A/N: Ok so this chappy took a bit longer than expected. I actually wrote the whole thing and then decided I didn't like it… So I wrote it again. This one is heaps better than what I wrote before. Oh and for those of you who are interested, the links don't show up in here so here's the link,
www dot ffinsider dot net / ffx2 / mvideo dot php
Anways, read and enjoy (or not) but review either way.
.:How Can I Not Love You:.
Her cheeks flushed and his once warm hands now felt chilled against her hot face. Tidus had kissed his fare share of girls, but it was never like this. Yuna was like no other girl he had ever met. So many different things attracted Tidus to her. She was a strong minded person, but at the same time, she was fragile and gentle. She was beautiful on the outside, but her looks paled in comparison to her wonderful spirit.
Tidus' heart ached for her and all the pain she had been though. As he kissed her she wrapped her arms around his neck and pulled him closer. He let go of her face and wrapped his arms around her waist. He reflected the words of her song as he kissed her.
When she embraces your heart turns to stone… Tidus thought. Well that's certainly not true. He was distracted from his thoughts when Yuna pulled away from the kiss and looked away from him. He brought his own hands back to his lap. Suddenly he regretted kissing her. What if she hadn't really wanted it?
"Yuna, I'm sorry. I shouldn't have done that. I was just…" He was stopped when Yuna turned around to face him and placed a finger on his lips.
"Don't be sorry." She told him. She smiled now and Tidus couldn't help but smile back. "I'm not sorry." She said as she stroked his cheek gently with her fingers. Tidus returned the gesture and Yuna closed her eyes.
"It's the strangest thing." Yuna said as she opened her eyes again.
"What is?" Tidus asked.
"I have known you for a total of, what, three days? And I feel like I have known you all my life. Like I could tell you anything. It's the strangest feeling." Yuna looked at Tidus and his look went from somewhat confused to a shy smile. "So did you like my song?"
"I loved it. But…" Tidus started.
"But what?" Yuna asked with a hint of fear. She had just poured her heart out to Tidus and she wasn't sure she would be able to take it if he did like it.
"It's just that… I dunno. It just doesn't seem like you, ya know? Its way to… um… well, sad, to be you." Tidus tried to find the words he was looking for but wasn't having much luck.
"You weren't there back then." Yuna said sadly as she looked down at her hands that were now folded in her lap.
Tidus watched her but didn't know what to do. He wanted all of Yuna's pain to go away. He knew it wasn't that simple and she was right, he had only just met her and hadn't known her when all this had happened. He silently cursed himself for not knowing her longer; not that there was anything that he could have done about that.
"A penny for your thoughts?" Yuna asked. Tidus realized he had been staring at her, but not really seeing anything. He was too annoyed at himself for only having just come into Yuna's life. Maybe if he had known her back then, none of this would have happened…
"Hey? Yo! Tidus? Any one home?" Yuna laughed softly as she waved her hand in front of his face.
Tidus reached up and took her and gently in his. "I'm sorry, I was just… I'm just sorry." He said and looked down at her hand in his as he softly stroked it with his thumb.
Yuna looked at her hand and then back at Tidus' face.
"Sorry for what?" She asked.
"Sorry that… I'm sorry that I wasn't there when all that shit happened." Tidus jerked his head to look down at the floor below the couch. He was starting to get angry but he couldn't figure out what he was angry at.
Yuna looked at him. Was that anger she saw? Sadness? She didn't want to make him either angry or sad.
Why am I feeling like this? I hardly know the guy... But he seems so genuine. I wish he had been there back then. Maybe all this wouldn't have happened. But he can't help that. And besides, She came to a conclusion, He's here now.
Without even thinking she got up and straddled Tidus. She had her legs bent under with one knee on either side of his hips. She sat her bum down in his lap and took his some-what dazed and confused face in her hands.
I can't believe I'm doing this. But I need him to know its ok. I need him to know that he's here now, and that's all I need. Yuna thought.
Oh my god… Yuna's on top of me… Oh my god, oh my god, ok, stay calm, you are NOT going to take this too far. Not tonight. Think of something else… Something ugly, like, um, grandma's undies… Grandma's undies, Grandma's…Tidus' thoughts suddenly disappeared and he mind was sent reeling into an abyss of pleasure.
Yuna took a deep breath and lent forward. She kissed Tidus like she had never kissed any one before. She had never needed any one like she had needed Tidus right at that moment.
She pushed herself onto him passionately, pressing herself against him. After the initial shock wore off, Tidus began to kiss her back, equally as fervently. He grabbed her waist and pulled it closer to him so that their hips were touching. This movement elicited a small moan from Yuna as she deepened the kiss by putting her hands on his shoulders and pressing him hard against the back of the sofa and pressing hander on his lips.
Yuna's quiet noises sent shivers down Tidus' spine. With his hands still on Yuna's hips, he could feel her breathing get faster. He slipped his hands up under her shirt and stroked her sides softly. Her skin was soft and warm under his touch. As he continued his caressing he began to feel goose bumps forming. This made him smile into the kiss and gave him more confidence.
He gently grabbed her hips and lifted her slightly. Without breaking the kiss, he twisted his own body. He laid Yuna on her back on the couch and leaned over her.
Yuna giggled into the kiss as they tried to get comfortable in the small amount of space that the sofa offered. After a few attempts, Tidus finally gave up and looked impishly down at Yuna.
"This isn't going to work here, is it?" He asked.
