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I DO NOT OWN STAR WARS!
I Hate Myself for Losing You
Summary: AU: During ROTS. Padme dies before child birth and Anakin turns to the dark side before the end of ROTS, because of it. But can Padme really be dead? Book 2 of 2: What If?
Chapter 7: Destiny
Padme got up; she had to keep going for Gen and Lillian. She took one last left and ran straight into a tall dark hooded figure.
Padme grabbed her blaster and didn't even look up into the face of the person she had run into. She tried to fire it, only to have her blaster taken away from her.
"You stupid blaster won't do you again good you worthless scum." The voice sounded so familiar. Padme looked up, to see a familiar face.
"Anakin?" He looked down at her only to pull off his hood and stare into her eyes like he was seeing a ghost.
"Padme…" The word was uttered so softly, yet Padme heard him.
"Anakin!" Padme threw her arms around him not knowing of all the terrible things he had done.
"Padme… How?"
"Anakin… I'm so glad I found you, I mean it was so scary knowing that I wasn't near you and everything sort of-"
"Padme… My love, you're alive." Padme smiled as tears stream down her face. Vader was still deciding whether to tell her that he had to turned towards the dark side or not.
"I know." Padme merely said and pressed her face into his shoulder, only needing comfort.
Vader was surprised that his wife, Padme Amidala Naberrie Skywalker had been able to cloak her presents in the force. Where did she pick that up? Probably from him and Obi-Wan.
"Anakin… I have the most wonderful news!" Padme almost jumped at her anxiousness to tell her husband about Luke and Leia.
"What is it Padme?" Vader questioned his wife as he opened his cloak and wrapped it tightly around her. She snuggled into it and sighed.
"You know how I was pregnant?" Padme questioned and Vader nodded.
"Yes, I remember that was one of the happiest days of my life." Vader almost smiled at that, but sith apprentices don't smile about happy things.
"Well… I went into premature labor." Padme explained as she felt his head rest on top of hers.
"You did?"
"Yes Anakin… I gave birth to our two beautiful children. Luke and Leia." Padme felt him gasp.
"Two?"
"Two!" Padme confirmed and smiled brightly.
"They're the most precious things in the world Anakin, they were so small and happy and I felt so… So free…"
"Where are they?" Vader questioned as his grip tightened on his wife. He never ever wanted to let her go again.
"They're on Naboo Anakin; I left them in the care of my mother… Wait, what are you doing on Sidious's ship?" Padme pulled back from her husband to look him in the eye, he was starring back at her.
"Padme…" He stroked back some of her hair that had fallen out of her ponytail, she wore a questioning glance as two clone troopers walked past them.
"Lord Vader, have you found the two intruders?" Padme took a couple of steps backwards as Vader ran his fingers through his hair.
"They did not just say that… That… That you were… A lord? And Vader?" Padme almost fell forward from shock. Tears rushed down her face.
"You're a sith… Anakin… Vader..." She corrected herself. She brought her hands up to her face to wipe away the tears.
"Anakin Skywalker is dead." She stated and fell towards the ground.
"Oh my god, oh my god… You didn't! YOU DIDN'T!" Padme screamed and got up. Vader was walking towards her.
"Padme…"
"Stay away from me!" Padme screamed again and out of the hallway to find Gen and Lillian and leave this place. She ran down the hall, almost sliding past the doorway to the slave quarters.
"Gen!" Padme said as she saw the young girl banging against the door.
"Padme!" She stopped banging and hugged Padme. She let go and went back to the door.
"Padme, I don't know the password and I can't get Gen out!" Vader strode up to them, pulling Padme and Gen away from the door.
"Get your hands off of me!" Padme shouted as anger built up inside her. She hated Vader for doing this to Anakin.
"If you stay with me Padme, I will let your two friends go." Padme stopped kicking and let herself think about that for a moment.
"Padme, don't do it! We're not worth it!" Gen cried out, but Padme could barely hear her words.
