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After the horrific dinner the three of us went back to our house. We were all sitting in the living room silently for a long time.

"They hate me" I cried.

"No they don't if they hate anyone they hate me" Jess tried.

"No sweets they don't hate you they might hate Jess but they hate all your boyfriends and they hate me" mom said.

"Why would they hate you" I asked.

"Because I didn't stop you from repeating history" mom smiled weakly.

I threw my arms around her and cried harder.

"I'm going to make coffee" Mom moved me so that my arms were around Jess's neck.

"I'm sorry" I whispered in his ear before I fell asleep.

I woke up in the same position as last night except mom was on the floor asleep. Jess hadn't moved but he was asleep. I tried to move without waking up Jess but I didn't have much luck when I finally got up Jess pulled me back down.

"Don't be sorry" he whispered in my ear. I nodded and smiled a little and went to get ready for my appointment.

When I came back out my mom was up dressed and drinking coffee Jess was up and talking to her quietly about something.

"Come on we have to go" I said.

"Your doctor called and said that we had to reschedule because her dog died" mom said.

"Oh ok" I said.

"I was thinking we could spend the day picking out names" mom smiled.

"I already know what I want the name to be if it's a girl" I said.

"What" mom asked excitedly.

"Lorelai Ayn" I smiled.

"Spell the middle name" Jess said.

"A-Y-N" I smiled again.

"No" Jess said.

"Well I think you'll like what I came up with for the boy"

"What"

"JJ"

"JJ?"

"Yea Jess Junior"

"Oh my god" mom yelled "I can see it now a little baby with really messy hair a James Dean attitude and a leather jacket and a girl a little girl who reads she'll be born with a book in her arms probably something by that Ayn person I'm guessing it's an author Jess doesn't like"

The next day I had school for the first time after finding out I was pregnant. This was not going to be fun.

"Miss Gilmore would you like to share with the class what is so interesting about the window" Mr. Medina asked.

"Huh oh sorry Mr. Medina I was just uh um" I tried.

"See me after class Miss Gilmore" Mr. Medina went back to teaching his lesson.

About 20 minutes later the bell rang and everyone left I stayed in my seat and continued staring at the mother bird outside.

"Miss Gilmore" Mr. Medina sat in a desk next to mine.

"Those birds were only hatched at the beginning of class" I said not really knowing that I was talking "the mother already knows what to do how does she know how will I know I can't do that I can't just know what to do I'm not smart like that I can read things and know them but baby books don't teach you anything about much. I can't be a bird I can't be a mother I can't do it I can't do anything" I started crying a little.

I wiped the tears from my eyes "I'm sorry."

"Do you want to um see the nurse or guidance counselor" Mr. Medina asked.

"No I think I'm ok" I said.

"You know even though your mom and I broke up you can still talk to me" he said I nodded and thanked him.

"Ok well go on maybe now you'll be able to concentrate better" Mr. Medina said.

I left the room and found Paris standing in the doorway.

"What is with you Gilmore" she asked.

"What do you mean" I asked.

"What's going on" she asked.

"Nothing" I cried.

"Come on" Paris led me into the girls' bathroom.

"Are you ok" she asked.

There was a knock at the door before I could answer "Are you ok Mary."

"No one else is in here you can come in" Paris shouted.

Tristan came in and found Paris and I on the floor.

"What's wrong are you ok what was with you in Medina's class you're never like that are you sick do you want me to get the nurse" Tristan asked.

I started crying more.

"What did I do" Tristan asked.

"Too many questions" Paris said.

"I'm gonna be a bad mom" I cried.

"Oh" Paris and Tristan said together.

"I'm a horrible person I was supposed to be the good Gilmore I was supposed to make them proud" I cried "I wasn't supposed to turn into a failure I wasn't supposed to make them hate me and what kind of doctor cancels an appointment with a pregnant 16 year old because her dog died and I didn't even just mess up my life I messed up his too."

