A/N: I'm sorry I haven't been updating fast, I just was sad because I didn't get a part in the play that I wanted. Actually I didn't get a part at all. Anyways here's the next chapter for you.
I DO NOT OWN STAR WARS!
I Hate Myself for Losing You
Summary: AU: During ROTS. Padme dies before child birth and Anakin turns to the dark side before the end of ROTS, because of it. But can Padme really be dead? Book 2 of 2: What If?
Chapter 5: Premature Births
Padme-
The boy took a deep breath. "He's taken Lillian."
Gen gasped in horror at the news. Why had this happened to her? Why did he have to take Lillian of all people?
"What?" Gen questioned, unable to process the information that was given to her.
"He's taken Lillian Gen, I'm so sorry." The boy smiled sadly at her and then walked away towards his family.
"Scott!" The boy named Scott turned around at the sound of his voice.
"Why Lillian?" Gen question, reaching out towards Scott for comfort. He took her in his arms and held her as she sobbed.
"I don't know Gen… But I'm sorry. I really am." He kissed the top of her head. Padme watched on, feeling her heart ache at the scene.
It was just like Anakin and her. But now she couldn't do that anymore, they were so free to express their love, when Anakin and her could not. They could do that every single day for the rest of their lives when Anakin and her could not.
Gen sobbed uncontrollably and if it was Sola, Padme's older sister that Darth Vader had taken, Padme would have cried too.
Anakin-
He walked out of the ship with troopers following closely behind him. He walked into the village to see people scrambling around.
"Stop!" Vader ordered as he watched a young girl stop in her tracks. Her wavy blonde hair flew forward and settled back against her shoulders.
"Tell me, where is-"
"I don't know!" The girl shouted as she tried to slip away from Vader.
"You will tell me where-"
"Please, just leave my people alone." The girl was stubborn, just like Padme. But Vader had no time for those thoughts; he couldn't just start thinking of Padme! That was un—not proper.
"You will tell me where the Kuji is!" The girl only laughed at this.
"It's the rarest thing on this planet! I will never tell you where it is… You- You monster!" She screamed as two troopers came to each side of her.
"If you don't tell me where it is, you will have to pay the price."
"Then I will pay the price then." She answered matter-of-factly and was brought roughly closer to him.
Her eyes wide with fear, they had just been filled with confidence. She looked at the hooded man known as Vader. A tattoo was on her arm, it read 'Lillian.' She looked up into his eyes as she was brought closer and closer. She knew him.
"Take her away; I will deal with her later."
Just as she was getting taken up to the ship, he heard her faint words. "You're Anakin Skywalker."
Padme-
Gen ran her fingers through her red hair nervously.
"Padme, do you think this is going to end? Do you think Lillian's going to be alright?" Padme shrugged not knowing what to say to this girl to make everything right.
"I don't know Gen, it's hard to say." Gen jumped into the river. Padme laughed at the young girl as she watched her go into neck high water and start washing her hair.
"This is how you wash every single day?" Padme questioned as she sprawled out across the sandy beach, pushing her worried thoughts away.
"Normally, I would take a long soothing bath, but today since Vader is here and Lillian is gone. I will only take a short one so I can go and track them down and save Lillian."
"Save Lillian? All by yourself?"
"What choice do I have Padme? I mean she's my sister! I have to get her back." Gen came out of the river, wrapping a towel tightly around her body. Padme sat up from the position she was in.
"I will come with you." Padme stated and watched the young girl disappear behind a tree.
"What?" Came Gen's reply and Padme started again this time more firmly.
"I'm going to go with you!"
"Padme! Your in no condition to go on a space run to find Lillian! You're sick and you have a baby on the way!" Padme sighed sadly, but wasn't going to give up.
"I'm not going to let you just go by yourself Gen, it's too dangerous and I know Scott would never allow it!"
"Scott?" Gen questioned and Padme nodded.
"He's your boyfriend isn't he?" Gen blushed at that and smiled. She came out from behind the tree her long red hair dripping she wrung it out with the towel.
"We're getting married." Gen whispered as she gently placed her hand in front of her. A beautiful craved ring was on her finger. Padme smiled.
"That's wonderful!" Padme fingered the jappor necklace that hung loosely around her neck.
"Are you married Padme?" Gen hesitantly asked and Padme nodded.
"I'm married." Padme stated and that only made her clutch the jappor necklace closer to her.
"I'm sorry you had to be away from your husband."
"Is there anything I could contact him with?" Padme questioned suddenly and Gen shook her head.
"Sorry Padme, there's nothing here, you could take a ship but to get to any planet it takes a couple of days." Gen heard Padme sigh deeply as she turned away.
"I just wish he was here, you know what I mean Gen?"
"Yes Padme, I would do anything if I lost Scott."
"If you lost him." Padme repeated and bent down, running her fingers in the stream. And that was when Gen knew it was time to give Padme some time alone.
Anakin-
"You're Anakin Skywalker." Lillian stated matter-of-factly and made the troopers stop what they were doing. Anakin Skywalker?
