A/N: I'm so sorry that I kept you guys waiting! I didn't want too, but I got banned from this site for a little while… Anyways, here's my newest chapter! Hope you like it!

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I have to explain some things, actually I'll change them to make it easier for you guys!

I DO NOT OWN STAR WARS!

I Hate Myself for Losing You

Summary: AU: During ROTS. Padme dies before child birth and Anakin turns to the dark side before the end of ROTS, because of it. But can Padme really be dead? Book 2 of 2: What If?

Chapter 3: Choices

Anakin-

He stood along the sidewalk of mourners. His hood pulled up over his face. Obi-Wan stood next to him as he listened to some people making speeches. Jobal Naberrie stood next to Anakin listening and silently sobbing.

Anakin grasped the golden chain around his neck that had been hidden by his cloak. The small ring hung loosely around it. He felt a couple of tears fall down his face and gently land on the ring.

As the speech ended, Anakin ran from the crowd and went to search for Palpatine.

Padme-

Anakin? Anakin… WHERE ARE YOU? Her mind chanted over and over again. How come she couldn't remember?

Lillian sat down next to her. "You upset about something?"

Padme smiled at the young girls concern. "I'm fine." She paused and looked up towards the top of the tent. "I'm just tired."

"You know Miss; we're going to help you as much as we can."

"I know… And thank you again."

"Who is the last person you remember?" Lillian questioned.

"I don't really want to talk about it right this second Lillian."

"We have to get a quick start if we want you to get your memory back."

"Anakin."

"Anakin? You mean Anakin Skywalker?" How did Lillian know him?

"Yes."

"No way! Get out of here!" Lillian had a smile on her face.

"How do you know him?" Padme questioned and Lillian stood up.

"You see this one day I was in the forest getting ready for this real big fancy party, you with me Miss?"

Padme had spaced out, but was gathering the words up in her head. "Yes, yes, of course!"

"So I'm searching for some fruits and some different foods and different things like that when I run into this guy."

"Anakin?" Padme mused and Lillian nodded.

"He said he's been searching for my town for days…."

Flashback

"I need to know where your town is."

"What you say Mister?" Lillian questioned the strange man that stood before her. There was another older man behind him.

"I need to know where your town is." The man said more harshly.

"And why do you need to know?" Lillian asked and the man sighed in defeat.

"There is an important message that I need to give them." He stated firmly.

"Anakin, don't be harsh." The man from behind commented and then sank back again. Lillian twirled her hair around her finger.

"Follow me." Lillian said and quickly started to lead the way.

Once in Lillian's town, the head leader walked forward.

"Master Skywalker, Master Kenobi, we've been expecting you."

"You have?" Lillian pondered and the head leader shot her a glare.

"Lillian, your comments are not wanted here, you will be rewarded for giving them the way here, but now you must go."

"What why?" Lillian questioned firmly, showing that she didn't want to leave and just wanted to stay there and listen to whatever they had to say.

"Lillian, go!"

Lillian was about to say something when Gen cam and grabbed her arm.

"Lilly! You could have gotten killed, you could have been banished! What were you thinking?"

"I just wanted to hear what they had to say."

Gen laughed, trying to lighten up the mood. "You know that, that's for adults only Lilly!"

"Fine, fine." Lillian grumbled and followed her sister.

End of Flashback

"Obi-Wan." Padme determined and Lillian shrugged.

"Whatever, if that's what you think."

"I don't think, I know." Padme smiled at the young girl and placed her hand on her stomach.

How could this happen Ani? I promise you, I'll find a way to get back to you.

Anakin-

"Young Skywalker, you're here so early. What has brought you to my office?"

Anakin shifted his weight from one leg to the other. "You told me you could help me for my vision."

"Vision?"

"Remember the other night?" Palpatine pondered that for a moment before answering.

"Oh, yes, now I remember."

"Well I want to take you up on that offer."

"You do?" Palpatine smirked and watched Anakin nervously finger a golden chain.

"Yes." His answer was firm, like he thought this over for a very long time.

"But she is already dead, how can I save her now?"

"You… You know?"

"I've known for quite a long time young one." Palpatine answered.

"I thought if you could save her from death, maybe you could… I don't know, bring her back to life?"

"I've only heard of that being done once Anakin, it's a power that is too strong for Jedi's."

"What-What do you mean?"

"A sith is the only way to bring her back."

"A sith?"

"Yes." Anakin thought for a second. Giving up his dream or living a lonely life without Padme.

"I'll do it, as long as we find a way to bring her back."

"Good young one, from now on you will be known as…. Darth Vader."

"Yes Master."

"Now go, go to the Jedi Temple and destroy everybody that you once thought was your friend." Vader nodded, not knowing what he was really doing.

"Yes Master." Vader turned towards the door, only to stop and turn back around.

"Oh and Master?"

"Yes Vader?" Sidious questioned and Vader hesitated for a moment.

"You can ask me whatever you wish."

"How come I didn't feel Padme's death? I mean I would have felt it through the force…. Wouldn't I?"

Sidious laughed wickedly at Vader's question. "Sometimes the force lies."

Padme-

Gen sat down next to Padme a couple hours after her sister had left. Gen gently placed a hand on Padme's forehead, she had a fever.

"You don't have to do this." Padme coughed out and moaned in pain.

Gen ignored her statement. "Your legs and arms still sore?"

Padme nodded before closing her eyes again. "I don't get how I can get sick! I was fine just a couple days ago."

"This planet is prone to illness, you'll get better soon."

"Are the babies," Padme hesitated. "Alright?"

Gen laughed and pressed a cold towel to Padme's forehead.

"They're fine."

Padme smiled. "I heard that you were going too-"

"Gen! Gen! Padme! I have some bad news!" Lillian quickly ran into the room, waving her arms frantically, a piece of paper in her hand. There were scribbles all over it, she had written something fast.

"What has happened Lillian?"

"Sit down Lillian, you're going to faint!" Padme quickly said and watched the young girl sit down next to her sister, panting.

"He's coming!" Lillian managed between sipping water.

"Who's coming?" Gen piped in as Lillian placed down her cup.

"Darth Vader."

End of Chapter 3

A/N: Did you like it? Please tell me what you think! Oh and Padme and Darth Vader are not going to meet up yet… Sorry!

POLL TIME:

A) Did you like this chapter?

B) Was it too confusing?

C) Should I update If I Could Change Our Fate? (if yes, i need some ideas for that story.)

D) Should Padme and Vader meet up next chapter? (I don't think so, but I want to see if you guys want them too!)

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