"No." She replied. 'No, it's not." She leaned up and gently pushed Tidus off her. She stood up and held out her hands to Tidus. He took them and she pulled him up.
She began to walk backwards towards the stairs and when Tidus saw where she was headed, he smiled beautifully and bent forward to kiss her. As they made their way clumsily up the stairs, Yuna still going backwards, she ran her hands under Tidus' shirt. Still kissing him, she was surprised to find that he was really well built, though not that you would notice it through his clothes. She lightly ran her nails over his abs and chest, drawing out a groan of pleasure from Tidus.
As they got to her room, having not stopped kissing, Tidus reached behind Yuna and opened the door. While Tidus was doing this, Yuna decided it was time Tidus lost his shirt. She lifted it up and he raised his arms to allow it to be removed.
Yuna closed the door behind them and dropped the shirt onto the floor just as they reached the bed. Tidus kept walking forwards, forcing Yuna to sit on the bed when the backs of her knees hit the edge.
Tidus stood and looked down at her as she lay there smiling softly. Yuna looked up at his bare chest and simply admired the view. He really was gorgeous.
She held her hands out to him and he took them. She pulled them gently towards her and he followed suit.
Kneeling on top of her, he reached down and slowly went to take off Yuna's shirt. Yuna lifted her arms in acceptance as a tinge of pink blushed her cheeks. Tidus now looked down at Yuna's bare chest, her pink lace bra rising and falling quickly as she breathed. Tidus wanted to throw himself at her, to take her there and then, but he knew he couldn't. He wouldn't be doing that, not tonight.
"Fuck you're beautiful, Yuna." Tidus' voice sounded to Yuna's ears, dispersing any of her insecurities with just four simple words. He bent down and began kissing her again. He could feel Yuna's warm body beneath his as skin touched skin. He ran one hand down her side, greedily taking in every inch of exposed skin that he could.
Likewise, Yuna's hands explored across Tidus' back and abs. She wanted him so badly. She had never wanted someone so much. She needed to be as close as physically possible to him. This was so uncharacteristic of her. Since Seymour, she hadn't made a move on anyone, afraid of the consequences, but, for some reason, Tidus was different.
She ran her hands down his abs she came to the hem of his jeans and was instantly frustrated that something was stopping her from exploring further. As Tidus continued to kiss her lips and neck, Yuna managed to blindly undo his belt and jeans and push them down as far as she could reach. Tidus kicked them the rest of the way off.
Tidus, just in his boxers now, looked at her and smiled. He couldn't believe her brashness and knew that he would have to end this soon if he had any hope of controlling himself. Yuna's thought were pretty much the same. She couldn't believe she was throwing herself at him. It must have made her look like some kind of slut. She frowned at his smile and turned away, suddenly disgusted at herself.
Tidus' smile faded as he saw the look on Yuna's face. He instantly got off her lay down beside her.
"Hey, what's wrong?" He asked as he reached over and tucked a few stray hairs behind her ear. Yuna voiced her thoughts and Tidus' actually laughed.
"Don't laugh at me!" She said, angry and embarrassed; feeling vulnerable.
Tidus shuffled as close as he could to her, so that their bodies were touching, and turned her face to look at him.
"Yuna, I would never think that of you. If anything, you should be thinking that of me!" Tidus counted as he thought about the situation.
"What! No! I don't think that. You've been nothing but nice to me. Christ, you even beat up my ex!" Yuna lent up on her elbow to get a better look at Tidus' and to emphasis her point. She really didn't think that of Tidus and was shocked that he would even say that. "I don't think that at all!"
"Right…" Tidus smiled at the situation, "So we've established that, while both of us feel like sluts, neither of think the other is." Yuna smiled at this.
"Right!" She answered with determination.
"Maybe we should call it a night then. Pick up where we left off another night…" Tidus suggested.
"Is that a promise?" Yuna whispered through a smile.
"Of course." Tidus answered.
"Will you stay?" Yuna put a questioning hand on Tidus' arm.
"Is that such a good idea? I mean, I only have so many cheeks to punch, and I've yet to get one from Paine…" he absent mindedly raised his hand to his face to feel his bruised cheeks.
"Bah, humbug to them." Yuna got up and locked the door. "If they go psycho, we'll just explain to them through the door." Yuna smiled as she flicked off the light. The room went black instantly.
Tidus waited for to feel Yuna getting onto the bed but it took longer than it should have. Finally he felt the bed move and heard Yuna get under the blankets. His eyes were slowly becoming adjusted to the dark and he could just make out Yuna's shape. She was on her side facing away from him.
Tidus scooted under the blankets and shuffled over so that he was nestled against Yuna's back. When his legs touched hers, he realized what had taken her so long. Skin touched skin and Tidus noted that she had taken her jeans off.
Well duh, he thought, Who would want to sleep in jeans…
Tidus snaked an arm around her waist she held onto his hand. He could feel her breathing slowly calm down until he was sure she was asleep.
"Tidus…?" She whispered.
"Mm?" His reply was little more that a sleepy moan.
"You're here now." She replied.
Confused, Tidus furrowed his brows. Yuna took his silence as him being confused and spoke again.
"You said you were sorry… for not being there… but that doesn't matter, because you're here now." She whispered into the darkness.
Tidus smiled warmly into Yuna's hair but he knew she wouldn't be able to see, so, in acknowledgment of what she had said, he pulled her closer to him and hugged her tightly. In return, she squeezed his hand closely to her and they both fell asleep, nestled in each others arms.