Rating: R
Genres: Romance, Angst, Fluff
Warnings: OOC-ness
Spoilers: n/a
Summary: Harry meets up with Sev in a bar, and the two start a relationship. When Harry confesses his feelings, Severus pushes Harry away. But is that really what Severus wanted to do?
Song: Just Want You to Know
Artist: Backstreet Boys
Author's Note: Originally a songfic, the lyrics have been removed from this fic to comply with FF rules. Song lyrics can be found here: www (dot) azlyrics (dot) com (slash) lyrics (slash) backstreetboys (slash) justwantyoutoknow (dot) html
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Twenty-year-old Harry Potter sipped his drink and looked around the bar. There had to be someone here that he knew. Smirking, he made his way over to the corner where Severus Snape stood looking around the room.
"Well, well, well, look at what the cat dragged in," snarled Severus as he saw Harry, though his usual malice had disappeared. Harry smiled.
"Nice to see you, too, Severus," he said. "How have you been?"
"Did you really come over here simply to ask how I've been?"
"Well, I thought I'd start out with that," smirked Harry, taking a sip of his drink and leaning seductively into Severus. "But I hoped that you might be interested in something more."
Severus grabbed his arm and pulled him into the nearest room.
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After that day Harry and Severus spent more and more time together. Both agreed that the sex was great, but there was more to it. Harry felt safe when he was around Severus, safer than he had ever felt before. And although Severus never said anything, Harry was sure that Severus felt something more as well.
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They had been dating for a few months when Harry finally decided to say what he felt. He was curled up in Severus's lap on the couch, looking into the fire. Harry leaned back and kissed Severus gently on the lips.
"I love you," he whispered, praying that Severus would respond favorably. Instead, Severus stood up so fast that Harry was nearly thrown off the couch.
"I think we should break up."
"What?" gasped Harry, sure that he had heard wrong.
"You heard me," snarled Severus. "This was fun for a while, but you have clearly gotten too attached. We should end this before either one of us gets hurt."
And with that Severus turned and walked out of the room.
"Well it's a little late for that!" Harry yelled after him. Then he broke down on the couch and sobbed.
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Harry spent the next week confined to his bed. He didn't eat. He didn't sleep. He didn't do anything but cry and stare at the walls. Try as he might, he just couldn't get his mind off of Severus.
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Ron and Hermione came over. They tried everything they could think of to cheer Harry up. Ron threatened to kill Severus, but that only made Harry sadder. Harry knew that his friends were trying, but it wasn't working. All he could think of was whatever he had done to push Severus away and how he knew that Severus would never come back.
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Harry tried dating other people, but that didn't work either. He wasn't interested in one-night-stands, and the people who wanted relationships deserved someone better, someone who could actually love them. Harry couldn't do that. He loved Severus with all his heart. No one else made him feel the way that he felt when he was with Severus.
Harry sighed and plopped down on his couch, the same couch on which he had confessed his love for Severus. Harry started to cry again. There was a knock on the door. Taking a deep breath, Harry wiped away his tears and answered the door. He felt his jaw drop.
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Severus was standing on the other side of the door, looking just about as bad as Harry felt. His greasier-than-normal hair was a mess, and he looked as if he hadn't slept in a month.
"What are you doing here?" asked Harry quietly.
"I love you," said Severus.
"W-what do you mean that you love me?" asked Harry breathlessly. "Then why did you leave when I told you that I loved you?"
"I was scared," Severus admitted. "I've never loved anyone as much as I love you, and that scared me, so I ran. I know that I've probably lost any chance I might have had with you, but I just wanted you to know that."
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Harry looked at Severus in shock. Then his face broke into a smile. He launched himself at Severus and wrapped his arms around the older man's neck. Severus's arms wrapped instinctively around Harry's waist. Harry pressed his lips to Severus's. They kissed passionately for a long time until the need for air became too strong.
"I love you, too," Harry whispered, pressing a chaste kiss to Severus's lips. "Just promise to never, ever do that again."
Severus kissed Harry back. "I promise."