A/N: Ok sorry I didn't get this chapter up sooner, had too much on my mind lately. And sorry no review responds this week, but if you would like I will do it next week! Anyways ENJOY! And thanks for all the reviews!
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I DO NOT OWN STAR WARS!
I Hate Myself for Losing You
Summary: AU: During ROTS. Padme dies before child birth and Anakin turns to the dark side before the end of ROTS, because of it. But can Padme really be dead? Book 2 of 2: What If?
Chapter 11: Never Leave You
Padme-
She stood watching them pronounce their love for each other. She sighed sadly and made eye contact with Lillian. Lillian nodded to Padme and went back to watching Gen and Scott.
I shouldn't have come… Padme told herself as she felt a familiar presents enter her. She couldn't help it but look around curiously. Was Vader here?
Anakin-
He was almost at Bendon and he couldn't wait. He would be with her once again whether she liked it or not. He was so caught up in thinking he didn't even hear the storm trooper enter the room.
"Milord, we have reached Bendon."
Vader laughed, "Good."
The trooper exited. Vader stood up and looked out the window at the village. There was nobody there, but he would find her anyways.
"Soon Padme, we will be together. And when we are, you won't ever escape me again."
Padme-
She stared into the thick forest as if she could hear him coming.
Oh no, he's here! She wanted to run so he wouldn't disturb the wedding. She looked helplessly around and watched Gen and Scott make their way down the isle. She sighed in relief. It was over and now Vader couldn't mess up the wedding.
But it wasn't over; they were doing a traditional dance that would seal their fates forever. She heard footsteps, commands and then he emerged from the forest, his eyes set on her.
Vader-
Vader got off of the ship, anxious to see Padme again and her reaction. He knew she wasn't expecting him and that was the good part.
"Milord, where would you like to go?" The storm trooper known as Ari questioned and Vader turned to look at him.
"We're going into the forest, so I want you and you're men to guard every way out of this forest, do I make myself clear?" Vader questioned and Ari nodded.
"Crystal sir." And with that he disappeared.
Vader almost laughed at this, how people were so giving when he was so powerful. He could have never done this if he was a Jedi. Obi-Wan had been wrong.
He made his way through the forest, destroying anything in his way. He cut down a tree and heard music. It was beautiful, something that should have happened at Padme and his wedding. He sighed at that memory. He followed the music and pushed the trees back.
There he found himself, starring at Padme.
Padme-
Padme wanted to run, but what good would that do? Everybody sat motionless and stared at Vader. She never wanted any of this to happen. It had ruined the whole wedding day.
"Padme." Vader announced her name as everybody's eyes turned to her. She wanted to crawl into a black hole and never come out again.
"Vader." She simply said and dropped the flowers she had been holding. They fell to the ground like a rain shower. The petals fell and fanned out across her white shoes. She didn't move. But he did.
He made his way through the isle and right up to her. They would have time to discuss this later. Padme did nothing to try to stop him; he took her arm and whisked her away from this crowd.
Dorme and Sabe watched helplessly as they watched their mistress do nothing to stop him. She let herself be taken and she didn't seem to care.
Vader-
"Padme." Vader announced her name and watched as everybody's eyes turned to her. She looked frightened, but that had never bothered her before. She didn't say anything as she looked around.
"Vader." She finally said and let the flowers that had been in her hands fall towards the ground. Padme didn't move as the flower petals fanned out across her shoes. She was in a simple white dress that made her look so much younger and more beautiful. He had always loved it when she dressed simply.
He didn't say anything else as he made his ways towards her. She didn't fight back as he took her arm and led her away. She watched him and everybody else. She didn't make contact with anybody and as soon as they were in the forest, she uttered a single phrase.
"I hate you."
Padme-
She knew it wasn't like her to say words that she didn't mean, but what point was that? She seriously did not like Vader at this moment and that was why she had told him what she did.
"I hate you." She uttered the word so softly that Vader could barely hear her.
"What was that?" He questioned as he looked at her, almost wanting to let the tears go.
"I hate you Vader, I just want my Anakin back." Instead of crying, he laughed.
