The Story of My Life

Chapter Three

"No Mustang of course you don't want to know what happened next." "What happens next is just another reminder of how big of a fucking failure you are isn't it?" "You failed is your self appointed crusade to "Protect" the innocent people of Artimis from the savage Ishbalians." "You failed to protect the innocent Ishbalians from the all mighty military." "You failed in life." "Hell you failed to have any form of life outside of the fucking military." "You failed in becoming furhur." "You failed Hughes, Gracia, and Elisia. All you had to do was sit there sign papers and trust in him to do what he said he would." "He really would have pushed you to the top." "In a moment of stupidity I gave him everything he would have needed to get you there." "You failed your crew, who are scattered and demoted, and least of all if not most importantly you failed me time and time again."

"If I had thought for a second I could have trusted you everything would have been different." "The decisions you made would have been informed." "I would have made sure you had all of the facts." "I would have voluntarily supported you all the way to the top." "All you had to do was trust me in return instead of just using me and my exploits to better your name." But what did you do?" "You Colonel Bastard sent me back into that damned house to investigate Tuckers files, however I was free of him." "The bastard was dead." "Executed by the military." "I had no reason to go back in that house, and relive all of those memories, till you sent me back." "I all but begged you not to make me go back." "I even went so far as to ask for and assignment to investigate a serial killer." "An assignment I most assuredly did not want." "I remember what those horrible mangled corpses looked like." "They reminded me so much of her." "What I did to her." "I don't want to talk about her."

"You thought I was being childish." "I know that." "You also thought it would be best to get me over my squeamishness early." "I know that too." "It would have been a good plan if I had any faith in any adult." "My jackass of a father ran out on my brother and I." "Yes, I harp on that." "Yes, I have abandonment issues." "However, I like my issues." "I plan to keep them." "Our mother left us." "You know that as well." "I know she didn't want to leave and that she couldn't help it, but she did leave us." "Our teacher as much as she loves us spent a year beating the shit out of us on the pretence of teaching us." "Looking back I realize it was just her way, but at the time I was only nine." "I am allowed my issues." "I have earned them." "You." "You came for me for your own selfish reasons." "Don't tell me you didn't." "That is an insult to my intelligence." "Once you had me you pawned me off on Tucker to preserve your reputation in case of my failure." "Then we have Tucker." "Tucker who used me in the vilest way you can imagine." "All before my twelfth birthday." "No I learned early on if you want something done right or just plain done pay the price and do it yourself."

"Equivalent exchange is a crock of shit." "Even in basic alchemy you give a hell of a lot more than you get." "I want to fix an axe handle, to go about that I have to place the entire axe head and handle both in a circle, both head and handle is absorbed and taken into the void what you get back is a full and fixed axe, but if you look close you will find that the fully repaired axe is one fourth of an inch shorter than it should be." "While that is negligible you had more before you began." "Had you splinted the wood you would have had a quick and ineffectual fix but you would not have lost any of your axe." "I have gone off on a tangent again haven't I?"

"All right I said "This was when I began to realize I had power over him. He wanted me, not the other way around. I could use that. If I got him wound up it was always over sooner." "No I'll come back to this."

"After I turned in my watch I went for a walk and ended up at the mess hall." "Hughes brought me the files on the serial killer." "Hughes was always funneling me information on the side." "Never enough to do me much good but always enough to get me on the right track." "Some things in the file didn't make sense to me. How was he able to make all of those cuts on the women without someone noticing something?" "Women being raped and cut to pieces are not quiet about it, and what about the blood. It was true that the crime scenes were bloody but with the amount of blood I know a human body holds and the amount of cuts on the bodies of the victims I knew the killer had to be moving the bodies somehow."

"Yes I knew they were being raped." "I'm not stupid." "Not only was it in the report I did have my own up close and personal experience with good old Barry." "Anyway do you mind?" "I can handle the narration without all the questions or, not at all." "It's your choice." "You want to know how were you suspost you earn my trust with that attitude?" "Try." "All you would have had to do was try." "What does this have you do with the reason you're stuck in here?" "I'll get to that in due as well." "I told you, this is my confession." "Yes typically the damned are the ones to confess but you wanted this remember?"

" Now anyway, Hughes made some comment about alchemists that pissed me off when some random private came to tell me I had a visitor." "When I got outside the only thing there was a screw, one I would know anywhere I have enough of them in my arm." "I knew it had been Winry." "With the killer on the loose, a killer who only killed pretty young women I got scared." "Winry was a beautiful girl from a small town." "She wouldn't know to be careful." "In Rezenpool everyone knows everyone else, you can trust anyone." "That and news travels so slow I knew she wouldn't know about the killer on the loose." "I saw a puddle of water on the ground and it hit me." "I asked the privet if there had been a car stopped there before he came to find me." "My heart almost stopped beating all together when he said, "Well yeah there's always refrigerated trucks parked here when they drop off food for the mess hall." " Winry being the trusting mechanical geek she is would have gone to look at a state of the art refrigerated truck." "It would have been child's play to get her into it." "As thick as the metal is no one would have heard her scream." "The killer could have taken her anywhere he wanted too." "Lucky for both Winry and I the truck had a leak." "I followed the water trail all the way back to a butcher shop."

"When I walked in there were pigs hanging everywhere I saw a woman in the corner." "When I asked if there was anyone else there she told me there was a young girl over that way." "I was in a rush to get Winry and get out of there." "I told her to wait there I would get the girl and we would "Get the hell out of here." "The last thing I remember was pain in my head and the sound of her laughter before I was knocked out."

