A/N: Sorry it has been a few days since the last update. I have not been home in a while to have time to type this chapter up. It has been written for a while. Thank you to all that have reviewed and put this story on alert. This story is for the hopeless romantic- what girl does not what a man like Luke Danes? Also, if you haven't watched any of the movies mentioned in this story I highly recommend you have a movie night of your own. These are some of the best movies around in my opinion- especially Memento.
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It was a crazy day at the inn as usual- Sookie set 5 things on fire, Michel made 4 customers angry, and I was so distracted that I was no help at all. All I could think of was which movies we would watch; is it too romantic, is it romantic enough? By the time I got off work I had myself so worked up I practically ran to the video rental. I decided I'd rent three movies even though there was no possible way we could watch all three. This way Luke could pick a movie. After much deliberating I decided on Ferris Bueller's Day Off, Memento, and Benny and Joon. Memento was not my personal favorite considering I talked through every movie, but Rory liked it and it was more manly. I hoped he would choose Benny and Joon so if I felt like staring at Luke I could distract myself with Johnny Depp.
I was so busy praising myself with my solving of the movie crisis that I ran directly into Babette. Great, I'm sure Miss Patty has filled her in on all the going ons in the diner this morning.
"Oh hi sugar, what's a doll like yourself doin' with three movies? Big movie night at the Gilmores tonight? You sure didn't get home 'till late last night; I didn't see your car last night or this mornin'. And then Miss Patty said you were seen comin' down stairs into the diner this mornin' after Luke had been workin' all mornin'. Sugar, did you and Lucas finally figure out how you are destined to be together; you spendin' the whole night there and all."
"No, Luke and I are just two very good friends. He just helped me out with something last night. And then my sense of humor got the best of me with that my little comment that I'm sure Miss Patty filled you in on. As for the movies, I'm on my own this weekend so I'm trying to keep myself occupied. You have a goodnight now, Babette."
"Alright, whatever you say sugar. Bye"
I somewhat convinced, the rest of the town to go. I went home to get ready because I had to get all the candy out and figure out a good outfit. I had to find something that said 'look at how sexy I am' without looking like I tried to hard. After much deliberation I decided on a light blue tight fitting tee shirt with my favorite jeans. Wow, it's been a while since I've felt like a love-crazed teenager. Luke Danes made me feel like a teenager with that first real crush again. It was enough to make me want to melt and puke simultaneously. It was really nice to have someone make me paranoid about whether or not they liked me back. Those raw feelings have been missing since I fell out of love with Christopher. It felt so completely right to feel this way about Luke and not the slightest bit weird, which was weird itself. I mean, this should feel weird-he's Luke. But it's not, just completely right. And enough to make me sick. I guess it partially did not feel weird because these feelings were not actually new, just newly discovered. I think I've had them for quite a while subconsciously. The other reason it was not weird was because he is Luke. He is such a wonderful man that it just makes sense to fall in love with him. Not that I do love him…oh who am I kidding, I do. There is so much care in everything that man dose that I can't understand why women are not throwing themselves at him. Why wasn't I? I've always known Luke that well. And why would Rachel leave? Didn't she realize that she could go anywhere in the world, and she would never find another man quite as great as Luke Danes? Luke is the whole package. Rachel should be institutionalized because insanity is the only possible reason to leave Luke. Luke said she 'had her reasons', but he never told me what they were. Could it really have just been because Luke had a hard time adjusting to her living with him? She couldn't blame him for that. She had run off before, and Luke already had too many people on this earth leave him. Damn her for leaving him like that and causing him hurt. She must be crazy. Somehow I doubt she left because he was reluctant to believe she was there for good. And she had said to me herself how she was ready to settle down now. Sow what changed and made her leave? Luke knew and he avoided telling me. That night he came over when Max took me out he just said 'she had her reasons'; why didn't he tell me what? We share most everything. And why did he come over that night? It was not for Bert. I mentioned Bert to him after he had come. And after Max came Luke had said he was 'fixing something'. That was a lie-there was nothing broken. It couldn't have been to tell me Rachel left, that could've waited until I saw him at the diner. So why did he come? And why did Rachel leave Luke?
A know at the door brought me back from my thoughts. I ran to the door to let Luke in, but I could not get those questions out of my head. "Hey Luke, welcome to your first ever Gilmore movie night fest. Shame Rory is not here to see it."
He pushed takeout boxes towards me. " You cannot just eat junk for dinner. Here is a burger since you did not stop in the diner tonight."
My heart lurched. Wow, I never knew I could be such a little schoolgirl. I dragged Luke into the living room and made him choose a movie. Luke chose Ferris Bueller since he hadn't seen it since he was a kid. Normally I would've been thrilled. It was definitely one of the best '80s flicks. It was sheer brilliance; an entire movie about how three kids skip one day of school. And yet tonight, I couldn't even get excited. Those two questions just kept swirling in my head leaving me completely distracted. I actually made it to the restaurant scene before I grabbed the remote and stopped the movie. Luke looked at me with a puzzled expression. "Luke, why did Rachel leave?"
