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I Hate Myself for Losing You
Summary: AU: During ROTS. Padme dies before child birth and Anakin turns to the dark side before the end of ROTS, because of it. But can Padme really be dead? Book 2 of 2: What If?
Chapter 14: Only Human
Padme-
She placed her feet against the wall and sighed as she leaned back, propping her head up by placing her elbows under her head. Her eyes darted across the ceiling, being in this cell was boring as hell.
"You bored?" The woman from across the hall called over.
"Yes." Padme answered honestly and then there was silence.
"What's you name?" The woman questioned, Padme noticing how bad her English had gotten, or she had never been to school, she decided it was best that she shouldn't bring it up.
"Padme Amidala Naberrie." Padme said and sat up slowly. "And yours?"
"Mine is Julie. Very interesting story about how I got that name." Julie said and smiled, her teeth cracked and yellow. Padme smiled back, her smile was beautiful. Anakin had said that a billion times.
"I'd love to hear it, if you don't mind."
"Of course, of course, it goes something like this…"
Anakin-
Anakin sat down on one of the pilots seats and watched Obi-Wan carefully.
"What are you doing?" Anakin questioned as Obi-Wan picked up something from the ship.
"I believe this is yours." Obi-Wan answered and handed it to him. Anakin looked at it; it was a piece of jappor. He was puzzled, and then he remembered. It was the jappor that he first gave Padme when they met. He sighed, how had this fallen off of her?
Maybe she had ripped it off because she didn't want it anymore. How could Padme do that? It must have been when they were in a fight and she went to go get the twins. He wondered where she was right now. Probably sitting in a rocking chair and looking out into space. Obi-Wan looked on as his young friend stared at the necklace.
For he was also worried about Padme.
Padme-
She sat against the wall half listening to Julie. It was boring her, she couldn't believe it but this was the most boring thing of earth to listen too. She moved her hair around trying to find something to do with herself.
"And that's how I got the name Julie." Padme turned her head, she wasn't even listening. She smiled at the old woman and then turned her head the other way.
"That was a nice story, I liked it." Padme lied and then let herself slide down so she was lying on her back.
"I thought it was a nice story also… See my pa didn't want my name to be Julie, but I gots that name anyhow… And well you know the story…"
"Yes I do." Padme smiled again and then looked up at the ceiling. No more stories… She was too busy thinking of Anakin, Luke, and Leia. She sighed and let her mind carry her to memories of them.
Flashback
"Oh please… Are you serious?" Padme's voice carried through the rooms of the apartment. Anakin walked through the door and looked at her.
"Yes of course I'm serious! Padme, don't you believe me?"
"I believe you of course, but how could you kill five hundred droids all in one trip?" She laughed and fell on the couch. Anakin sat down right besides her.
"Well I'm a hero, what can I say?" Padme threw her arms around him while she laughed. Anakin always knew how to make her feel better.
"Fine it's that's the way you want to think about it." She kissed his cheek gently before resting her head against his shoulder.
"Something wrong?" He wrapped his arms tightly against her and comforted her.
"Well… I was thinking about the baby." She confessed and pulled back from Anakin, he smiled at her waiting for her to go on.
"I was just thinking that well… We haven't picked out any names." Padme said and looked him straight in the eyes.
"We haven't even thought of any." Anakin realized and sat back against the couch. "Why don't we start?"
Padme nodded and accepted his offer. "How about…" She thought for a second. "Luke if it's a boy."
"Luke?" Anakin questioned.
"Yes Luke, it means 'light'." Anakin smiled and nodded.
"I like that name."
"I do too."
"And if it's a girl?" Anakin asked and Padme thought for another second.
"Leia." She concluded and smiled brightly before finally relaxing against the couch.
"Leia? What does that mean?"
"I do not have the real meaning… But I think that it means 'warrior'."
"Well then she'll be strong and brave."
Padme laughed. "Just like you."
She pointed to him and sighed before getting up. "Are you teasing me?" She stopped and turned around to look at him.
"Teasing you?" She questioned and giggled before quickening her pace and then sprinting towards the bedroom.