Vader flinched at that name. It meant nothing to him, but it had meant so much to the people around him. No, no, NO! He was not Anakin Skywalker; he was never ever going to be Anakin Skywalker again.
"No, I'm not." Vader answered and tried to turn around, only to get stopped by the girl again.
"Yes you are! Yes you are! You came to this planet before! I know you did!" Lillian kicked and screamed as the troopers took her away.
"Anakin Skywalker was a weakling hiding from the darkness that was going to consume him one day." Vader stated and walked away with a flick of his cloak. He heard Lillian's cries, but didn't care. Since when did Vader ever care?
Padme-
"You are in no condition to go out there and fight people, Padme."
"You don't have to worry about that Gen; I'm due in a month."
"A month! We can't wait a month Padme!"
"I'm sorry Gen… But-But-" As if on cue, Padme shrieked in pain.
"What… What is happening Padme?" Gen questioned as she helped Padme to the ground.
"I don't know- OW! Gen, I'm just in so much pain." Padme moaned as her hands fell onto her stomach.
"What… I'll get the healer Padme!" Gen ran from Padme's side and to the healer.
"Miss, can you help me find out what wrongs with me friend?" Gen questioned and the healer nodded. She bent down by Padme's side checking her breathing and her stomach.
"She's going into premature labor."
"What!" Padme and Gen shouted at the same time. Padme's scream softer then Gen's.
"With all the excitement happening, you're going into premature labor. We're going to have this baby out in a couple of hours." Gen shook her head. What perfect time?
She sat down by Padme gently stroking back her hair and telling her everything was going to be alright. Just when you think everything was going to go wrong, you have something wonderful happen. In a couple of days Padme would be ready to go with her to find Lillian. But what would they do with the twins? Gen wondered.
"Gen… It hurts so badly… Why do I have to go through this?" Padme whined as she screamed once more in pain.
"It's going to be alright Padme; it's going to be alright."
Anakin-
He walked back to his ship, happily holding the rare plant into his hand. How easy it was for him to just ask somebody other then Lillian. Everybody feared him, so there was no problem.
Vader walked up the stairway to his ship, and handed the clone trooper the planet.
"Call my master." Vader barked the order and the trooper nodded. He made his way to the controls.
"Your Lord Sidious is waiting milord." The trooped stated and stepped out of the way as Vader walked past him.
"Ahhh Lord Vader, have you finished your task?" Vader nodded.
"Yes my master."
"And you have a prisoner I see." Sidious looked behind Vader and looked at the young girl squirm in her chair. She had been tied up.
"Yes, she did not obey my commands and she will have to suffer for that."
"Ahhh yes." Sidious smiled at Vader.
"Come to my ship as soon as possible." Sidious commanded and shut off the communicator.
Vader turned around to look at the girl who simply furrowed her brow at him. He stared right past her, not daring to look at those chocolate brown eyes, the ones that reminded him of Padme.
"What are you looking at?"
But Lillian could not answer; her mouth was shut with something that would keep her from saying anything.
Padme-
Padme screamed louder this time. It had been a couple hours since Padme had first gotten this pain. Gen squeezed the senators hand tightly.
"A boy!" The healer cried out and held the boy up before wrapping it tightly in a blanket and sending him off for people to clean.
"Luke." Padme decided and sighed in relief. 'Anakin… Oh Ani, it's a boy. You've always wanted a boy, I know you have!' Padme thought to herself and smiled.
Luke had been the name that Anakin and she had decided on if it was a boy and now that was what his name was going to be.
"Don't just sit there; get ready for your next baby!" The healer commanded and that made Padme's head shoot up.
"Next one?" Padme questioned and the healer nodded.
"The next baby?"
"There's another one?" Padme asked and felt a strip of pain fill her body. She cried out helplessly as she pushed. And pushed and pushed. Until finally it came out.
"A girl!" The healer again held up the baby and then pulled out another blanket and wrapped it around the girl. She handed it to another person who was going to clean them off.
"Leia." Padme smiled, it was over and now she had two beautiful healthy children.
'Anakin! A girl and a boy! Can you believe it? I mean seriously, I thought we would only be having one!'
Leia had been the name that Anakin and she had decided on if it was a girl and now that was going to be her name. Padme laughed at that thought; now she could have both names! Both names!
The healer cleaned her up before handing her back the two small babies. Luke and Leia were both cleaned up and were sleeping silently. She rocked them back and fourth as Gen looked on.
"Padme, they're beautiful."
"Aren't they Gen? They might be early, but they're beautiful." Padme sighed contently and held Luke forward.
"Would you like to hold him?" Padme questioned and Gen shook her head.
"I might hurt him!" Gen had never ever held a baby before; it was not like a young girl to hold a baby.
"No you won't Gen, you'll be just fine."
Gen took the baby gently in her arms Luke's eyes snapped open. Gen slightly jerked but relaxed against the baby who giggled at the site of the new person.
"He's so cute! And Luke… I love his name."