"Why didn't you marry Max?"
"You can't answer a question with another question."
"Lorelai, why did you break off your wedding?"
"Because it was not right. You were right. I wasn't excited about marrying Max- I was excited about the concept of a love so strong that it lasted 'until death do us part'. He didn't know where my coupon drawer is. I didn't know how he felt about having kids, or even how I felt. You only get married once and I didn't want to settle. I had no desire to try on my wedding dress every night. I just knew he wasn't my middle." He wasn't you, I thought. Wow, I didn't marry Max because I compared him to Luke. He could never be what Luke was to me. "Why do you care so much anyway Luke?"
"I was afraid you ended it because of what I said about marriage and it being impossible to evolve together. I just want you to be happy Lorelai, and I was afraid I ruined your happiness."
"Everything you said was right Luke. Max and I were not ready, mostly because we weren't soul mates. I want to marry my soul mate Luke; I don't want to settle. I want someone who just knows where my coupon drawer is."
"You don't even have a coupon drawer Lorelai."
"True. But I mean in concept. Someone who knows me that well. But did you really mean all of that stuff about marriage?"
"I watched my dad fall apart after my mom died and I promised myself I would never let myself get that close to anyone. In a way it's risking your sanity. But now, now I think that there can be someone out there that is just worth that risk, your soul mate. My mom brought so much joy to my dad's life and if two people are that in love it seems a shame to not get married and share that. As long as they don't want to change you; make you start eating French food, that type of thing. If there is enough love shared, people can evolve."
"Do you think you will ever find that girl Luke? That girl that is worth the risk of your sanity."
"I don't know, I don't want to lose someone that special to me. I've lost a lot of loved ones Lorelai."
"But if you found her, that girl that makes you so happy that she was worth that risk, you would allow yourself to fall in love with her?
"Yeah, I guess. Falling in love I find is not something you can really control. Why do you care so much anyway Lorelai?"
"Because, Luke, I want to be that girl to you."
Not the way I intended to tell Luke I loved him, but at least that's over. I tried to judge his reaction. He just looks so sincere, so much like the Luke I see everyday. Luke that one sentence did not change anything, even though it changed absolutely everything. Suddenly Luke grabbed my face and brought his mouth to my ear and whispered, "You already are." His lips moved to mine and I can't remember ever having been kissed like this before. He ran his tongue along my lip requesting entrance and I quickly granted it. His tongue danced with mine and I know I've never been kissed with this much passion, care and curiosity. I know I will never be able to get enough of this man, no one has ever made my knees go week just by kissing me. I feel him lift me up, not taking his lips off of mine except for a quick gasp of air here and there. Luke Danes, my best friend for eight years, can kiss me like this. This was right, so completely right. I am in love with diner man. And I am scared, but feel safe at the same time because I know Luke will never hurt me intentionally. I felt myself crash into the wall and our passion for each other heightened. I heard myself moan, but it may have been Luke. I'm not really sure. Coherent thoughts were becoming harder and harder to form. Thinking is overrated anyway. "Bedroom…now," I whispered in Luke's ear. I could feel him obey my request, carrying me up the stairs. His lips never left mine. I've never felt so aroused by a man carrying me to my bedroom, but Luke's muscles definitely had that effect on me. In fact, no other man has ever carried me to my bedroom. Luke laid me on the bed and I lifted my arms to allow Luke to take off my shirt. Luke was just undoing my jeans when I regained the ability to think. I couldn't do this with Luke yet. I had to be positive that this was right for both of us. We could go back to the way were if something happened after we had only kissed. But if we had sex, then things would be changed forever. I had to make sure I was prepared to be the woman Luke needed before I took that chance. Luke deserved the best. "Luke, I'm sorry, but can we wait? I just don't want this to be 'another notch on the bedpost type deal. I want us to be sure and crazy in love first. This is too important, you're too important."
"Sure, you are probably right anyway. I'm all in though, just so you know."
I smiled because I just knew I had found the man that I could spend the rest of my life with. It scared me, because it was Luke, but it made me feel safe for the exact same reason; he is Luke Danes. "Me too."
We changed into pajamas (Luke slept in his boxers), and we climbed into bed. I snuggled my head on his chest and felt his lips kiss me on the forehead. I turned on my side and he did the same and draped his arm around my side.
"Rachel, she left because of you. Because I am in love with you."
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A/N: I hope you do not think that I am moving this too fast between Luke and Lorelai. I have a couple reasons for doing this. 1. Lorelai is impatient. 2. Luke has liked Lorelai forever. 3. I need to get past the falling in love stage of Luke and Lorelai so I can start with the rest of this story. I am really itching to get to the meat of it. Thanks again for reading.
