A/N: Ok, lotsa important notes for this chappy. Firstly, I would like to state that I hate song-fics. I never read the lyrics people write in the chappys. I always just read what ever song it is and then find it and listen to it. I can't stand it when ppl put lyrics into the main body of chapters. But! To contradict myself, I have done exactly that. I need to explain this a bit and stuff… Ok:
1) I didn't write these lyrics or the song, that can be claimed by "Within Temptation" – A wicked dutch goth band, kinda like Evanessence.
2) I HIGHLY recommend that any fans of FFX/FFX2 goto the website on my profile (its listed as my homepage)and download this AWESOME music video. The song is called Ice Queen. For those of you who can't d'l video for whatever reason, then get a copy of this song no matter what the cost.
3) I think putting the lyrics in here is ok because it's Yuna singing and not just some song playing on the radio and I didn't do it in normal poem form that takes up a million pages.…
Well that's my excuse anyway. I hope you guys don't mind. Anyway, that's about it. Enjoy.
.:How Can I Not Love You:.
Tidus slowly opened his eyes. The room was dark and a beautiful smell teased his nostrils into waking him up fully.
Feeling a little bit disorientated, he sat up and ran his hand through his hair. The blinds in the living room had been closed and there was a small lamp on in the corner of the room casting a faint orange glow over the room. Tidus scratched the back of his head and looked around. He saw Yuna in the kitchen and then he remembered where he was and what had happened that day. He stood up and walked quietly over to where Yuna was standing. Whatever she was cooking, it smelled delicious.
Yuna turned and saw Tidus. Instead of jumping, like a normal person would when they turn to find someone standing where there previously wasn't anyone, she simply smiled.
"Morning, Sunshine." She said.
"Hey." Tidus said sheepishly with a small wave of his hand. "What's cooking? It smells great." He leaned over so he could see into the pot on the stove.
"Spaghetti. It's nothing special, but I made enough for you if you wanted to stay for dinner. I mean, that's if you don't have any other plans…" Yuna asked as she blushed a little and turned back to stir the pot.
Tidus smiled and walked slowly up behind her until his chest was touching her back. He put his arms around her shoulders and rested his head against hers.
"I love to stay for dinner." He said quietly into her ear. Yuna closed her eyes and let go of the spoon into the pot. Her hands fell to her sides and she gently leaned backwards into him.
Yuna was scared to breathe. She was frightened that if she moved, she would wake up and find this all to be dream. She could feel his warm steady breaths on her neck and they in turn sent a warm rush through her entire body. His arms around her were so gentle yet so protective. His presence permeated her very existence. Sshe began to feel her knees wobble and she remembered she hadn't taken a breath. She slowly exhaled and drew in a long, silent breath.
As Tidus put his arms around Yuna's shoulders, his heart was going a million miles a minute.
Breathe, Tidus. Just breathe. What's the worst that could happen? Tidus asked himself as he concentrated on his breathing and closed his eyes. One breath at a time. Breathe in, breathe out. Breathe in… He repeated this over and over until he felt Yuna lean against him; his breaths came naturally to him then. It was almost as if having Yuna in his arms was actually helping him to breathe.
Once Tidus was free to think about other things besides his own breathing, he realized that Yuna wasn't breathing. As soon as he had realized, she let out a long sigh and drew in an even longer breath. Tidus smiled to himself and opened his eyes.
Yuna was breathing normally now but was still feeling giddy. She hadn't felt like this in a long time.
In fact, I don't think I have ever felt like this. She thought to herself.
"You know," Tidus' voice broke her thoughts and turned her head slightly towards his in acknowledgment. "The sauce is gonna burn if you don't stir it soon…" Tidus laughed softly and let go of Yuna's shoulders.
Yuna turned around and gave him a spoil-the-mood-why-don't-you kinda look and then turned around and started stirring again.
15 minutes later, Yuna had finished cooking and Tidus had set the table. They were both halfway through their meals when Tidus suddenly realized that there was no one else around.
"Where is everyone?" He asked. Yuna laughed and finished her mouthful.
"I was wondering when you would notice there was no one else around. Rikku is at Gippal's and Paine is at Baralai's. You slept through a lot of conversation." Yuna replied.
"Well, do tell!" Tidus pushed the last bit of spaghetti around his plate, getting somewhat frustrated that it wouldn't obey his wishes and get onto his fork. Yuna smiled and began to relay the afternoon's conversations.
"Well, it turns out Paine and Baralai are now together; not that that wasn't totally obvious… Um, and I spose the rest of the conversation could be summed up in that everyone was very impressed, if somewhat surprised, by what you did to Seymour today and then Rikku went on to guessing what it was that you weren't telling us, then they made me promise that I would get it out of you, then I told them I'd only ask you if no-one else was here, that's when they decided to go to the guys' houses. Then I had a shower, then I started to cook dinner, and now here we are." Yuna finished and looked down at her spaghetti, which was almost finished.
