Even if this fic is not ment to be updated, HERE IS IT! AND IT KICKS ASS!
hehe I have a surprise for all my fic readers in this chapie! I really hope you like it! ;)
I looked at the bird then back at Kurama. With a slight, and unnoticeable sigh I told him to never mind. The blue cardinal was sitting right there, on the chair. How could he not see it? But it was better for me just to keep it to myself until I learn more out about it.
Someone might accuse me of seeing things, which I don't. I don't see things that don't exist.
Kurama stared at me for a moment then smiled slightly.
Damn fox, a person would think that Youko Kurama of all the damn demons could be able to see this bird… unless I really was loosing my mind.
I would have jumped out the window right then if it hadn't be pouring rain. As much as I love conflicts, I don't like conflicts with my friend. (!) Kuramas the only one I have that really understands me… or tires to. Yusuke… hes just Yusuke and I'd kill Kuwabara before I consider him my friend.
I much rather just walk out or away before having to explain myself or being proven wrong. (!)
The bird fluttered its wings and started to fix them, putting them all back in their proper place. I watched it, just like I have done so many times before.
"Are you hungry?"
A person could get lost in that blue color. Its so beautiful. I would reach out and try to touch it again, but I was afraid I would throw it off track with the rhythm it was using to fix its feathers. One after another, back in place, making it even more breath taking.
Kurama reached out and touched my shoulder making me jump at the unexpected gesture. "Hiei are you allright?" I looked at him, his green eyes trying to read what I was thinking. I was allright, better than allright.
"Yes." I assured him. Lighting emulated the room, making everything very bright in one flash. And a loud crash of thunder soon followed. My gaze left his and came back to the chair.
The bird was gone.
"Hiei? Are you sure your allright?" Kurama had a look on his face of concernment. (note: if concernment is NOT a word… let me know, I think it is though… anything can be a word now a days… like fudgearoo!)
I wonder if the bird left because of me… Did I do something I was not supposed to? Did I scare it? The window is closed… Where did it go?
"Hiei?" How many times can that fox say my name is one day? (Ya know… I want someone to answer that question for me… how many times do you think Kurama could say Hieis name in one day? Any possible scenario you want. ;)
I looked over at him again, he is still trying to figure me out. "Yes Kurama, I'm fine." And how many times do I have to reassure him?
"So are you hungry?"
Oh yeah, I had forgotten about food. My mind has been on the bird constantly and eating never seemed that important.
I don't know if it was because I never noticed it before or because I just starting thinking about eating but my stomach growled… loudly.
Kurama gave a slight laugh and made a motion to for me to follow him with his hand. With one fast glace back at the chair I let Kurama lead the way into the kitchen.
I stat down at one of the chairs and watch Kurama open the fridge, pull out a container, heat the food, put it on the table, and get drinks for the two of us. He told me he would be right back as he opened a door and went into another room.
I placed my hand on my stomach and felt it rumble. When was the last time I ate? Usually I would just start eating, but this time I tried hard now to. To wait for Kurama to get back just seemed like the thing to do.
A minuet later he came back with a dusky bottle. He held it up and smirked at me. "Wine, 1972." (Oh yeah, great year. Next year though it'll be 1973 that needs opening! Don't ask…)
The glassed he already had set on the table, he opened the bottle and it fizzed. Pouring both our glasses 3/4ths of the way full he set the bottle down and made our plates. "Enjoy."
We ate. (I really do hate eating scenes… wine and dessert are fun, I love those, but ew.. Food? Lately I don't like eating, I don't like people eating around me, and I can't stand people without manners at the table. I'm very old fashioned when it comes to dinner and meals. Give me a break… I don't like to watch people eat food, most of the time its just plain icky…)
When the meal was finished he asked if I wanted some more wine, so I brought my glass up as a sign saying yes. He poured some more for me and for himself.
I sat back in my chair and twirled the wine in my glass. Stopping it, then taking a sip, and starting the twirling again. I looked up at Kurama who was staring at me, watching me. I took another sip and he turned his gaze away.
Thunder made a quick boom, slightly shaking the house and making me jump. I quickly blinked and saw it.
The blue bird was right in front of me, looking up at me, standing on the table. "Ah!" I pushed back my chair, making it fall back onto the ground along with my wine glass, and quickly stood. "Where the hell did you get from?" I yelled at the bird but it just stared at me.
Kurama looked up at me. He was still sitting and holding his wine glass. He put the glass down and stood up. He checked the wine bottle, almost to see if something was in it, and then sniffled it. "I know storms scare you Hiei,"
"Storms don't scare me!" I snapped at him while cutting off his sentence.
"But you don't have to jump like that. Maybe you had to much wine, I always thought you had a better tolerance then that."
"I'm not seeing thing Kurama, if thats what your implying! I'm fine got it? Just fine!" I glared at him then looked at the bird on the table. It was staring at me, looking at me. I want to turn my eyes from its gaze, I want to look away.
Before when I looked at it made me happy, and made me feel content. Now I feel trapped, like I'm tied and there is no hope. Like I can't control my thoughts and actions… I have to get out, I have to leave. Let me leave!
It keeps looking at me. "Stop looking at me." I tell it. No, I demand it. "Stop looking at me!"
Kurama is slowly walking toward me. "Hiei, there is nothing there. Nothing is looking at you." His voice sounds like he cares, like he is concerned again.
Nothing exists but you and I.
My ears block out his words. My eyes block out my surroundings till the only thing I see is the bird. Soon the bird turns to light, a blue light.
The light becomes dim, and more dim, till its just darkness around me.
Everything is gone now.
The table, the broke wine glass, Kurama, all gone. I only see black.
I hear thunder and a bright light flashing at the same time. I feel water falling from above, I feel wind on my face… and then a light appears in front of my face, it forms the familiar shape of the bird.
The blue bird I now see again. Its here, and I feel content like I used to. It looks at me and I look back, its eyes are filled with a sad emotion like its done something wrong and is so very sorry for it. I notice that its feathers and beak has spots of red on it.
No one but you Hiei. Your special.
Its gaze moves from my face to my hands… they feel warm and almost wet. One of them holds my sword now… how did that get there?
My surroundings come back to me. I'm in Kuramas house again, and everything is the ways it was before everything got dark.
The bird on the table, the broke wine glass, Kurama… "Kurama!"
Kuramas body is laying on the floor. I run over to him, dropping my sword. His body is cold as I hold it against mine. "Kurama wake up!" I shake him, hoping everything will be fine. "Kurama! You damn fox! Wake up damn it!" I hold him closer, his head under my neck and his chest against mine.
I hold him till my chest feels something warm and wet, like my hands did before. I pull him away from me and notice his shirt and mine are now red. (if its possible for black to be red, well.. An odd color or black then)
"Blood?" I gently set down his body back on the floor. Finally giving up on him waking up. I stand and look at him then at myself. Blood is everywhere.
Its on his chest and neck, on my hands and shirt, and on my… sword?
I fall to my knees realizing what I must have done. "I'm so sorry Kurama! So fucking sorry!" I punch the floor, making my hand hurt. "How could I?"
The blue bird flew over to me and landed on my shoulder. It nuzzled its beak against my cheek, as if to comfort me. What good will that do? Comfort. Kurama is dead damn it and its all my fault! I kill my friend, my best friend.
I'll be your friend.
I take a deep breath and stand, the bird staying on my shoulder. "What do I do now?"
SURPRISE! MUAHAHAH! KURAMA is dead! hahahahaha... I always wanted to kill him and now I did!
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