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"Liz" I said into the phone "No I'm not going to tell you…Because Luke already told you…I'm not corrupting anyone…Good bye" I hung up the phone.
"So what were we talking about" Rory asked.
"Please tutor me" I said.
"Fine" Rory said.
"Ok let's get ice cream first" I smirked.
"Ok but you're driving" Rory tossed me the keys.
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"My baby is my baby ok" I yelled.
"I'm sorry Miss Gilmore" the doctor left.
"No" I cried.
"Rory I'm so sorry I…"
"No it's not your fault you just didn't want to kill the uh um well the um uh the animal."
"I'm so sorry Rory" I tried to hold back tears.
"You're allowed to cry Jess it's just me" I smiled weakly.
"Rory"
"Jess I think we should start over"
"What why"
"I just think we rushed things a bit and we should just start from square one"
"Rory"
"Jess I'm serious let's just be friends"
"You're breaking up with me"
"No I just don't think we should um well we just need to be friends"
"Fine" Jess walked out.
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"Hey Jess is she ok" Tristan asked.
"Ask her yourself" I kept on walking.
"Whoa what happened" Paris asked.
"She dumped me" I stopped.
"She's gonna try and raise the baby alone is she nuts" Tristan exclaimed.
"No she lost it" I left the building.
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Tristan and I looked at eachother and raced into her room. We were soon followed by Lorelai, Luke, and Lane. When we reached her room we waited for them so we could go in together. Tristan and I told them what had happened and we all went in to see Rory sobbing in the corner. Tristan and Luke stayed by the door dumbstruck as Lane Lorelai and I went over to her. Lorelai bent down first and wrapped her arms around her daughter. Lane and I followed suit and we all sat there in the corner of her hospital room hugging and rocking. Tristan came over and hesitantly hugged her. Luke was next to give it a go.
"I just want to start over" Rory cried "it just went to fast first we're friends then we're together then we're having a baby."
"I know sweets I know" Lorelai comforted her.
"It wasn't supposed to happen like this" Rory sobbed.
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I walked to the diner and this guy was standing there. He wanted to get in I guess. I silently opened the door and let him in. I motioned for him to sit anywhere. He sat down at the counter and I walked behind the counter.
"What do you want" I asked.
"My son" he whispered.
"Sorry this isn't an orphanage" I said sarcastically "but I can get you coffee."
"Jess I'm…"
"Of course you are as if this day couldn't get anymore difficult lets add on a deadbeat dad" I walked upstairs hoping he wouldn't follow me. He did.
"Jess please talk to me" he pleaded.
"You want me to talk to you ok I'll talk" I said "my mom flipped out when my girlfriend said she was pregnant and sent me to Stars Hollow so I can help some screwed up chick she turned out to be cool we got to be friends best friends then I found out that Kelly was never pregnant to begin with then I got my girlfriend pregnant for real I got my best friend fucking pregnant I screwed up her perfect life then to make matters worse I totaled her mom's car and she lost the baby and broke up with me is that what you wanted to know how fucked up your son is."
"Jess…"
"Or maybe you wanted to know about your son's mother about her drinking and her dumbass boyfriends" I yelled "maybe you want to know about the million times that she came home drunk and beaten and when I tried to help her fucking boyfriend beat the crap out of me maybe you want to know about the hundreds of times I'd have to sit with her at night and listen to her cry or you know what you probably just want to know how much better we are without you so you can have a clear conscious but whoops sorry know can do because to tell you the truth life was hell with and without you so you might as well have stayed so things could have been terrible with you because then at least I'd have two fucked up parents instead of just one and of course the not having her boyfriends putting her in the hospital every week would be an improvement."
I was furious at this point I was breathing heavily due to not taking a single breath during that whole speech.
"Look Jess I'm sorry really I am" he tried "I wanted to stay but I just couldn't be a father I'm…"
"Do you at least have the stuff" I asked.
"What?"
"You left to get baby stuff and never came back do you at least have the baby stuff I mean considering you had 17 years to get it" I yelled.
"No I..."
"Can't even get one thing done huh" I continued up the rest of the stairs.