"And what a delicious dinner it was!" Tidus said as he pushed his chair out and stretched, then rubbed his belly. Yuna laughed and finished what was left on her plate.
"Speaking of showers… I should probably go home and have one soon. I think I'm a bit on the nose." Tidus lifted his shirt and sniffed it. He looked up and saw disappointment, of all things, on Yuna's face. He smiled at her "But I can come back and keep you company if you like…" He said in an asking tone.
"That would be nice." Yuna replied and she stood up and picked up Tidus' plate.
"But I'll do the dishes first." Tidus jumped up and took the dishes out of Yuna's hand. Yuna laughed and walked with him to the kitchen.
"Only if I do the drying." Yuna looked at Tidus and he knew there would be no way to refuse her.
Later that night, Yuna was sitting alone on the sofa with a notebook in her hand. It was her lyrics book and she was scribbling carefully in it. Tidus had been gone for about an hour and it was now at least 9 o'clock. Yuna wasn't working on the song she had promised the Student association at Uni, instead she had had a wave of inspiration while she had been sitting quietly in her darkened sitting room, and finished a song that she had started ages ago. She was sitting, half humming, half singing it when she was pulled from her trance.
Suddenly there was a knock on the door and she put the book down on the coffee table and went to open the door. She opened it and Tidus stood before her. He was dressed in jeans and a baggy shirt and was carrying his yellow helmet.
"Hey, I was just thinking about you." Yuna said as she motioned for Tidus to come in.
"You were? Were they good thoughts?" Tidus walked inside, put his helmet on the dining table and walked into the sitting room.
"Yes, they were, but I'll tell you in a minute, I just have to go to the little ladies room. Make yourself at home" Yuna said as she went upstairs to her bathroom.
Tidus sat on the lounge and looked around for the TV remote. As he was looking, he saw a little brown book on the table. He knew she shouldn't look at it, but he just couldn't help it. It had been placed on the table folded open to a page but it was face down.
Tidus picked it up and began to read the words. As he read, he was captivated by what was written there. He finished reading the lines but didn't take his eyes off the pages.
"Do you like it?" Tidus was ripped from his daze by Yuna's voice and looked up to see her standing above him. He face twisted in apology and he quicky shut the book and put it down on the table.
"Sorry! I didn't… I mean not all of them… It was…" Tidus stumbled over the words as he wasn't sure what he should say. Finally he gave in.
"I love it." He said as Yuna sat down beside him and picked up the book. She opened it to the page Tidus had read and read some of the words to herself. "But it's really sad. Who's it about?" Tidus asked.
"Me." Yuna replied and looked up. Tidus gave her a disbelieving look. "Let me explain." Yuna put the book down on the table. "I wrote it just after the… incident… with Seymour. I was going through a really dark patch. It was like there was a second me. And I spose that's what this song's all about. The evil me. Not even the girls have read this. I had it all written except for the last verse. I wrote that tonight, while you were gone…" Her voice trailed off.
"Sing it for me." Tidus looked at her when he said this. She looked back at him and blushed.
"I couldn't, I mean, not without music… I just..." Yuna tried to talk Tidus out of wanting to hear it. Yuna's hand rested on the sofa between herself and Tidus. Before he spoke, Tidus moved closer to Yuna and placed his hand over hers.
"Please, Yuna? I really wanna hear it." He asked sincerely.
Yuna sighed and looked at him. "Ok, but its not going to be as good without the music." Tidus said nothing and Yuna closed her eyes and began humming a sad tune. Then she started singing.
"When leaves have fallen and skies turned to grey, the night keeps on closing in on the day. A nightingale sings his song of farewell. You better hide from her freezing hell.
On cold wings she's coming, you better keep moving. For warmth you'll be longing. Come on just feel it. Don't you see it? You better believe.
When she embraces your heart turns to stone. She comes at night when you're all alone and when she whispers your blood shall run cold. You better hide before she finds you.
Whenever she is raging she takes all life away. Haven't you seen? Haven't you seen the ruins of our world?
Whenever she is raging she takes all life away. Haven't you seen? Haven't you seen the ruins of our world?
She covers the earth with a breathtaking cloak. The sun awakes and melts it away. The world now opens its eyes and sees the dawning of a new day.
On cold wings she's coming, you better keep moving. For warmth you'll be longing. Come on just feel it. Don't you see it? You better believe.
Whenever she is raging she takes all life away. Haven't you seen? Haven't you seen the ruins of our world."
Yuna finished the song and hung her head. Tidus still had his hand on hers and as he stared painfully at her saddened face, a tear escaped her closed eyes and ran slowly down her cheek. Tidus had never seen so much emotion put into a song before. It was beautifully sad and he hated her and loved her for it at the same time.
Tidus reached his hand up and turned Yuna's face towards his. With her face still downcast, he bent his head, leaned in and, in the hope of making all her pain fade away, kissed her deeply on the lips.
A/N: Just coz you asked for it! A big thanks to all my reviewers. Especially: Rubymuto, rollercoaster217, Kurama'slil'Neko, and Dream Crazy. You guys rock!