Rating: PG-13
Genres: Romance, Angst, Fluff
Warnings: Mpreg
Spoilers: 1-6
Summary: Harryteaches Severus how to believe in love
Song: I'm a Believer
Artist: Smash Mouth (though I think someone else did it first)
Author's Note: Originally a songfic, the lyrics have been removed from this fic to comply with FF rules. Song lyrics can be found here: www (dot) azlyrics (dot) com (slash) lyrics (slash) smashmouth (slash) imabeliever (dot) html
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When he was younger, Severus Snape had tried to fall in love. He tried to get involved with people. But no one seemed to want anything to do with him. The Slytherins didn't want anything to do with him because he was a half-blood, and the other houses didn't want anything to do with him because he was in Slytherin. When he was older no one wanted him because he was a Death Eater. And Death Eaters aren't allowed to fall in love. So Severus eventually gave up.
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Now it was years later, and Severus met Harry. Not Potter, the annoying student who was constantly messing up his life. Harry, the young man who Severus watched struggle with enormous tasks after Dumbledore's death his sixth year. Yes, Severus had been the one to kill Dumbledore, but he hadn't wanted to. Dumbledore had made him, and after his penseive was viewed, everyone knew the truth.
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Severus was deeply in love with Harry, but he knew he didn't have a shot. Harry was young, beautiful, and caring. He would never want Severus for very long, if he even wanted him at all. Severus knew that, so he didn't even try.
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Somehow, Severus found himself in a relationship with Harry. He didn't know how Harry had managed to break through all his defenses, but he had. Now the two of them were living together down in Severus's rooms. And even though Severus knew that this was sure to end badly, he knew he wouldn't be the one to call it off, no matter what.
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One day Severus was walking outside the castle when he overheard Harry talking to Ron Weasley. Not wanting to betray Harry's trust, Severus turned to leave. That was, until he heard his name mentioned.
"I'll tell Severus in a few days, Ron. I know that I need to tell him, but I'm not sure how he'll react. He doesn't even like other people looking at me. How's he going to react when he finds out that I'm going to be sharing my life with someone else?"
Paling, Severus turned and left. So he was right. Relationships never last forever. Harry was going to leave him for another man. Severus told himself that he knew this was coming, that he knew Harry would one day leave him. But that didn't help the pain in his chest any.
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Even though he knew that Harry was going to leave him, Severus still couldn't bring himself to call off the relationship first. Was it so wrong to want a few more days with the man he loved? Three days later Harry walked in looking very fidgety. Severus knew this was going to be the night that Harry broke up with him, and he felt his chest tighten again. He was about to open his mouth and kick Harry out when the younger man spoke first.
"I'm pregnant."
"What?" Severus stared in shock. Harry was pregnant?
"I'm pregnant," Harry repeated, staring down at his shaking hands. "I wanted to tell you before, but I was afraid how you would react. I know you don't like kids very much, and there's no way that I'm going to give up my baby. She's going to be a big part of my life from now on. If you don't want her, I'll take care of him on my own. I just need to know what you want."
Right now Severus wanted to punch himself for thinking that Harry would cheat on him. Harry would never do that; Severus should have known. Pregnant? Harry was pregnant with his child? Severus didn't know what to say. As he saw the fear of rejection in Harry's eyes, however, he knew what he had to do. He knelt down in front of Harry and kissed his hands.
"I love you," he said. "And I'll love our baby, too."
Harry smiled at that. He hugged Severus tightly, his eyes filling with tears. When they pulled away and Severus saw the relief on Harry's face, he could have kicked himself.
"I have a confession to make," he said. "I overheard you and Ron talking in the forest, and I thought that you were planning on leaving me for another man."
The smile disappeared from Harry's face. He looked sadly up at Severus and ran his hand gently up Severus's cheek.
"I'll never leave you," Harry said sincerely. "That is, as long as you never leave me."
"Never," vowed Severus.
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Eight months later Harry gave birth to a beautiful baby girl with jet black hair and sparkling black eyes. Harry held the baby close, kissed her, and then handed her to Severus. As Severus looked back and forth from his newborn baby to his husband, he realized he had never been happier. At that moment, Severus knew for a fact that love existed, and he knew that he was never going to give it up.