"Jess come with me" Jimmy asked.
"Hell No" I yelled.
"Well if you ever want to come here" he gave me a napkin with his address written on it.
I walked into the apartment and slid down the door thinking about how the day had begun with a parent and ended with one too.
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It was two days later and I was walking back and forth in front of the diner debating whether or not to go in. I decided not to and left.
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I was walking to the door and back to the counter over and over again. I saw her walking by the door. She was thinking about coming in but never actually did. I was doing the same except with going out. I decided not to go out and walked up the stairs… to pack.
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I walked to our bridge. I still thought about it as our bridge. I didn't know why. I sat there thinking about what had happened just a couple days ago.
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I stood there at the bus stop with my beat up old duffel bag his address and a picture of me and her taken back when we were friends. Suddenly I thought maybe she was right we should just be friends. We went to fast. I just want to start over. I know what she feels like. I ran to her house and knocked on the door Lorelai hugged me and shook her head. I ran to Luke's but she wasn't there. I ran to the bridge and saw her sitting there crying.
"Here write me anytime I don't know the number yet but you can call me too when I know what it is" I said "you can always email me too I know what you mean Rory we rushed everything and I think we should start over but I need to just go I'll be back as soon as I'm sure everything will be ok."
"Where are you going" Rory asked.
"California" I said.
"Well I know that but why what's there" she asked.
"My dad"
"Oh Jess that's great you really need to see him I've told you that" I smirked "I'll miss that smirk come home soon."
I nodded and walked away to the bus stop once again. This time I got on.
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Dear Jess,
How's California I bet it's really sunny right. Well I guess it's sunny here too but only because it's spring. I can't believe 11th grade is over. I also can't believe that it was a year ago today that I showed you around town. I'm glad that we're still friends. The basket auction was today. Tristan bought my basket. Luke and Mom are finally together! I told you we were doing fine playing matchmaker. Lily sounds like a cool kid. I can't believe you've been gone for two whole months either. Please come home soon Dodger I miss you and so does Tristan he says he's always surrounded by chicks.
I miss you so much
Your friend
Rory
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Dear Rory;
It's insanely hot. Jimmy keeps trying to convince me to take off my leather jacket. That's not going to happen. I know I'm surprised I got through it. My grades are higher now you were right I guess going to school everyday makes your grades higher. Did Tristan eat any of that awful stuff you made? I bet he brought caviar with him. Yep you were right once again Lane and you make a pretty good team oh and Paris she'll probably hunt me down if I don't mention her. Yeah Lily is awesome. I miss you too but I need to stay a little longer sorry.
I miss you more
Jess
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Dear Jess,
Dude come on hurry up and get back here man I need you all I hear about is school and girl stuff. Come on you've been there for like what 4 months and no I did not bring caviar to the picnic we ordered Chinese.
Come back soon
Tristan
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Dear Tristan,
Hi how are you it's ok I know you're busy pulling out your hair and just don't have time to write. It's not like I got letters from everyone else oh wait I did.
Write more you self centered rich asshole
Try not to kill yourself
Jess
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Dear Jess,
I still don't understand why I have to tell you about Rory's love life considering she doesn't have one. So since hers is boring I'll tell you my latest accomplishment. I asked Tristan out and he said yes! Come back Jess you've been gone for six months and I hear Taylor misses you. Anyways guess where we are. New York. Your hometown.
From New York to L.A.
Paris
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Dear Paris,
Thanks I'll remember that she doesn't have a life. Congratulations for you and Tristan. I'll be back soon. Have fun in New York and rub it in my face some more.
God Bless the USA (mail)
Jess
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StuckInTheSuburbs: Jess come on what's going on why do you keep on saying you're going to come home but never do?
KoreanRockerChick: Jess please just tell us why you're still not here it's October you've been gone for 8 months
NYNYJM: look I'll be back soon chill
CrapShackOwner has entered chat 6:02:21 PM
CrapShackOwner: Sooner is better then later
NYNYJM: I'm surprised why would you want me here?
