Well, well friends I have good news. I still have the internet connected indefinitely so I can still post more Tjness into my lovely fic ☺. Sorry this chapter is a bit long, I had to add in a lot of things into one day, (If you haven't already noticed my chapters are named by days of the week.) So I hope you enjoy this chapter, don't dismay it will be cheerful soon. I promise! ☺.

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Disclaimer: For the one hundredth billionth time…no just kidding, I don't any of the characters except the exceptionally bright Lillie and the psychotic Paul.

Thursday: Blue

I sat in my room for hours, ignoring Chris' pleas for me to come out and talk, I sat there until it was dark and all the time I kept thinking that maybe Alex was right, maybe Tess wasn't worth all this. Maybe I should just forget she ever existed and get on with my life.

No he's wrong; it's too hard to forget her.

No one knew what to think about Tess anymore, we all used to think of her as the level headed tough cop that wouldn't let anyone stand in her way but she wasn't like that anymore. Sometimes she wouldn't even turn up for work and when she did she'd fall asleep in the mess room and she'd have to go home again.

Ever since she's arrived no one's really liked her, we've all tried.

I woke up the sun glaring into my eyes. I walked down the hall into the bathroom, looking at myself in the mirror, still dressed in yesterday's clothes I looked awful, the bags still under my eyes. I hadn't slept for ages. I changed and walked down stairs into the bar but I skipped breakfast, I hadn't really eaten properly in ages but eating wouldn't do any good. Walking past the bar I knew I couldn't possibly see Tess but I had to, I wouldn't talk to her if Suse wouldn't let me but I just wanted to know if she was okay.

I walked down the hall into the ward where she lay and looked at Tessy's door. Something was wrong, Susie wasn't there, she wasn't keeping guard, peering through the window I realised neither was Tess.

"Morning, Mr. Jones." Tess' nurse smiled, I turned around once I heard her voice.

"Where is she?" I asked my voice panic-stricken.

"Tess?" The nurse asked raised her eyebrows, the light bounced off her golden blonde hair. She never seemed to lose that positive glow about her.

"Where is she?" I repeated. I lump formed in my throat, I couldn't lose her, not now. The nurse noticed my edginess.

"Calm down Mr. Jones" the nurse pat my shoulder with her hand, comforting me. "Detective Hasham and another officer came in to collect her for her interview." said the nurse. I sighed with relief.

"When will she be back?" I asked still saddened by the fact that I wouldn't be able to see her if she did.

"She won't, she been officially discharged." the nurse smiled

"Pardon?" I asked shocked "...I thought she was meant to be in here for weeks!"

"Yes, but she's been making terrific progress and well...I don't think I should be telling you this but Detective Hasham said something about some case making progress..." said the nurse her hands clutching a packet of tablets. My eyes widened, he was out to get her. I felt my heart race.

"Ahh...look thanks I have to go" I turned and started making my way towards the exit.

"Wait! Mr Jones?" the nurse called running up to me she stopped me before I left the ward. I felt a tinge of concern in her voice. "There's something I need to talk to you about."

I punched in the numbers into the phone and held the receiver with anticipation. I hadn't talked to Tess in ages, not since she left Mt. Thomas and I wanted to know how she was going, being a mum is tough.

"Hello?" A woman's voice answered the phone but it wasn't Tess.

"Oh hey Denise umm...it's Evan" I answered nervously into the phone waiting for her reply.

"Hey Evan, you must want to speak to Tess." her reply almost automatic.

"Yeah, can I...?" I asked

"Umm, well she isn't home at the moment but I'll tell her you called..." Denise answered hesitantly. I could tell when Tess' mum was lying.

"Nah, don't worry about it." I sighed knowing Tess wouldn't bother calling back.

"Just tell her that if she ever needs a friend, I'm here."

"Okay" responded Denise

"Bye"

Sitting in the ward's sunroom with a cup of really awful coffee in my hand I looked at the nurse who now had the packet of tablets sitting on her lap. I glanced around the room at its pale white walls and the sicking sort of numbness they gave out.

"Mr. Jones..." she started her voice suddenly sounded very serious.

"Call me Evan" I said trying to ease the tension in the awfully quiet and miserable room.

"Okay..." she said, "Evan, do you know that Tess has major depression?" the nurse asked uneasily, bothered by that question just about as much as me.

"Yeah..." I sighed, feeling cold beads of sweat forming on my palms. I hated admitting that the head strong cop I knew and loved was so hurt.

"How did you...?" I began before the nurse cut me off knowing my question back to front.

"Over sleeping, significant weight loss, loss of energy, feelings of worthlessness, impaired thinking or concentration, suicidal thoughts...they're all signs of major depression" said the nurse looking at me. The word suicidal hurt the most.

"She's been slashing her wrists..." I said nervously looking down at my knees.

