A/N: Thanks for all the reviews last chapter and I really hope you like this chapter also, again I was really tired so it's not the best chapter, so tell me what you think! Thanks!
Oh yea, this is probably one of my worst chapters also… I promise they will get better! (I hope!)
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HaLe+- Sorry fanfiction, wouldn't let me put your name in right! Thanks, you can't get chapter 4? Really, I wonder why... When I checked, I could get it... More romance sences, hmm if you want then i will! lol! Anyways thanks a lot for the review and hope you liked this chapted!
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I DO NOT OWN STAR WARS!
I Hate Myself for Losing You
Summary: AU: During ROTS. Padme dies before child birth and Anakin turns to the dark side before the end of ROTS, because of it. But can Padme really be dead? Book 2 of 2: What If?
Chapter 8: Luke and Leia
Padme sighed as she woke up in the morning. Vader's arms where still tightly around her, she smiled as she felt his blonde curly hair tickling her neck. His head still rested in the crook of her neck. She stretched her arms and fell back.
She hadn't exactly forgiven Vader for everything he had done, but she was in the process of forgiving him. Padme sighed again, deeper this time. Vader stirred in her arms. His eyes shot open and looked up at her.
"Good morning." Padme sounded hoarse, scared that the sith lord's gaze was on her.
"Good morning Padme." She smiled at the sound of her name. Vader resisted the urge to just kiss her or call her one of the names he had when he was Anakin Skywalker. He knew that if he kissed her, he would have crossed the line.
Vader looked up at Padme who was starring down on him. She smiled even brighter when his gaze meet hers. Their faces where inches apart when…
BEEP BEEP BEEP!
Vader jumped out of the bed to get a confused glance from Padme. He said nothing to her.
"Yes master?" Vader questioned as the form of his master appeared.
"Where are our two hidden guests?" Sidious questioned and tried to look at Padme, but Vader was blocking his view.
"I took care of them." Vader stated and the conversation continued, Padme blocked out the words about hatred and suffering and destroying things, she didn't want to hear any of that.
Soon Vader was sitting next to her, running his fingers through her chocolate brown hair and saying nothing. Padme turned to look at him and a smile came to her face. She remembered Anakin doing something so much like this. She got up from sitting on the bed and carefully leaned forward, kissing Vader gently on the cheek not sure as if to kiss him on the lips.
"Get changed." Vader sounded disappointed, but Padme didn't really seem to care that much. She nodded not saying a word and disappeared to the closet. Vader followed her.
"Padme, I want you to go get the twins." Padme spun around.
"What?"
"I want you to go get the twins from Naboo." Padme felt the anger rising inside her.
"I will not bring the twins here!"
"Yes you will Padme! You have to bring them here, it is my orders!"
"I do not listen to your orders! I never will!" Padme snapped and turned back around to the closet.
Vader spun her back around. "You will listen to my orders."
His face was a couple of inches away from hers; she stared up at him in fear. She could feel tears building up inside her eyes. She hated Vader, she just wanted Anakin back.
"I will do what you want." Padme choked out between her sobs. Vader almost laughed at her, but contained himself. He turned away from her and started to walk away from her.
"There is a ship waiting for you, go to it when you are ready." Padme nodded.
"Vader!" She gathered her courage as he turned towards her.
"What?"
"I am no longer going to love you; I am merely your prisoner." Vader turned away, pretending not to care, but he really did. For he still loved Padme more then she would ever know.
SIDIOUS SHIP – LATER THAT MORNING – SHIP TO NABOO
Padme made her way around the cockpit, thinking about what to say to her mother about taking her twins back. Would she tell her about Vader? Would she tell her about being a prisoner on his ship? She sighed and fell back into a chair as one of the clone troopers walked into the room.
"Milady, we are almost there." Padme nodded and sank further into the chair.
"Can you get me something?" Padme asked and spun the chair to look at the trooper.
"Anything you wish milady."
"Get me tea, really really calming tea." Padme commanded and the trooper nodded. That was weird, she needed tea?
"Please… Just get me it, I need it." Padme sat there fidgeting and trying to clam her nerves. She wasn't sure about what she was going to say to her mother, so that's why she needed the tea more then ever.
The trooper came in with the tea and handed it to her. She smiled politely and took the tea from him. She drained the cup and then dropped it to the ground noticing what it had on it.