"Did he get mad at you" Paris asked.

"No of course not he's perfect and he'd probably come up with a good name not Lorelai Ayn what kind of person names her kid after 4 different people her great-great-grandmother her grandmother her mother and Ayn Rand but he'll probably in the long run use one of my names just to make me feel better and now I ruined both of your lives because now you're late to class I just ruin everything around me and I probably ruin my kids life she'll probably get pregnant when she's 15.'

"You didn't ruin our lives missing one stupid class isn't going to ruin our lives" Paris said.

"And I'm sure she'll be fine and she won't get pregnant when she's 15 and how do you know it's a girl" Tristan asked.

"I just know" I said calming down a little.

"Well I guess I can't call you Mary anymore" Tristan said.

I started crying again.

"Too soon" he asked.

Paris nodded.

"My phone" I yelled.

"What" Paris asked.

"My phone Jess said he was going to call me in between all classes to see how I was doing and I turned off my phone" I grabbed my phone and turned it on. I had a message from him he said to call him anytime because he took the day off today to do some stuff with my mom.

"Call him" I handed the phone to Tristan "speed dial 2"

"Hello Jess this is Tristan…No I didn't steal her phone…She asked me to call you…She's kind of upset right now…I don't think so… We're trying to calm her down… Paris and me… Paris is being nice…No she's not acting like Satan…she spaced out in Medina's class…He made her stay after class…No I don't think he's mad…Ok" Tristan moved the phone away from his ear "they want to talk to Paris."

Paris took the phone "Hello…She's fine Ms. Gilmore…Ok Lorelai…Rory breathe stop that Tristan take out my lunch and give her the bag I'm sorry Lorelai what were you saying…I think that would be a good idea we'll try to keep her breathing regularly until you arrive…Ok I'll tell her good bye" Paris closed my phone "Your mom is on her way and she says breathe."

I took in a deep breath but didn't let it out.

"OUT" Paris yelled.

I started crying again. Paris pats my back and apologized for yelling. I fell asleep and then my mom came in followed by Jess.

"Is she ok" Jess asked.

"Yeah" Paris said "she finally calmed down."

"Did you sedate her" mom asked.

"No she just fell asleep" Paris said.

I heard all of this but I couldn't open my eyes well I guess I could have if I wanted to but I didn't. I liked not seeing only hearing. If this was what it was like to be blind I don't think I'd mind.

"Thanks for taking care of her you guys" mom said.

"No problem Lorelai" Paris said "I want to be a doctor I've read a lot of books I'm confident that I would know how to deliver her baby right here.'

"Oh that won't be for at least another 8 months" mom assured her.

"Hey Tristan" Jess said.

"Yeah" Tristan said.

"Thanks…for not stealing her phone" Jess said.

"I don't need it I have 5 at home" Tristan said.

I knew that was their way of calling a truce kind of like him coming in to check on me was like him saying he just wanted to be my friend. Lane thought that Jess was jealous when I first told her about the dance but I know he's not that whole them hating each other had nothing to do with me and everything to do with Tristan being an ass and Jess calling him on it. Someone picked me up I'm guessing it was Jess. I opened my eyes just a little to see who it was it was him. I tried not to let him see that I was awake but I know he did.

Later at the town meeting everyone was talking about my pregnancy. Someone had heard me tell Luke.

"I say we break out the pitchforks" Kirk yelled.

"Oh come on" Jess stood up "this is not your problem it is not Taylor's problem it is not Miss Patty's problem it is not Babette's problem it is not Gypsy's problem it is not the weird singing guy's problem this is my problem Rory's problem Lorelai's problem and Luke's problem everyone else must keep their mouths shut and if you have a problem with that duct tape works just fine."

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Preview

Someone might not be able to follow Lorelai's plan

"Please tutor me"

Stupid black furry thing

"My baby is my baby ok"

Someone's parent doesn't know they're child going to be have a child

"Liz"