CrapShackOwner: You grew on me kid
Luke has entered chat 6:05:42 PM
CrapShackOwner: couldn't you have come up with a better sn
Luke: I'm ignoring that Jess please everyone misses you just come back
StuckInTheSuburbs: Please Jess you make this town interesting
KoreanRockerChick Jess just get your but back on the East Coast.
NYNYJM: Look I just want to finish school here ok
StuckInTheSuburbs: I'm going to be in Harvard and so is Paris
ParisFrance has entered chat 6:08:15 PM
ParisFrance: sorry I'm late
StuckInTheSuburbs: wow that's so unlike you Paris Tristan is really rubbing off on you
ParisFrance: Yea whateva have we made progress
StuckInTheSuburbs: he wants to finish school in Cali
TTrouble has entered chat 6:12:33 PM
ParisFrance: then u can't see me or Rory
TTrouble: is he blind
ParisFrance: No he's not coming back until he graduates
Luke: your mom asks about you she wants to know where you are can I tell her
CrapShackOwner: don't worry about it I already told her
NYNYJM: Gee thanks for asking me if it was ok Lorelai
KitchenDweller has entered chat 6:16:53 PM
KitchenDweller: I know I didn't know you that well Jess but everyone misses you
NYNYJM: Geez how many people did you invite
StuckInTheSuburbs: Look we don't mean to push we just want our Jesse back
NYNYJM: Yea right I know I got to go Lily is hungry and is about a good a cook as Lorelai
NYNYJM has left chat 6:20:00 PM
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Jess: Hey Rory
Rory: Hey Jess you know I really miss you
Jess: I miss you too Ror
Rory: It's Christmas morning and you're not here
Jess: You know we only spent one Christmas together
Rory: I know but I liked it
Jess: Yea Lorelai got drunk on eggnog
Rory: She kissed Luke under the mistletoe
Jess: I always knew they'd get together
Rory: Yea me too
Jess: So what's going on tonight?
Rory: Nothing much Lane and Dave are making out and Paris and Tristan are making out and Luke and mom are making out
Jess: Why aren't you?
Rory: Why aren't I what?
Jess: Making out
Rory: Well the only other person here is my dad so unless
Jess: Your dad is there
Rory: Yeah he decided to come visit more Sherry and my mom are sort of friendly now and Gigi is so cute
Jess: I think that's great
Rory: Yea so what are you doing?
Jess: Well Sasha just woke up and says hi
Rory: Hi Sasha
Jess: Jimmy is eating cereal and Lily is opening presents
Rory: She came out and there is more than one other person in the house I'm amazed
Jess: Yea well she loves presents she got a lot of books hold on she wants to talk to you
Lily: Hi Rory I got your present thank you and I'll hide it from him just like you said HEY give me my book back Rory got that for me
Jess: Ayn Rand
Rory: Just because she's your sister doesn't mean she has to have bad taste in books
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Jess: Happy New Year's Eve
Rory and Tristan and Paris and Lane and Lorelai and Luke: Happy New Year's Eve
Jess: Wow is everyone at your house
Rory: Yep but their gone now
Jess: So who are you going to kiss at midnight?
Rory: No one probably what about you
Jess: I don't know probably no one
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Dear Jess,
You've been gone for a year now. Although we've all stayed in touch it's not the same we miss you all so much. We know you want to stay until you graduate and we know that's soon but we miss you. Maybe you can come just for a visit. For spring break that would be cool. Anyways hope you're doing well.
We miss you
Everyone misses you even the trees
And the houses and the stores and the people and the cars and the whole town
Rory, Paris, Tristan, Lane, Luke, and Lorelai
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Dear Everyone,
I can't come for spring break. I know I've been gone forever but I just can't come back. I'm not coming back after I graduate either. I'm really sorry but I'm going to a university in California. I really miss you. I promise to get home as soon as I can for a visit. I hate that every other time we talk or write we talk about me coming back. Do you plan this or something?
I miss you guys too
And the trees
And the houses and the stores and the people and the cars and the whole town
Jess
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Tristan: Jess come on are you sure you can't come it's summer
Jess: I'm aware of the season Tristan
Tristan: Then come back even for like a week
Jess: I can't
Tristan: WHY!