"You will let them go?" Padme questioned and watched Vader nod eagerly. She sighed in defeat. All she wanted was Gen and Lillian's safety she didn't care what happened to her.
"I will do it." Padme answered. "But you have to get them a ship and promise never to harm the people of Bendon or even go near it."
Vader nodded again and said the password into the door, it opened and he went inside to get Lillian out. While he was gone, Padme gently hugged Gen.
"Padme… You shouldn't have." Gen tightly gripped Padme.
"Don't worry about it Gen, I promise you that you will be fine. Anyways you have to go to Scott." Padme smiled as she watched the young girls face light up with joy.
"Thank you Padme, for all of this." Padme pulled back as Gen's face was engulfed with a smile.
"Just as long as you're happy." Padme said and let go of the girl just as Vader and Lillian came out. Lillian ran from Vader's side and met her sister in a fierce hug.
"Gen! I was so worried I would never see you again!"
"It's ok Lillian, I'm here." Lillian let go of her sister and hugged Padme.
"Thank you… For everything." Lillian said and Padme laughed.
"Go you two, while you can." Padme ordered and watched the two girls walk off with the troopers. Lillian was mouthing words to her sister about why Padme wasn't coming with them. Gen would answer and then Lillian would scream something to Padme about coming.
But Padme never heard that because she was whisked away by Vader.
SIDIOUS SHIP – A LITTLE WHILE LATER – VADER'S CHAMBER
Padme sat on Vader's bed, fingering the hem of her dress, not really noticing how Vader paced around the room firing questions at her.
"Padme! Are you listening?" Padme's head shot up.
"Did you say something?" She was still angry at him for turning to the dark side.
"I asked you a question." Vader snapped and Padme tipped her head to one side.
"Oh… Well I didn't hear you." He walked over to her and placed his hand under her chin tipping it upwards to look at him.
"I asked you about the twins." Padme pushed his hand off of her roughly. She turned her head away.
"There is nothing to be said about the twins."
Padme ran her fingers through her newly washed hair as she stared out the window into space. She didn't need any of this, Vader was playing games with her and she just wanted to go to Naboo to be with Luke and Leia. She wanted to be with Anakin again, but that was never going to come true. Again Padme played with the hem of her dress that Vader had given her.
It was one of her old ones, something that she had had since she was in the senate. She sighed as she thought of being in the senate once more, if only she was free and not a prisoner of this stupid ship.
"You will tell me about them." Vader demanded.
"I will not tell you a word about them!"
"I am their father!"
"No you are not! Anakin Skywalker was their father! You are a monster and you will never ever be their father." Padme stated as she stood up from the position of sitting on the bed.
Vader came closer to her and raised his hand up and slapped her for disobeying him. Padme reached up to her face and touched it softly as a burning feeling ran down her body. She felt tears well up in her eyes as she tried not to cry.
He stared at her, his eyes a bright yellow filled with rage. Padme stared back her chocolate brown eyes with nothing but sorrow. She felt bad for Vader. He turned away from her and walked out of the room without even saying good-bye.
Padme sobbed not wanting to ever see Vader's face again even though it was the same as the love of her life's. Anakin Skywalker… She loved him so much and just wanted him back. She cried and threw herself against the bed.
Padme let her tears run down her face as she remembered the day that she had told Anakin she was pregnant. It was one of the most happiest days on his life yet he had probably been a little angry about how this had happened.
Flashback
"I've missed you so much." She heard Anakin's words muffled against her neck. She nodded her head slightly as her fingers got tangled in his hair.
"I've missed you also, love. I'm sorry I couldn't make it when you got in… Some things came up-" Anakin had pulled back by now and placed a gentle finger on her lips.
"It's alright Angel, we're together now." He was hiding something from her as she was to him.
"How long do we have Anakin?"
He didn't want to tell her, but knew he had too. "A day."
