Chapter 1
Sam went into Alex's room; he was sitting on his bed playing on his game boy. She stood watching him for a few minutes, she could do this, she could talk to him without crying.
"Mom, are you ok?" Her son's voice shook her out of her thoughts. She went over to his bed and sat down beside him.
"We need to talk." Sam said, unsure of the best way to go about this.
"What's wrong?"
"How would you feel if we moved?"
"Mom, no! I really like it here in Chicago; I want to stay, please!" Alex pleaded with his mother.
Sam reached out and put an arm around her son feeling guilty for having moved him around so much.
"We're not leaving Chicago," she said, "I just meant how would you feel if we moved out of Luka's and found our own place?"
"Are you and Luka breaking up?"
Sam just smiled; Alex never was one to beat around the bush.
"I don't know." She was trying her best to keep the tears back. "We're having some problems at the moment and I think we each need some space."
"Do you still love him?"
Sam could only nod as the tears starting running down her face. Alex was shocked, he had never seen his Mom cry in front of him before, she always did it when he wasn't around. As much as his mother may annoy him at times, he did love her and he hated to see her upset. He threw his arms around her. Sam was shocked at this sudden show of affection from her son, but she was grateful for it.
Alex hated Luka then, he hated him for making his Mom upset, for making her cry. First the incident with his Dad and now this. He felt helpless, he wanted to help his Mom, tell her everything would be ok, but he couldn't. All he could do was hug her.
"Mom, I don't mind if we move out. It's ok with me."
Sam drew back from the hug and looked at Alex. He really was a great kid, she was blessed with him, and she couldn't imagine life without him.
"Good. Don't say anything to Luka about this ok? I haven't told him yet."
"Ok Mom!"
"Thanks!" She kissed Alex on the forehead and he made a face at her and then smiled innocently at her. Sam laughed and got off the bed.
"Well I will have to go and do some laundry, we all know how much fun that is!"
"I love you!" Alex said.
"I love you too!" Sam replied and she walked out of the room. She to the kitchen and found a note on the table from Luka.
I went out to get some milk as we're all out.
I shouldn't be long, I'll see you later.
Love Luka
She shook her head and threw the note in the bin. Had things gotten really gotten so bad that he couldn't even tell her that he had to go out, he had to write down? She was only in Alex's room, surely he could have just went up and told her. She wiped away another tear that was falling down her cheek. Did she really think that Luka would want to spend the rest of his life with her? She was way too screwed up to ever be so lucky as to fall in love and have it last.
Luka walked out of the store with the bottle of milk in a bag under his arm. He had followed Sam up to Alex's room and had overheard their conversation. He heard Alex ask if they were breaking up and he had seen Sam, his Sam crying. He had to leave then. He couldn't face the fact that he was the one who caused her pain. At the same time, he didn't want to talk about his past. He just had to show Sam that he loved her, really loved her! He was thinking this as he passed a baby shop. He stood and looked in the window at all the baby clothes and happy couples. He'd never have that again, never again be a father, never again feel that swell of pride as he watched his child grow up. He sighed and shook his head and walked on. He had to think about what was more important, Sam and Alex. He continued walking down the road until he came to a jewellery shop. He paused briefly, was he sure he was about to do the right thing? Sure, he wanted to show Sam just how much he loved her, but was he ready for this? He took a deep breath and walked into the store.