Chapter 5: Departure

Authors Note:Gomene... R&R

Inuyasha and Izaoi returned later to the house in almost silence, the impact of his older brother seemed to hold a negative effect on him.

"Now now Inuyasha, Sesshomaru is gone and Suki is coming over, don't let it get to you darling" Izaoi said smiling lightly giving Inuyasha a kiss on the forehead as he nodded slightly.

Inuyasha couldn't be happy, why would a brother be so mean? Suki's brother was not mean to Suki. So why would his brother be mean to him? Because he was a half-demon. Mommy had told him that being a half demon was special but…then why was it so hard? Why did someone who shared his own blood despise him just because of what he was? Did his mother secretly despise him for all the bad things people say? Did she wish that she wasn't her own?

Inuyasha stared towards Izaoi as he slowly walked out again to the pond. He found himself coming here lately, the hanyou problem never seemed to have caused a problem with him before so…why now? Or had he always been a burden to his beloved mother?

Inuyasha ran a clawed finger through the water, a silent tear running down his cheek as he watched the water ripple from which his tear hit it. He stared towards his wavering reflection, nothing would change him. He would always be bound by his half breed heritage.

"Inuyasha-kun"

Inuyasha blinked a few times turning around smiling widely, "Suki?"

The human girl blushed a bit staring towards him as she took a seat beside him, running a hand through the water as he had before.

"You know you shouldn't look so sad Inuyasha"

Inuyasha blinked a few times. "I'm not sad! I'm a strong man Mommy told me so! And strong men don't get sad."

"Your mommy didn't say that!" Suki said giggling softly, "Why do you always try to hide it?"

"You know Inuyasha…I thought about it all yesterday night." Suki said her voice seeming to grow distant. "I thought about you the whole time and I thought how fun you were and what an amazing person your going to be. And then I thought…."

Inuyasha blinked a few times staring towards her looking a bit red, his face scarlet. "And then you thought about what?" He whispered.

"I thought what it must feel like to be a hanyou, to be…" Suki turned towards him, her eyes brimmed with tears. "To be yelled at! To be disliked for nothing that you could do! Nothing that you could help! I-I cried!" The tears flowed freely down the younger girls face as she sniffed silently, her body wracked with sobs.

Inuyasha blinked a few times, his arm slowly wrapped around her. "You know…" He said softly looking to the side a light blush covering his face. "You're the only other person who has ever cried for me other then my mommy…." Tears formed in the hanyou's eyes as he embraced Suki. The younger girl let out a short gasp as her eyes wrapped around him comfortingly. "Thank you Suki…for crying for me."

"Mom"

"Yes Inuyasha?"

Inuyasha paused blushing a bit, "Um, it's nothing, can I help get ready for the banquet?"

Izaoi seemed to hesitate and then smiled gently, "No my son, why don't you go play? Has Suki come by?"

"Yes mom…we played outside but she had to go home for dinner" Inuyasha said quietly. 'Mommy's scent is different it's like she's hiding something from me….' Inuyasha's golden eyes shimmered and Izaoi twitched gently just by the look in them. She gave him a gentle push along with a smile, "Please go play quietly honey"

Inuyasha walked through the doors confused, "What could mommy be hiding?"

"I thought what it must feel like to be a hanyou, to be…"

Inuyasha paused as he walked towards the river, his ball in hand. Suki had thought about it too. Was it possible for there to be people who cared? Who recognized that being who he was wasn't it fault.

He through the ball down angrily, kicking it as far and as hard as he could. He ran after it as if he were being chased by a demon and he ran even farther as if he was being chased by a thousands of raiding humans, that were doing nothing but cursing him.

Inuyasha fell to the ground tiredly, panting as he held the ball against his chest, his long silver hair sticking in hot strands to the back of his neck. The hanyou's ears flat against his wet hair, his claws shaking as he held the ball. His golden eyes shut, panting heavily upon the ground. It felt GOOD to be that pumped up, to take out the anger on the ball. To pretend he could escape those mean demons and those hurtful humans. To pretend he had the power of any demon he chose.

"To be yelled at! To be disliked for nothing that you could do! Nothing that you could help! I-I cried!"

It was nice to get Suki's tearful voice out of his head. It was nice to think he had the right to breathe the air that everyone else got to breathe. It was…so nice. The tears fell from the hanyou eyes as he wiped them with a sweaty hand.

Could he change? He had tried to be human and that didn't work. Could he be a demon? I mean how could they tell he wasn't a demon? It wasn't his appearance, was it his scent? It was his…mother?

Inuyasha winced as he stared towards the big house. The guests had already arrived, the lights dazzling on brightly, his mother was smiling. Humans were talking to her now, including her, because he was…

He was on the outside, he was just looking in.

"It makes sense" Inuyasha whispered quietly. "I'll be accepted within the demons and mommy she'll…" The tears ran down his eyes again as he wiped them away angrily. No, demons didn't do that. Demon's were strong, he would find away to live within in the demons. For himself and for more importantly…his mommy.

Inuyasha turned and began to walk away, leaving his ball out in the grass as he took one last look at his mother. He smiled to himself as his bangs hid his eyes, "My mommy's beautiful." He thought to himself. "She's the prettiest women alive…I'm going to miss her."

Inuyasha found himself walking down the pitch dark path of thick dirt to the village. He wanted to say goodbye to Suki. Suki was his friend and incase his mommy did worry about him, incase she wanted to say goodbye, she'd have Suki to tell her that he loves her.

He walked through the village, thankful for the darkness that cloaked his disgusting hanyou body. The body that made him forbidden, and after today he'd never set foot in a human village again, he'd never have too. He smiled, "I CAN belong" He whispered confidently as he stared towards Suki's house. He knew it was Suki's house, it smelled just like her. Now all he had to do was find Suki's room…the room that smells the most like Suki.

He knocked gently on the window, as Suki opened it, rubbing her eyes tiredly.

"Inuyasha?"

Inuyasha smiled softly, "Suki…I'm going to live within the demons! I'm going to give a better life to mommy and me, and I just wanted to let you know that I won't be able to play with you anymore." Inuyasha whispered his voice a bit sad.

"You can't!" She whispered, her eyes widening in fear. "You can't leave Inuyasha!"

"The times that I got to play with you…have made me very happy Suki. Thank you…for crying for me. Please tell mother I love her and that…were meet again someday."

"Inuyasha"

The hanyou turned already walking off down the village path, heading towards the dark woods, the only light being the night from the full moon.

"But what about me!" Suki cried staring towards his moonlit shadow. Tears slowly falling down her eyes as she lowered her head in shame. "What about me?"

Authors Note: I had a powerful urge to update this story. I can't say that I can do it frequently but I will make sure the wait won't be nearly as painful as this one was. Forgive me.