"It was the name that Anakin and I had decided on." Padme explained and Gen gasped.
"You were married… To Anakin Skywalker?" Padme nodded. So what? She had told one person, it wasn't going to be that big of a secret when the baby or babies would be born.
"That's amazing." Gen finally determined and rocked Luke back and fourth in her arms.
"When me and Scott get married, I hope we have twins." Gen suddenly thought about something. She had pushed the thoughts of Lillian out for too long.
"You know Padme; I have to leave soon to go find Lillian."
"I'm going with you!" Padme sat up against the rock she had been leaning against.
"You're in no condition! And you have the twins to take care of." Gen stated firmly so it was clear to Padme that she couldn't come.
"I have an idea Gen, I'll be fine in a couple of days and back to shape and then we'll go. I promise you. I'm never going to let you go alone!" Gen sighed in defeat.
"Fine Padme, but what about the twins?"
"We have to take a trip to Naboo."
A WEEK LATER – NABOO – EARLY MORNING – NABERRIE HOUSE
Jobal Naberrie sighed it was another day. Just another day without Padme. She perked up at the knock at the door.
She ran towards the door, hoping that it was Padme saying that she hadn't died. Of course it wasn't. Jobal flung the door open and looked down to see a small little basket set upon the steps. Actually it wasn't that small.
She picked it up, only to hear a snore. She looked around for the owner but found none. She looked into the basket. Two beautiful babies sat there sleeping. Their small eyes closed. Jobal gasped and brought them into the house. There was a note folded and tucked in between the twins.
Jobal read it quickly.
Mother, Father, Sola, and family,
You guys, I miss you so much. I'm so sorry I never wrote to you before, I was trying to find out what had happened to me. First I would like to tell you that I have been married for three years and these are my two beautiful children Luke and Leia. I was married to Anakin Skywalker. I'm so sorry that I never told you and I hope you can forgive me for everything I never ever told you. Everything I hid from you.
Mom, I'm leaving Luke and Leia in your care. I have to take care of some unforgotten business, I hope you don't mind. Their angel's mom, I swear. If anything should happen to me, I'm sure you will love them like I would have. If you could contact Anakin to tell him I'm alright, that would be great. Tell him I love him and the children. I love you guys with all my heart and will miss you if I never get to see you again.
Love with all my heart,
Padme
Jobal clutched the note to her heart and then her hand gripped the basket tightly in her hand. She closed the door and picked up the two twins holding them close to her, but not letting the letter that Padme had written get crushed. She turned quickly and walked to the main room where her family sat.
"Rwuee, Sola, Ryoo, Pooja! I have some great news!" Jobal cried and made her way towards the room trying not to crush the babies.
Tears of joy and relief streamed down her face as she stood in the doorway. She couldn't wait to deliver the news.
Padme was alive.
NABOO – EARLIER THAT MORNING
Padme kept changing the positions of Luke and Leia in the small basket.
"I hope they don't get stolen." Gen joked as she watched Padme changed the twins position one last time.
"Gen! Don't joke about that!"
"Sorry Padme, I was just… I don't know nervous."
"I know I am too." Padme wiped her hands on her pants and smiled reassuringly.
"My parents are wonderful and they will be relived to know that I am alright."
"I hope so." Padme folded the note up and carefully tucked it in between the twins. She sighed as she watched them snuggle up against each other. She was going to miss them.
It had been a week since their birth and since then Padme had gotten back her figure. The one she had before she had gotten pregnant. Back when she and Anakin were just young lovers. She smiled as she looked down at her now trim body.
"It's amazing what a senator can do in a week with her body." Gen laughed at her own joke. Padme released a hand from the basket and slapped Gen gently.
"Oh come on! Everybody could do this if they tried!" Padme regained her grip on the basket she turned down the ally with Gen close behind.
"I hope you know what your doing Padme."
"I do Gen, I can't take them along and I know that my family will take good care of them." Padme stated and walked closer to the house.
"This is it." Padme stopped at the house and stared up towards it.
"I'm scared Gen."
"Why are you scared?" Gen questioned her friend and Padme turned her gaze towards her.
"I'm scared that they'll see me." Padme answered and walked up the steps without even thinking about what she had said. She placed the basket down on the steps and sighed sadly.
She bent down and leaned forward and kissed Luke and Leia's foreheads once at a time. Gen smiled at that. Padme came back up and looked down at Gen who was still standing on the step.
"I'm ready." Padme and said a little good-bye to each twin. She turned and knocked on the door and then walked down the stairs quickly.
"Are you sure?" Gen questioned and Padme nodded.
"You sure you don't want to see them?" Padme nodded again.
"It's best if I don't." Padme answered.
"Alright." Gen gave up with arguing with Padme because she knew Padme would always win.
They started to walk quickly. Gen and Padme disappeared from the street just as Jobal Naberrie answered the door. They didn't look back thought, even though their fears were eating them up inside. Padme was scared, that that was going to be the last time she would ever see her children.
End of Chapter 5
A/N: Did you like it? Review please!
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