"I woke up to the sound of a grinder." "She well I thought it was a she was sharpening a huge ass butcher knife, and I was missing my arm and chained to a chair." "Some big mouth had told him all I had to do was clap my hands and I could transmute." "He after taking the long brown wig off informed me He was taking no chances with me and his name." " Let me introduce myself. My name is Barry and this here is my butcher shop." " I was still reeling she was a he." "That and he look a whole lot better as a she." "About that time the smug bastard swung the chains holding the meat up dragging Winry into view." "Barry started talking about how Winry liked to take thing apart and how he was going to take her apart." I should "Watch carefully, you'll get to see what makes her tick"

"I was disgusted so I asked the rather cliché question." Why are you doing this?" " I think every ass whole, and sick psycho in the world have been asked that at least once in his life."

"Why? Huh… What a strange little question that is. I suppose it's because I enjoy it." "He proceeded to tell me the first person he killed was his wife." "She was nagging him about something." " She was so easy to slice finely." "He then went off on some spill about morality and killing in war, which I ignored." "I still had the screw I had picked up earlier." "I knew I had to get loose so I started to scratch out an array on a section of chain binding me to the chair." "I had tuned him out while I concentrated on drawing my array, when I felt his knife go in my shoulder." "That got my attention." "In a hurry I might add."

"He had stopped his moral rant, and had move on to why he liked to carve females, be them sow pigs, heifers, or women." "They have a more delicate skin." "They slice so easy." " The flesh splits almost seamlessly." " But it's odd females of any species except the human are uglier that the male." " Take the red bird for example." "He is a beautiful crimson all over he glides around with grace and poise." " His female has a minimal amount of red on her." " She looks ungainly, and awkward hell think about the majesty that is the male peacock, a beautiful riot of blues, and purples, long graceful tail feathers, the birds are beautiful while the female is a drab ugly brown." "Even with loins well I haven't time to go threw the whole animal kingdom with you." "Every species but human beings the male is better looking than the female." " That's why I like to dress up as a woman." "I feel prettier." "Special." "I thought that human females were prettier was the rule till I saw you." " Such beauty." " I beat your flesh would cut seamlessly." " It is as soft as it looks." " Well my dear alchemist do you know where the softest flesh on the female human is?" "No of course not, you're what twelve?"

"During his rant he had moved back to Winry." "I was chained to my chair while he ran that damned knife up her leg and pressed it firmly against her core blade down."

"I do so enjoy splitting the flesh here." "I don't always use a knife to do the cutting." " Sometimes flesh this soft requires a more hands on approach." " Well not always my hands either if you get my drift." " I beat I know where the softest flesh on you is." "He was running his hand over Winry's bottom just like Tucker use to do to me." "That scared me more than his knife ever could." "I will take suck joy in splitting you apart, while I cut you to pieces."

"He had moving away form Winry closer to me and there was no way in hell he was going to do that to me." "I want not going to be violated by this freak, or let him hurt Winry like that." "I had had enough with that bastard Tucker." "I would kill him first."

"I activated my array and dodged to the side." "That pissed him off." "He swung down with that damned knife and destroyed the chair I had been chained to." "I rolled and grabbed the piece of pipe I had transmuted and ran." "He was still after me and I tripped." "I swung the pipe I had picked up and cut his hand." "I don't know why but that fascinated him long enough for me to get to Winry and try to free her." "I couldn't get the chain binding her wrists to come loose before he caught up to me." "When he swung I was close enough to grab my automail I jammed the socket in as fast as I could." "It hurt." "God it hurt." "I transmuted a blade." "I was going to kill him." "I wouldn't be used like that again." "I wouldn't let Winry be used like that." "Winry fell back into a hanging pig and the pulley system holding them up spun around knocking one into him he fell and I had him." "I was going to kill him." "Then Al was there." "He startled me so much I came around blade out." "No one was going to hurt me again." "Thank God Al was made of metal or I would have killed him."

"Hughes finally showed up with the calvary." "He had figured out what I had and come running." "Al bless him thought I was upset because I was about to die." "I let him think that." "How do you explain what Tucker had done and what Barry was going to do to a child?" "He didn't know." "He doesn't know what Tucker or the others did." "I wanted to keep him innocent." "I would give my innocence for his."

"He went off on a spill about the stone." "How it very well could be real." "How he didn't understand what it was like to fear for his life because he didn't have a mortal body any more." "Only state alchemists have access to information on the stone." "Because he didn't have a body he couldn't become a State Alchemist." "I wasn't really paying that much attention to him, then he said those damning words." "Sure, I want my old body back… to be human again. If we find the I can have that and we can repair what we have broken."

"With Tuckers words ringing in my head." "But your not a good boy are you look what you did to your brother" " I gave up my innocence then and there, and the world shifted focus." "I was bad I deserved what had happened to me." "I would do anything for him, he deserved better than what I had done to him." "He was innocent." "So I gave my own spill about being scared and facing death." "I let him and the rest of you believe what you wanted." "I was just a scared kid." "Winry bless her heart never said a word about what Barry had said he wanted to do to us." "I don't think she even told Aunt Pinako." "The next day I came in and told you I would follow your orders if I was allowed the freedom to search for the stone after I had run your errands." You agreed but not before enforcing my belief that adults could not be trusted by making that crack about keeping Al's secret in your back pocket "to make sure you behave." " I knew then and there I couldn't trust you."