"So you were teasing me!" Anakin laughed and got up running after her.
"Oh it was just a little bit of fun." Padme explained as she stood on one side of the bed and Anakin on the other. He quickly ran around the bed as she crossed over the bed and ran towards the kitchen. They continued to run around the apartment before finally collapsing on their bed breathless. Anakin rolled over to face Padme, she was still, her breathing quiet. Her eyes were closed and her hair fanned out beneath her head. She was asleep. He smiled and wrapped his arms around her before pulling the covers over both of them and falling asleep himself.
End of flashback
Padme smiled and let her head finally rest on the floor. She was lost in her memories that she didn't even hear the guards coming and opening her cell door. She didn't notice that they picked her up until Julie called to her.
"Padme! Good luck, don't get killed." Wow good advice. Padme thought and looked at the two guards.
"What are you doing with me?" Padme spit out and they just looked at her.
"Lord Sidious request your presents."
Anakin-
He sat in the chair still starring at the necklace and tracing it with his fingers. He then took out the necklace Padme had given him. He had worn it forever he would never ever take it off. He dropped the necklace in his pocket not wanting to think anymore about Padme, just hoping that she was safe.
"Are you ready to do this?" Obi-Wan closed the distance between them and placed a comforting hand on Anakin's shoulder.
"Of course." Anakin answered and looked out at the ship; this would just be like old times.
"Make sure I don't have to save you for the tenth time Master." Obi-Wan laughed as he remembered Anakin saving him so many times, like the time he had killed Count Dooku.
"I promise you won't have too." Obi-Wan smiled and let his young friend turn and look at the ship and just think for a while.
Padme-
"Lord Sidious requests your presents."
"What am I useful for?"
"That isn't for us to tell you." The trooper said and pulled her to the main gathering room. They pushed her forwards and let Sidious rise before saying anything.
"Here is the prisoner you wanted."
"Very well… Now leave us." Sidious ordered and walked down the steps to Padme. She didn't look up. She was on her knees her hands balled up in fists that were resting on the ground. Her head was bent down as she stared at her own stomach. She could feel him coming.
"Look at me." Sidious ordered and Padme shook her head.
"I will not look at a monster!" Padme screamed as she felt his hand come down on her back and strike her.
"That's what you get for disobeying me. Now raise your head and look at me!" Padme did as she was told. She looked up into his eyes and then angry that she had just obeyed somebody she hated, she turned her head away.
"That's what I thought… You're afraid of power."
"I am not afraid of power! I am not afraid of you!" Padme scream as she felt herself being lifted up.
"You will be soon." He pushed her against the wall, knocking her out.
Anakin-
They got out of the ship and made their way around the ship.
"Are you sure they won't kill us?"
"Am I ever sure Master?" Anakin questioned and Obi-Wan laughed.
"That's right, you never are." Something was wrong; there was actually nobody in the hallways leading up to the main hall. Anakin wondered what was going on. They stopped at the door of the main gathering room's door.
"Are you ready?" Anakin asked and Obi-Wan nodded.
"I'm ready… But the real question is are you?"
Anakin nodded, "I'm ready."
They quickly burst open the door only to find Sidious sitting in a chair smiling and Padme was pushed up against the wall, her arms and legs chained the to the wall. Anakin looked stunned as he looked at Padme crying bruises across her face and arms.
"Bravo Anakin Skywalker… You've finally turned to the light side."
"What have you done Sidious?"
"I haven't done anything…" Sidious stopped and turned to look at Padme. "Oh she was just getting the way and disobeying my orders."
"Let her go! She has nothing to do with this!"
"Haven't you ever thought about how this all started Anakin Skywalker? This was all a setup."
"What are you talking about?" Anakin asked his eyes never leaving Padme's.
"For somebody your age you're not that smart." Sidious laughed.
"What are you talking about?" Anakin commanded again.
"The whole 'Padme Amidala was kidnapped and presumed dead!' Haven't you ever wondered how she was actually kidnapped?"