It was a cup, a cup she had given Anakin when they were doing stupid things. She let it crash and the glass when everywhere. Padme didn't say anything as a couple of troopers stared at her.
NABOO – LATER THAT MORNING - NABERRIE HOUSE
Padme walked up the steps to her house, praying that her nerves were calmed enough to ask her mother for her twins back. She raised her hand up and was about to knock when she noticed the troopers standing just a couple of feet away. Padme didn't say anything, just knocked once on the door.
The door flung open to show Rwuee, Padme's father in the doorway. He gaped at her before throwing his arms around her and hugging her tightly.
"Padme! I'm so glad to see you…. We thought you were dead and when you dropped off the twins here, we knew that we were blessed."
"Oh dad, I'm so glad I'm here! I mean seriously, I had no idea when I was on Bendon, that I was presumed dead! I'm so sorry for all the suffering I've given you." Padme sighed as her father kissed her forehead. She smiled and let him led her inside.
Sola was sitting with Ryoo and Pooja. They looked up when they saw Padme. Sola was the first to get up and hug her sister tightly to her.
"Padme!" She said breathlessly and then she let her two daughters hug their aunt. Sola smiled at her, Padme picked up her two nieces and sat down on the couch waiting for her mother.
"Oh Padme, we were so worried about you." Sola said and wrapped her arm around her younger sister.
"I'm so sorry for all the pain I've caused you." Padme let tears slip from her eyes and down her cheeks. She was so glad to be with her family again. But still she missed Luke and Leia and Anakin… Her family…
Jobal Naberrie walked into the room with Luke and Leia in each arm. She gasped at Padme and walked over to her, gently setting the two babies into her arms, she hugged her daughter, careful not to harm the two young ones.
"Padme…" Jobal said no more, just was happy to be with her youngest daughter.
"I have a lot of explaining to do don't I?" Padme asked and the family nodded. Padme laughed and started explaining everything that had happened.
"….And that's why I'm here." She hadn't yet told them about taking the twins back, but she was getting there.
"You mean you lost your memory?" Sola questioned her eyes wide with shock.
"Yes, I'm still not sure what happened when I woke up on Bendon."
"I didn't even know Bendon was a planet." Rwuee stated as his daughter let him take Leia from her arms.
"Mom, Dad, Sola, Ryoo, Pooja, I have something that I need to tell you."
"What is it Padme? I'm sure if you're going to stay I can make you up a room." Jobal offered and Padme shook her head.
"I need to take Luke and Leia home… To Anakin of course…" She lied. Padme got that out; she could finally let herself be calm. Padme would have never lied to her family before, but it was for their own good.
"Of course darling… I know that Anakin would love to see them. Now one day please come home with him and the twins, we'd loved to meet him someday." Padme nodded, but really she was thinking:
Like that will ever happen.
SIDIOUS SHIP – LATE THAT NIGHT – VADER'S CHAMBER
Padme sat in a rocking chair, sighing softly as she watched her two children sleep. She didn't want to bring them here, but what choice did she have? She just wanted to wake up from this horrible nightmare and there she would be back in bed with Anakin on the day she had told him she was pregnant.
But really, she knew that would never happen.
The doors slid open to reveal Vader, tried from the day's mission or something. He walked into the room and sat on the bed as he looked on. Padme simply looked up and then looked back down.
"Their beautiful Padme."
"Aren't they?" Padme questioned and smiled at that thought. She got up from the rocking chair and walked out of the room and quickly to the twin's room. She placed the two sleeping twins gently into their cribs and shut off the lights. She walked back into the main bedroom.
"Does your master know about me and the twins?" Padme asked as she sat down next to him.
"No, but I think he's onto it." Padme sighed as she remembered what she had said to him that morning.
"I'm sorry about this morning, I had no right."
Vader didn't know what to say. "It's alright."
Padme looked at him sadly and then got up and walked around the bed and laid down. She was exhausted from the day's events. Vader got up and changed and then got in on the other side.
Padme didn't move when she felt Vader next to her, she was having a debating contest in her mind.
Just forgive him, you know you want too.
No! Don't forgive him, he's a sith.
Forgive him!
Padme gave up, he needed somebody to love him and help him come back to the light side, she was sure of it. Maybe she could be that one person. And maybe there was still hope for Vader; she could make him Anakin Skywalker once more. She leaned over and kissed him gently on the lips. She let herself become one with the passion burning inside her.
End of Chapter 8
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