A/N: Some people said they wanted to have Padme lose her memory and some people said they didn't… So I sort of did both. She lost her memory, but only of the two weeks when she disappeared… I hope you like this chapter!

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I DO NOT OWN STAR WARS! (cries)

I Hate Myself for Losing You

Summary: AU: During ROTS. Padme dies before child birth and Anakin turns to the dark side before the end of ROTS, because of it. But can Padme really be dead? Book 2 of 2: What If?

Chapter 2: Slipped Away

Padme-

She awoke with the sudden feeling that she didn't know where she was. She sat upright, wincing when a streak of pain ran throughout her whole body. What had happened? Her baby? Was it alright? Where was Anakin?

She sat upright and looked around her; she was lost, without any directions.

Anakin-

Anakin shut it off; he couldn't listen to it anymore. Why had this happened? How could this happened? Why didn't he feel her lost? So many questions that needed to be answer. He broke down, crying out in pain. Obi-Wan comforted him, knowing only that Senator Amidala was a close friend.

"I'm sorry Anakin."

"Why Master? Why her?"

Anakin Skywalker didn't get an answer right that second. He hadn't wanted one. He had only cried once like this in his life, when he lost his mother.

"Things like this happen."

"But why Padme?"

Obi-Wan didn't answer, they sat there Anakin sobbing crying out for the only person that he knew wouldn't answer.

Padme-

Padme sighed and tears rolled down her cheeks. Where was she? Did everybody know she was still alive? Why couldn't she remember anything?

"… Are you listening Padme?"

What? Anakin… Where was he? How come she couldn't remember where he was? This was no fun, she was worried about her baby and Anakin.

"I love you, I'll be back soon angel, I promise."

Where was he going? Why couldn't she remember? The worst of her fears had come true. WHY COULDN'T SHE REMEMBER ANYTHING?

Anakin-

It was a couple hours after the news of Padme's death. Anakin went to look up more about it; he couldn't just believe that she was dead without him feeling it. He remembered the night before he went to Padme and she told him the news of her being pregnant.

Flashback

Anakin tossed and turned as he watched Padme screaming in pain and crying out for him. Why wasn't he there?

He shot upright and looked around him. He was in the Jedi Temple and it was around sun set. He stood up and got dressed before walking out of the room and bumping into the Chancellor Palpatine.

"Sorry Chancellor, I didn't see you there."

"Young Skywalker, is there something wrong?"

"No, no, I was just having a dream."

"About somebody you love?" How did he know that? Anakin shook it off and nodded.

"I could help you save her."

"What?"

"There is a power that can save those you love from dying."

"Is it possible to learn this power?"

"Not from a Jedi." And he was gone. Anakin was left of that thought.

End of Flashback

Anakin thought about that again. Maybe he should go and learn that power. If he could stop people from dying, he could bring people back to life…. Right? It could be possible, he didn't know how wrong he was wrong…

Padme-

Padme got up, feeling sore all over. She looked down at her clothing. She was wearing a blue gown, she remembered it… Where was she wearing it last? Padme decided to think about it a little more. She didn't want to get too stressed. She lifted up her dress a little at the leg to see what her legs looked like because they felt too weak to walk on.

She gasped at the horrible sight before her.

Her whole leg was covered with black and purple bruises. Padme threw her dress back down and pushed up her selves. It was the same. She couldn't look anymore. She pushed down her selves so they covered her arms

She ran her hand along her stomach. She cried out in pain as she felt a throbbing sensation run thought her body. It was pain. What had they done to her baby? What had they done to her? Who did this?

But the question that she asked the most was:

Where was Anakin?

Anakin-

Padme Amidala Naberrie: Twenty five year old senator, missing for two weeks, presumed dead.

So they actually had no clue whether she was dead or not. He could still find her… No, it would be too painful because he would probably end up with nothing. He had to go to the Chancellor for answers on how to save people and probably even bring people back from the dead.

Padme-

She struggled to walk along the grassy surface. She knew that this planet was not Naboo because it was too wild. Naboo was beautiful and well kept. She stumbled falling forwards, but caught herself before she could fall on her stomach damaging the babies.

"Do you need help miss?" It was a girls voice, she sounded about twenty-years old. Padme turned quickly around to see her.

Padme was right, she was about twenty. She had long red hair that flowed pass her shoulders but stopped just above her waist. She wore a short dress that stopped a little below her knees. She held a basket with different kinds of fruits in it.

Padme nodded eagerly as the girl set her basket down and walked over towards her.

"Are you alright?" She questioned as she took Padme and threw her arm around her shoulder making sure that she was taking most of Padme's weight on herself.

"I don't know… Do you know where I am?"

"Bendon." Padme didn't even know that, that was a planet.

"What?"

"You heard right Miss, Bendon!" The girl said as she quickly bent down and picked up her basket.

"What are you actually doing here?"

"I don't know." Padme answered sheepishly and the girl smiled.

"I'm Gen."

"Nice to meet you, I'm Padme."

"That's a nice name." Padme was surprised that she didn't know her.

"I'll bring you back to my village, there we'll get you some new clothes, clean you up, and-"

Padme never heard the end, she passed out before Gen could finish.

Anakin-

He stood up from the chair and went looking for Obi-Wan. He slapped down the papers that he held in his hand.

"What's this?"

"It's papers about Padme's service."

"Why do I need this?"

"We're going to it."

"But why?"

"Because… I just need to ok Master?"

"Fine Anakin, we will go to it…. Are you happy?"

"Yes Master."

"Is that all?" Obi-Wan flipped through the papers Anakin had threw onto his desk. 'In Memory of Padme Amidala Naberrie.' He sighed, he had never wanted her to die that young, nobody had.

"Yes Master." And Anakin departed. His thoughts still lingering on Palpatine's words.

Padme-

She awoke to the sound of whispering. Padme shot up and looked around her. There was Gen and another girl with wavy blonde hair.

"What happened?"

"You passed out miss." Gen spoke up and the other girl nodded.

"This is my sister, Lillian… She's here to help." Lillian was about eight-teen years old.

Padme looked at herself. She was dressed in a white flowing dress. Her arms and legs were wrapped up.

"You pregnant miss?" Lillian questioned and Padme laughed.

"Yes." Padme's thoughts shot to the baby. Was it alright? "Is it alright."

"Yes miss, its fine." Padme sighed in relief.

"You took a hard beating miss, you sure you don't remember where you are or what happened to you?" Lillian questioned.

Padme thought for a moment. She couldn't remember anything that happened the pass few weeks.

"I'm sure." Padme stated firmly and the two girls nodded. Lillian turned around and picked up a tray, moving it towards Padme. She smiled as she placed it down next to Padme.

"You should eat, you look like you haven't eaten in days." Padme nodded eagerly and ate while the girls watched her.

"Thank you guys so much… I would have died without you."

"It's alright miss, we're just doing what we people do." Gen said and smiled.

"And what's that?"

"Take care of one another." Lillian said and this time it was Padme's time to smile.

"Why are you helping me so much?"

"Because we know that you need our help…" Gen answered quickly and Padme gave them a confused look.

"What do you mean?"

"I can feel that you are missing something and need to find your way back to it. We're going to help you as much as we can to find it!" Lillian said cheerfully and Padme's thoughts drifted.

The only thing she could think of was:

Anakin

End of Chapter 2

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