"I know, that's why you have to convince her to take these..." the nurse handed me the packet of tablets labelled Aurorix in thick black letters across the box. "...this is Moclobemide a monoamine oxidase inhibitor..." the nurse explained quite bluntly, she'd obviously done this a million times."...Tess' brain breaks down a special chemical in her brain that controls the transfer of signals to other nerve cells, this stops the break down of that chemical." the nurse pointed out, holding up the packet of tablets. She tilted her head she knew I was confused "Basically, these tablets keep that chemical available in the brain so Tess can function normally."

"Okay, but why are you giving these to me?" I asked staring down at the ominous tablets in front of me.

"Well Tess was meant to take these but she left them behind. She hasn't been taking them for years...it's a miracle she hasn't killed herself yet...that's why I need you to make she takes these" The nurse looked directly at me making sure I was taking it all in.

"One 50mg tablet, once a day after meals and steer clear from cough syrup while she's on this." the nurse informed.

"Yeah, I understand but what makes you think she'll listen to me?" I questioned her confidence in me. "Tess would rather throw me off a cliff!" I exclaimed.

"You're a very important person in her life." he nurse smiled.

"She doesn't think so..." I sighed "...she doesn't love me..." I looked up at the nurse hopelessly looking for some kind of reassurance.

"No, I think she does." the nurse smiled "She might seem like she doesn't want you around but she does, she needs you, make sure she knows that you love her." she nurse pat my shoulder and I smiled to myself. I went to get up but the nurse stopped me.

"Evan," she said "You watch her like a hawk...if she starts acting weird like...she starts to give away her possessions, talks about killing herself, or even has odd sleeping and eating patterns you get her down here as fast as possible, Okay?" I was surprised to see that the nurse was just as scared as I was.

"Will do" I said taking the tablets with me.

Walking outside the hospital my phone started to ring. PJ flashed up onto its screen.

"Hey PJ." I answered whilst walking to my Ute.

"Jones, we need you at the station immediately, there's been an update on the case." PJ spoke frantically into his office phone.

"Yeah, alright." I reached my Ute and drove straight to the station.

"Tess?" She didn't turn around when I called her name. "Tess maybe it'd be better if you talk about it..." I suggested but Tess just brushed past me to make herself a coffee in the mess room.

"There's nothing to talk about Evan." she spat not taking her eyes off of her coffee.

"You've just lost your baby Tess, you call that nothing?" I asked angry that Tess didn't seem interested in anything I had to say. Tears welled up in Tess' eyes but she was quick to wipe them away.

"Just leave me alone, let me deal with this my own way!" she muttered leaving the mess room with her coffee.

I walked into the station, everybody stared.

"Hey Jonesy!" Peroni piped up. I waved as he smiled back.

"My office thanks Jones" the Boss called from his office, the door ajar. I walked into the room where he and PJ stood. I sat down on the chair opposite the Boss' hoping they'd only have good news.

"We have good and bad news Jonesy…" PJ began. "…the good news is that we've interviewed Tess and she backs up your story." PJ smiled.

"So you know who did it?" I asked in hope that this would all be over.

"No, and that's where we come to the bad news..." The Boss was cut off by Amy's knocking at the door.

"Ah...sorry for interrupting Boss but that fax has come from St. David's..." Amy handed the Boss the fax. "They've sighted Paul Gorge and he's heading this way." The Boss scanned the fax while Amy stood at the door.

"Alright, we've no time to lose...Amy you take Raynor and scan the area, get Kirby to take Joss with him to do the same, stop any blue falcon that enters Mt. Thomas, we want this guy." ordered the Boss, I sat their dumbfounded, oblivious to what was going on. The Boss stepped outside his office to make an announcement.

"Gorge is on the move we need somebody to take care of Tess..." The Boss announced. The room fell silent, even the phones stopped ringing. Everybody looked at each other nobody wanting to do the task.

"Anyone?" the Boss asked annoyed at the officers' childishness. "Kirby!" the Boss pointed to a stunned Alex.

"But...Boss those traffic reports need to be in by tomorrow." Alex tried to squirm his way out of the task.

"I'll do it" I piped up, still sitting in the Boss' office.

"Jones!" the Boss pleaded knowing that I shouldn't be involved with the case but PJ shot him a look. "Yeah alright Jones." the Boss replied and walked back into his office. Everybody silently breathed a sigh of relief, knowing that they didn't have to put up with an icy Tess.

The Boss shut the door and resumed his normal sitting position opposite me.

"Jones, Paul Gorge is after Tess, her life is in danger." warned the Boss the worry shining through his eyes. "You take her home Jones and make sure you don't let her out of your sight. If you're going to go anywhere stick to crowded places. You know the drill..." informed the worried Boss.

"Yes Boss" I answered, inside I was jumping for joy, at least this way I could spend some time with Tess, even if she hated me.

"Losing a child is hard" said Chris while she placed the lunches on the pub bench. "Go easy on her, she'll open up eventually." suggested Chris.

"Yeah, the thing is, I don't think she will..." I sighed "She hasn't been talking to me or anybody lately."

"Maybe she's depressed..." suggested Chris who now leant against the box of lunches.

"Depressed!" I questioned shocked at the thought. Tessy couldn't possibly be depressed. She's too strong for that.

