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I Know the Truth
Chapter 2: Secrets
Journal
September 9
Neville Longbottom
OK…. This is my 6th day writing in here and it's not making anything better. I mean, I still have bad luck, I am still scared of Snape, and I still like Draco. But I can't tell anyone because then everyone in the school would know. I definitely can't tell Draco, can I? If he found out, I'd be dead in 5 seconds. I guess I realized I was gay (I think that's what Americans say. Jennifer, a transfer student from America, told me it is.) when I was in my 4th year. I had a HUGE crush on Cedric Diggory. But who else didn't? Oh yeah, that's right…. Most blokes like girls. I don't really think about girls that much…. but Hermione is my best friend now. Maybe I could ask her for advice. Would she tell Harry? I could promise to get Harry to ask her out if she helps me get over Draco. I wonder…
Well, things are pretty much the same here at Hogwarts. Same potions class, same food. Same new Defense against the Dark Arts professor. This year's professor is about 25 and let me tell you, he is HOT! I swear if you touched his abs it would feel like touching marble. They look so smooth and tan and……………… Ok, I'm back. I had to chase Crookshanks away from Pig. Pig has been staying with us in the dorm because the other owls pick on him. That is similar to what would happen if people knew I was into blokes. I'd have to stay under a careful eye at all times. The teachers probably wouldn't care though. I wonder which Professor Allensburg goes for. He will be snatched up in a second by some hot, famous witch or wizard any day now……. But I suppose it doesn't hurt to daydream. I mean if he wasn't into blokes, I'd survive. There are other blokes out there. But I want Draco or an older man. And he's the youngest older man around. Today in Potions, we had to make a Sight potion. If you are blind it could cure you. So everyone made a potion and Snape went around the room making people temporarily blind. We would still be blind right now if they hadn't worked. But anyway, when he made me blind I tried some of Ron's potion. Next thing I know, Professor Snape is supporting me with his left arm and giving me CPR. I guess Ron's potion was not the right thing. All I know is that right before Snape realized I was awake, he tried again to restart my breathing. He has really soft, warm lips….. I hope no one ever reads this. I would die if anyone found out that I like Draco AND Snape! Well, I'd better go….
Neville
Journal
September 10
Hermione
Oh my goodness! Guess what? Neville likes Draco! But I can only tell you because if I tell anyone else I am dead meat. Neville might not look it but he has got a killer left-hook. Well, he promised to do something for me so I wonder what it is….. I wonder if he likes Harry? He'd better not because as soon as I get the courage, I am spilling my guts to Harry. I will just talk to him and see his response. If he likes me, good. We might go out. But if he doesn't, I'll just find someone new. I mean, there are plenty of eligible blokes in this school. I wonder if that new DATDA professor is available. I mean, that guy is probably on a date every night. I could follow him to find out. He's not much older than us 7th years, maybe 23 or so.
All I know is that I have been searching for a way to bring Sirius back and came across something. What if everyone is lying to us? What if Sirius wasn't even there that day in the Department of Mysteries. What if he had performed a switching spell with someone and is currently looking for a way to tell Harry….. I think if he is alive, wee need some sort of sign. Oh. I've got it! I wonder if this is true! I've got to find out! If Sirius is alive, Harry will stop being so bitter and I can stop crying myself to sleep. I loved Sirius like the wizard father I never had. Why did my parents have to be Muggles? Oh well, what's done is done. They will always be Muggles and I can't change that. I was speaking with Professor Dumbledore about becoming an Auror. I want nothing more. Well…. Except Harry but that's it. He asked why I want to be an Auror when I have the grades to be anything. I told him nothing would please me more than to be able to stop Voldemort and his followers. He said, "Wouldn't we all?" I know that I am a little too proud of my knowledge and it gets me good marks but still. You'd think Dumbledore would think it is brave to want to stop corruption. But he just wants me to become a professor or something peaceful like that. But I can't let Harry know about my theory until I have proven it. The day will come and when it does we can stop worrying. Well, it's light's out so I'd better go.
Hugs & Kisses,
Hermione