"

"What!"

Babe didn't believe what this woman was saying. How could she tell another woman that her child was dead and then keep that child for herself? But Babe didn't remember her past, so she could have easily done something like that.

"You almost killed my daughter, and you destroyed our family. Most of Pine Valley hates you now, and I am shocked that JR would even think about being remotely nice to you. After what you did to him..."

"What did I do to him?" Babe asked with a sinking feeling in her stomach.

"You cheated on him with his brother Jamie, and you lied to him! You got married to JR while you were still married to someone else!" Erica almost yelled, making sure that Babe would not even want to recover.

"I cheated on him with Jamie? And who was I married to?" Babe asked.

"Paul Cramer, who was a snake just like you are. And then you told JR that his son was dead, just like you did with Bianca! You took your son and ran away with him and Jamie. I can't believe Bianca and JR would even talk to you again after what you did to them. But you must have sweet talked them somehow. But I guarantee that they will see past your lies and see you for the slimy bitch you really are!" Erica growled at her.

Babe's eyes filled with tears as she looked at Erica, "How could I have done something like that?"

"Because it is who you are. Babe, you are a horrible person and you don't even deserve to live." Erica said coldly.

Babe looked back up at Erica who gave her one last dirty look, and then she walked out of Babe's room, leaving Babe feeling lonely, and ashamed, and horrified knowing that kind of things she did.

You don't deserve to live, Erica's words echoed in Babe's mind.

"She's right." Babe said softly to no one.