"It would explain the odd behaviour." Chris pointed out. "I had an aunt who was depressed; everybody thought she was just moody until she threw herself off a bridge."

"You gonna talk to me?" I asked Tess whose nose was pressed against the window of my Ute. She looked up at me for a brief second then pressed her nose against the window again, her eyes looking out onto the shops we passed by.

"Just drive Senior." muttered Tess still looking out the window.

"I'll take that as a no." I answered my hands gripping the steering wheel. Tess turned to face me her bright blue beanie covering her head.

"You going to stay long?" she asked propping her head up against her hand.

"As long as it takes, so you're stuck with me." I smiled to Tess; she undid her seatbelt as I drove up the driveway.

"Great!" she muttered unenthusiastically to herself as she tried to get out of the Ute. I ran over to the other side to help her out but she wouldn't let me.

"I can get out myself you know." she said as she pushed my hand away then lost her footing and fell to the ground.

"Now will you let me help you?" I smiled giving Tess a hand getting up.

Tess held onto my shoulder for support as we walked to the front door of Tessy's house.

"So who made you do it?" Tess asked as she fiddled with the key in the lock.

"Do what?" I asked puzzled waiting for Tess to finally open the door.

"Volunteer to baby sit me..." Tess asked turning the door handle when she heard the key click.

"Well no one else was up for the job, so I put my hand up." I said carrying in Tessy's bag while she headed to the kitchen.

"Oh, right. Is that how much they hate me?" Tess asked her voice sounding sad.

"I don't hate you." I said back

"You're not like them." said Tess her voice dulling to a whisper.

"So that's our new sarge." eyed Susie flicking through the paper work that still needed to be done.

"Yep" I looked over at Tess who was meticulously arranging everything on her desk. Some things never change.

"She good?" asked Susie looking at me.

"The best." I muttered still concentrating on my paper work not wanting to talk to Susie.

"Is she available?" asked a besotted Peroni. Susie and Alex laughed.

"Isn't she a bit out of your league?" Alex smiled to an unamused Joss.

It was dark at 7.00 and Tess and I were hardly talking to each other. I felt the packet of anti depressants protruding from my pocket. I'd forgotten about those. Thinking Tess would maybe wanna try them I walked over to where she huddled up against the pillows on the couch. I stroked her cheek before she opened her eyes and looked at me. Half asleep she managed to sit up.

"Hey, you tired?" I asked and Tess gave me the "don't state the obvious" look. I sat down at her feet covering them with her blanket. She hugged her legs to her chest and rested her head on her knees.

"The nurse said you haven't been taking these for awhile" I said taking out the thick box full of round tablets. Tessy's eyes widened and she shuffled down the couch to its corner.

"Don't you start! The pharmacist's already had a go at me!" Tess warned while silently tears fell down her cheeks.

"But they're for your own good!" I said shuffling close to her to wipe away the tears from her cheeks. She hid her head in her hands.

"You can't make me take them." she said her voice muffled by her hands.

"No I can't but I want you to...it'll make you feel better." I reasoned but Tess was always too stubborn.

"What If I don't want to feel better?" Tess pulled up her sleeve wiping away the tears that wouldn't stop flowing.

"Tessy..." I went to hug her but she got up before I could.

"Just leave me alone Evan, please" Tess begged pulling her blanket along with her to her bedroom. I was left there to channel surf through the monotonous TV channels before I turned off the TV completely. My stomach grumbled and the dull aching feeling in my stomach got worse. I went to find something to eat.

The fridge was completely bare apart from a couple of cans of tuna that had passed their used by date. What was Tess eating? Had she become an anorexic too? Finding nothing in the fridge I tried to make myself comfortable on Tess' polo blue couch, I couldn't get to sleep though this whole depression thing was worrying me. I decided to check up on Tessy.

Tessy looked so beautiful when she slept, her blue beanie covering her army like haircut she had to have whilst under the knife. I looked over at her ensuite. Maybe she had something I could disguise the pills with? It was a pretty low idea but I had to think of something.

I walked over to the ensuite pushing the door open quietly so not to wake Tess and walked over to the medicine cabinet she had over the sink. I opened it up finding nothing interesting inside except a couple of packets of antidepressants she hadn't bothered to open. Pushing my way through to the back of the cabinet I stumbled across a brown dull looking box that I didn't think of opening at first but my curiosity got the better of me. I opened the box thinking I'd find something typical that you'd normally find in a woman's medical cabinet but it was much more than that. I'd found her stash, the razor blades she used to slash her wrist with when she felt useless. Looking down at the sink I noticed a pool of Tessy's blood and her blood smeared across the tap. I felt sick with worry. Hiding the box of blades in my pocket I went to Tessy's bedside lifting off the covers to see her wrists. The cuffs of her top were stained an awful red colour and her fingers soaked in her own blood. I felt disgusted, Tess felt like crap and I couldn't stop it.

I carefully bandaged her wrists making sure that I wouldn't wake her, tucking her back into bed I kissed her forehead and wiped away the last of her tears.

"Sweet dreams Tess, I love you." I said before I closed her bedroom door.