"You didn't!" Anakin yelled knowing that Sidious had been the one that kidnapped Padme cloaked her presents in the force and left her to die on the planet Bendon. That night they had talked was the night that Sidious had planned to lure Anakin to the dark side by telling him about the power of saving somebody from death.
"Oh but I did." Anakin quickly readied his light saber.
"You will not get away with this." Anakin ran towards Sidious and their light sabers clashed together as Obi-Wan came and that started the fight.
Oh please god… Just let Anakin be safe and Obi-Wan…. Padme thought to herself and watched as the three men fought. She winced as Anakin got thrown to the back wall and Obi-Wan tossed aside to the other side of the room. Sidious quickly tried to lightening Anakin, but it didn't work, Anakin was too fast for him. He picked up his light saber and fought off Sidious, Sidious blocking his blows easily and sometimes even shocking him. Padme couldn't take it, she feared for Anakin's life.
Anakin quickly dodged another one of Sidious lightening bolts and threw Obi-Wan his light saber. Anakin took a couple of steps backwards to dodge off Sidious light saber. He took a swing at Sidious trying to be as careful as he could not to leave himself open for a light saber wound. Their light sabers clashed together and held there for a second.
"Obi-Wan! He's hands cut off his hand!" Anakin yelled and watched as Obi-Wan tried to cut off Sidious arm, missing because Sidious has kicked him and made he fall over. Sidious used his other arm to choke Obi-Wan and throw him against the wall once more, then pulling down a part of the wall to cover him so he couldn't get up anymore.
Padme watched and quickly got something out of her hair. A pin that had been made by R2-D2 it could cut through mostly any metal. She made her way through one of her arms chain and then the other one and then went to the leg chains. She placed the pin back into her hair and looked at the battle. Sidious didn't have a light saber but neither did Anakin. Her eyes widened as she realized what would happen next. Sidious got ready for the last attack. Padme ran as she fast as she could she would do this for love she promised herself that she would do this for him. For Luke and Leia… For everybody but mostly for Anakin. She jumped quickly in front of Sidious and felt as all her limbs went numb. She couldn't feel anything anymore.
Just let him be safe…. Padme thought as she closed her eyes and all there was was darkness.
Anakin sat there helplessly as he saw Padme toss herself in front of Sidious to save him. He wouldn't look at her right now he still had to kill Sidious; he told himself that this is what Padme wanted. He got his light saber and caught Sidious off guard. He got Sidious to his knees and held two light sabers to his head just like he had to Count Dooku.
"You're not gonna kill me Anakin… Are you?" Sidious questioned and smirked as anger came across Anakin's face.
"It's over Sidious." Then he had slashed his head off. Not even regretting it. He dropped his light saber and stumbled holding arm. He used the force to take the wall off of Obi-Wan before running over to Padme.
"Padme love… I'm so sorry… Please don't leave me…" He held her close to him.
"Padme… Padme… Please… Please don't leave me… Not now… I love you so much, please PADME!" He cried as he held her so close to him just wanting to hear her say that she was kidding and that there was nothing wrong with her. He wanted to feel her warm lips on his and her arms around him saying that it wasn't his fault…
"Anakin…" It was Obi-Wan's voice. "What happened?"
Obi-Wan shut his mouth as he saw Padme's limp figure and Anakin's arms tightly around her. He let a tear fall down his cheek. True love… True love had saved Anakin twice. Saved him from the darkness… It was Padme that had saved Anakin from everything in this whole galaxy. She had given up everything just to be with him and she had just given up her life to save him.
"Master... I can't lose her… Not again…" Anakin whimpered and gripped Padme's hand wanting it to feel warm… But it was cold…
"She's… She's not strong enough to survive that Anakin… She's not a Jedi like us, she's only human."
Anakin wasn't listening. "PADME COME BACK TO ME!" Anakin screamed and buried his head into her shoulder. He felt her force signal drop and disappear into the distance. He just couldn't believe that she was going to be gone. Her smile, her laugh, her voice, her touch, her kiss, would all be gone.
He knew it was true; she wasn't going to come back… And that was something he just had to face…
End of Chapter 14
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