"What! That is not nearly enough time!" Padme cried out as she turned her back on her husband, not wanting to look at him as tears streamed down her face.
"Padme…"
"No Anakin! I haven't seen you in months! And all we get is a day?" Padme turned back around and threw herself in his arms once more. She had to tell him, it was now or never.
"I'm sorry Padme… Is there… Something wrong?" Padme flinched, but still held on tightly to her husband.
"Ani?"
"Yes Angel?"
She hesitated and pulled away to look at him in the eye, "I'm pregnant."
"You're what?"
"Pregnant." The word floated above their heads. Anakin felt like dying. This would be horrible, they couldn't hide a child.
"Are you mad?"
He focused back on his wife. Was he mad? Was he mad? No! This was the happiest day of his life!
"Of course not! T-This is the happiest day of my life!" Anakin embraced her, uncertain about if Padme believed him. She welcomed his comfort, and now he knew that everything was going to be alright…
"Oh what are we going to do Anakin? What's going to happen?"
"Everything will be fine Padme, we'll figure out what to do when the baby comes."
"Are you sure you are alright with this?"
"I couldn't be happier."
A little while later, Padme and Anakin stood on the balcony together, Padme gently brushing through her hair while looking up at the stars.
"Padme, love…"
"Anakin, when will you be back?"
"A day or so…"
"Or so?" Padme questioned and Anakin nodded. She put her brush down and walked over to him.
"I might be gone longer."
"Please be safe Anakin, I don't know what I'll do without you." Padme answered quickly and buried her face in his shoulder.
"I will Padme, and promise me you'll stay safe." Padme laughed.
"Of course, how can I be in any danger?"
"You're always in danger Padme; I just want you to be safe."
"Don't worry, so much Ani, I'll be fine." She leaned forward and kissed his cheek.
"Here," She said stuffing something into his hands. "It's for you."
"What is it?" Anakin questioned and was about to open his hands when Padme stopped him.
"I want you to open it when you leave tomorrow morning. When you are flying away, I want you to think about me." She said with a smile and led his hands down to his pocket, gently placing it in his pocket.
"Suspense is killing me love." Anakin whined and Padme grinned.
"Then shall I give you a distraction?"
"Maybe-" It was too late, Padme had already started.
End of Flashback
Padme sighed sadly as she relived that day. She cried and cried. Finally she had let her emotions go and let herself fall into an exhausted sleep.
Padme's dream:
"Anakin?" Padme screamed as she watched her husband run away from her.
"I'll be back soon Padme, I promise!" Anakin ran further and further…
"But Anakin, I haven't even told you my good news!" Padme screamed as she watched her husband jump into a speeder.
"Don't worry Padme; I'll be back in a year." Padme gasped at the news. Why was this happening?
Padme watched him leave, he sped off in the speeder and crashed into another speeder. His body went flying as he fell to his death. Padme screamed as she ran towards the edge and watched his body fall.
"ANAKIN!"
End of Padme's dream
Padme woke up to be in the comfort of somebody's arms. She looked beside her to find Vader with his arms tightly around her. She tried to get out of his arms, but they were too tight. She relaxed and felt the wetness of her cheeks.
"You were crying and screaming, I needed to calm you." Vader explained as he wiped away some of Padme's tears. She didn't say anything.
"I'm sorry about earlier." Padme nodded as if to say that she understood.
"If you don't want to talk to me, I'll understand."
"No," Padme stated. "I will talk to you."
She felt herself turn towards him. Her eyes starring into his and she felt like she was looking at Anakin once more, but really it was Vader.
"You were angry, I understand."
"No, you don't deserve any of that."
"Vader…" Padme would never get use to saying that name, but she guess she had too.
"I'm sorry Padme." She nodded as she kissed his forehead and he rested his head in the crook of her neck. She smiled as she rested her arm around him, remembering that they use to do that when he was still Anakin. She sighed and let sleep take her.
End of Chapter 7
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