Watashitachi no Sora
Disclaimer : See chapter 1
Chapter 3 : Reminiscence
Sometimes , I really hoped I was born on a normal family , with a normal mom , a normal dad , and a normal life . Since I joined Shinsengumi , the only thing that I think every morning is just about how many people I will kill tonight ? How many blood that will stained my hands . I can't thought like a normal girl should do ! I can't had my time thinking about the school , a famous actor , or maybe a guy that we liked .
But , lived as a killer is different from that …….All of my days were took away to trained my sword and then used it too killed people . For Justice , and bring the peace back … everyone said like that , but for me it just a fake statement . I thought the reason for me to killed is just because my job , I killed without a real shaped reason … Sometimes , my heart screamed because of that , but still , kill before we get killed is the only law that exist in my world ….in this dark world …
"A mission tonight ?" I asked
"Yes , it was a small mission I think your troop can do it alone ." Kondou-san told me
"I understand . " I replied
Another day , another mission , and another blood shed . That's the only way I lived , I never knew another way to live beside that . I really hoped that Oba-san still alive , if she was here with me right now ……she wouldn't let me do this kind of life . She wouldn't let me entered the shinsengumi after I received a mail from Too-san .
I know , I can't blame my past . After all , this is the decision I made myself . And now all that I can do is trying to do my best . So there wouldn't be any regrets in my heart .
"You can always rejected a mission if you didn't want to do it . " he said
"I couldn't Sou-chan , even if I want to ……If I rejected it , it always feel like I have lying to my own decision ." I replied as my hand still petting the brown furred puppy
"But promise me something . Don't ever pushed yourself to hard ! " he said again
"Then it's a promise . " I smiled as I lifted my little finger
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