Watashitachi no sora
Disclaimer : Well , I don't own Peacemaker Kurogane
Chapter 1 : Sono Toki
She will never understand , how live seem to flow steadily like the river . And now , after a very long time she was a 15 years old girl . And it show him , how the time has took all of her innocence she had when she still a child that was as pure as the snow , and replace it with a blood stained hand . She know , this is the path she choose to become a member of Shinsengumi , where she has to be a devil in order to accomplished her mission . If only she still alive , her mother will see him with a sad face if she know , her child choose the same path with her dear husband .
"I don't think you change a lot . " he said with a stern voice
"I don't think so , I guess time just taken away all that I have . My mother , my innocence , and then my own self . And all it give me just a blood stained hands and the devil inside me ." I said looking at my hands
Yes it doesn't really stained by blood right now , but almost in every mission I have to killed in order to accomplish it . In the end when I took out my sword what I gain is the blood that splattered around my body , just looked like I was the one who were bleeding .
"You're a fool , you know . You still the one whom I know from my childhood memories . You still had that innocence smile of yours , and that eyes who gaze in happiness . " he said again
"Souji , be real ! Everybody who entered the Shinsengumi always had to pay their price , killing people and becoming devil . How can you say , I'm still as innocence as before . Don't you see , I was stained by blood and I sold myself in order to grow up the devil in myself ! How can you say like that ! " I said feeling the tears falling down from my eyes .
My heart ached a lot , I don't want to do this , can somebody lift up my burden ? Sometimes I feel it's better to end all of my sadness by putting my sword in my own heart , letting it tear my heart apart so somehow I can meet with my mother even I know for a murderer like me hell is the only place suited for me .
"Sakura , hear me ! You're not alone ! You can share all your pain with me , and believe me I will be there . " Souji said as he held me tightly , never letting me fall down again , fall down again in the same mistake he makes , and the same mistakes Too-san did .
I know he would never let me fall . But he will held me so I won't fall in that puddle of blood . And that time I believe he already lift up my burden by being the place where I can cry freely .
"Souji , I sorry I was messing your kimono . " I said , my voice muffled in his chest
"That's okay , as long as you can feel lighter . " he said stroking my hair .
And now here I am , standing as I looked my own reflection on the mirror . As a 16 years old girl , not the 15 years old Sakura again . And when I smiled at my reflection , I realize that it was still the same smile like before , the smile that show how I still that innocence little girl . So that's how I know , I was still the same like the old me .
A/n How ? how ? Did you like it , Okay maybe this chapter was contain angst inside . This is another part of the Hold On , because I guess the fic before makes everyone a little bit dizzy because it's shortness , so I write another one that still had the connection with it but with a different stories . Now please leave a review !