Jess: I'm embarrassed ok there I said you happy
Tristan: What why!
Jess: I got wait listed at Yale so I had to go to Stanford
Tristan: Jess I got wait listed too my dad had to donate a lot of money so I could go to Yale and besides Stanford is a great school too
Jess: Rory would be disappointed
Rory: Why am I disappointed?
Tristan: Jess got wait listed at Yale
Jess: Thanks for keeping it a secret dude
Tristan: Sorry I didn't know I was supposed to
Rory: Is that why you won't come back Jess tons of kids get wait listed it doesn't mean the kids that got in are smarter it just means that they happened to get picked
Jess: I'm still not coming there are other reasons too
Rory: Oh I'm sure there are other reasons you want to stay
Tristan: Chick?
Jess: Yeah Lily
Tristan: Gross dude
Jess: It's her birthday so we're on a road trip
Rory: Now was that so hard
Tristan: So no chick
Jess: No chick
Tristan: Why the hell did you break up you still don't
Paris: Tristan but out of their business
Rory: Tristan just got pulled away by his ear
Jess: How does he put up with her?
Rory: No clue
Jess: Oh ok
Rory: Did you know that it's August 25th
Jess: Yes I did
Rory: We have to leave in like five days
Jess: Yea you're in Prague now right
Rory: Yep where are you
Jess: Disney World
Rory: It's Disney Land the one in Florida is Disney World
Jess: We're in Florida
Rory: Welcome back to the East Coast
Jess: Yea wait Tristan and Paris are there
Rory: Yep
Jess: I thought it was just you and your mom
Rory: It was until Tristan and Paris decided to tag along for a few days
Jess: How long have they been there?
Rory: Two days they're leaving tomorrow
Jess: Oh well I got to go Lily is scared to go on Rockin' Roller Coaster without me
Lily: AM NOT!
Rory: Bye
Jess: Bye
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Rory: So how's Stanford
Jess: K
Rory: Uh oh what's wrong?
Jess: Eh
Rory: You've gone monosyllabic man on me
Jess: Huh
Rory: Jess what's wrong are you having a bad Thanksgiving
Jess: Fine
Rory: I hate when you're like this
Jess: Who's Marty?
Rory: A friend
Jess: Who was seen naked in front of your dorm
Rory: Well Tristan showed up at my house last year naked you knew that
Jess: Well that's different
Rory: Why!
Jess: He's with Paris
Rory: He wasn't then
Jess: I know I'm sorry I just got worried and I know I shouldn't have
Rory: It's ok you should have seen Tristan he was ready to kill him
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Lorelai: Chestnuts roasting on an open fire
Rory: Jack Frost nipping at your nose
Lane: Yule tide carols
Paris: Being sung by a choir
Tristan: And folks dressed up like Eskimos
Luke: Everybody knows the turkey
Dave: And some mistletoe
Lorelai: Come on Jess sing
Rory: Help to make the season bright
Lane: Tiny tots with their eyes all a glow
Lorelai: Wait I know a better song to sing
Rory: What
Lorelai: Oh there's no place like home for the holidays
Rory: 'Cause no matter how far away you roam
Lane: When you pine for the sunshine of a friendly gaze
Paris: For the Holidays you can't beat home sweet home
Tristan: I met a man who lives in Tennessee
Luke: And he was headed for Pennsylvania
Dave: And some home made pumpkin pie
Lorelai: From Pennsylvania folks are travlin' down
Rory: To Dixie's sunny shore
All except Jess: From Pacific to Atlantic
Lane: Terrific is the traffic
All except Jess: Oh there's no place like home for the holidays
'Cause no matter how far you roam
If you want to be happy in a million ways
For the holidays you can't beat home sweet home
Jess: I'll be home really soon
Rory: You say that every time
Jess: I mean it this time I promise I'll be home soon
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I looked at the letter one more time and knew that I really was going home soon.
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Preview
It's another new year
"Last New Years Eve I was on the phone this year I'm at a Stars Hollow festival alone"