"Anakin's not coming back Padme, dear. He never will."
Padme looked away as her tears fell down her pale cheeks. Washing away her make-up and making her look like a fool.
Anakin-
"I hate you." Vader looked down at her. She had her head turned away from him. Was she that disgusted by him?
"What was that?" He questioned as she turned to look at her. She had no idea how much that had hurt him.
"I hate you Vader, I just want my Anakin back." Instead of crying like he wanted too do, he started laughing at her. Because he didn't care what she thought anymore.
"Anakin's not coming back Padme, dear. He never will."
Padme said no more, as she wiped away her tears and made herself decent as they made their way to his ship.
"We are going back to the ship." Vader commanded one of the troopers and they nodded before walking towards the control room. Vader sighed and made his way to the personal chambers where Padme was.
He pushed open the door and stared at her. She looked beautiful, sitting on the edge of the bed; her head lowered so her curly locks fell forward and covered the sides of her face. Her heads were folded neatly in her lap, as her feet touched the floor gently. She didn't move and you could barely hear her breathing.
"Padme, look at me." He wanted to go over, but he knew that would probably have crossed the line for him. She didn't move.
"Why should I?" Her voice was small.
"Because I want you to listen to what I have to say."
"I do not need to know Vader, you may tell me later."
"I will tell you now Padme!"
Padme raised her head, her brown hair falling down her shoulders and to her mid-stomach. She sighed her brown eyes haunting him. She nodded and patted the bed next to her as she scooted over. Vader quickly took that offer and made his way towards the bed sitting down and turning towards Padme.
"What is it you need to talk to me about?"
"It's about… Well why did you escape?" Padme turned her head away.
"I don't want to talk about that."
"Padme, you will answer my questions." Vader tried to do a mind trick on her, but knew that he would fail. She was too strong minded.
"I will not Vader! Don't even try those on me!" She shouted and got up pointing towards the door.
"You get out of here; I will not answer your questions. You may come back later but I'm not in the mood anymore."
Vader did as he told, for he knew that fighting with Padme was a bad thing.
Padme-
"I don't want to talk about that." Padme looked out the window into the deep darkness of space. Why did this all have to happen?
"Padme, you will answer my questions." Vader stated and tried to do a mind trick on her. Padme shook her head; he should have never tried that.
"I will not Vader! Don't even try those of me!" Padme shouted and jumped up from the place she had been sitting. She pointed towards the door and made her voice sound cold.
"You get out of here; I will not answer your questions. You may come back later but I'm not in the mood anymore." Padme watched as Vader got up and walked out the door, slamming it behind him.
She sighed and sank down onto the bed again. Dreaming of what could have been if she had never been kidnapped and Anakin didn't turn towards the dark side. Was it too weird for her to hope for something that wasn't going to happen? She couldn't believe that she was still going on when there was nothing to live for. She was so in love with Anakin Skywalker, but now he was Vader. There was no point.
Maybe everybody was right; there was no point for her to try to get Anakin back.
Vader-
It was about an hour later that Vader returned to her. She was sitting against the wall, starring out the window running her fingers through her hair. He sat down next to her, surprising her and making her jump a little.
"I'm sorry Padme." She turned her head and smiled slightly.
"It's alright Vader."
"I was so scared when you left me." He wanted to hold her once more, but there was too much that he had down wrong for her to allow that. She sighed and placed her hand over his.
"Vader, I'm never gonna leave you."
Padme-
After the fight, she hadn't done that much, she sat around and stared out the window not really caring what was going on anymore. It was only when the door opened and somebody sat down next to her that she was finally awakened.
"I'm sorry Padme." Vader said and she turned to look at him. She had given up on trying to get Anakin Skywalker back, so was there any point to life anymore?
"It's alright Vader." She answered.
"I was so scared when you left me." He stated and she smiled. He really did miss her; she was a part of him that nobody else could replace. Padme sighed and placed her soft hand over his. Looking back up into his eyes she spoke those words that would seal her fate once more.
"Vader, I'm never gonna leave you."
End of Chapter 11
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