This one, I will admit, seems a little dragged out and repitious, but its ment to be that way, so just bare with me and read and review.

I'm really sorry for not updating everyone, I've been so busy with everything.

I have to get out of here.

Kurama, my best friend, I killed him. I finally got a friend after all these years of loneliness, after being the person no one wanted, after putting my trust in him, and I end up killing him, I did kill him, right?

I don't remember really doing it, but his blood was on my sword… and me.

The Blue Cardinal was perched on my shoulder. I took one last glimpse at the cold body lying at my feet, and then dashed out the door into the cold rain. The bird flew by my side for as long as I ran.

Nothing exists but you and I.

This guilt was haunting me. I wanted to tear myself apart limb from limb. I wanted to see Kurama again… alive. I wanted to hear him talk to me; ask what was wrong with me, though I never did tell him. I should I told him, everything.

I feel alone.

Stilling running, forever running, I'm running. I stop my running, not even knowing where I was, and not caring either. I just had to get away, I had to run.

I ran away.

I don't know what to do, Kurama is dead.

If I told Yusuke or Botan, or even Keonma, I might be exiled, or put to death… but Kurama is dead so what did it matter if I died?

No one but you Hiei. Your special.

I could go back to the way I was. Cold, heartless, ruthless, and a killer.

A killer… I am a killer.

I could feel my knees begin to buckle from the strain I was putting on my body. Not so much physical, but mental. I couldn't stop thinking about Kurama, I killed him! I really killed him. Why was this so much a big deal to me?

He was my friend.

I'll be your friend.

The bird was still with me. "You're the only thing I have now." It flew over to my shoulder and nudged my cheek as it had done before. It was comforting to know that something out there was still there for me, even if it was a bird.

I felt so much better knowing that the dark blue of its feathers where such a calming color, and that it could keep up with my running. And most of all, that it seemed to try and comfort me.

I looked around where I was and realized that I had ran in circles… must have been in the confusion I was in. I was now in the town where Yusuke lived; actually, I was right by his house.

I stood on top of the roof of a near by building as I looked down at Yusukes house. Would he be devastated if I told him what happened? Would he still accept me? Or would he think I should be punished for my actions?

To my dismay, Yusuke walked out of his house, slowly closing the door behind him. He tiptoed down the path and to the sidewalk. Turning in the direction of Kuramas house… he can't go there.

When the blue cardinal saw Yusuke, it flew away, leaving myself with a feeling of pure emptiness.

I jumped down from where I was and landed near Yusuke. "Geesh Hiei, you just fall from the sky don't cha? I don't think I've ever seen you out in the rain before…"

I looked at him. My face showing no expression, no weakness, no guiltiness. I had to know, to find out, "Where are you going?" I asked.

He started walked in the same direction again, turning back once to see if I was following him, I was. "To Kuramas house."

I stopped walking.

Yusuke was going to Kuramas house, he can't do that. He can't see what I did, he can't see Kuramas blood… what do I do?

Get rid of him.

Kill him to stop him from seeing what I have done? No. I don't have to kill him, but he will find out eventually…

I tried to shake the thoughts from my head. Yusuke might not have been such a great friend as Kurama but he did fight with me, and support me.

I will not kill Yusuke.

I will just lead him away.

Yusuke stopped and looked back at me. "Whats wrong Hiei?" His voice broke me from my thoughts, jerking me back to reality.

I had to think of something. I'm not the type of person to talk much but I couldn't let him get to Kurama. "Keonma wanted me to pass on a message, a new mission for us."

Kurama would go on the mission with us…

"Yeah? Well make toddler brat wait, I have to go see Kurama."

"No!" My sudden rising of the voice seemed to shock him, that was not something I would ever do "…He said it was urgent."

Yusuke scuffed at the ground. "I snuck out and everything…" He sighed, giving in. "Allright, so whats this all about?"

I had to think fast again… "We are… meeting."

"Where?"

"Come with me, I'll show you the way." I lead him in the opposite direction of Kuramas house. I had to get him away from here. I had to get away from my guilt… from my wrong deed…

After several minuets of walking Yusuke spoke up, "So where are we heading?"

Think… think… your smart, figure something out.

"An ally."

"Ally?"

"Yes."

"Why?"

"Don't know."

"….Great."

It was all I could think of…

Soon we reached a part of town with many alleyways all around. I turned into the next one I saw and walked till I reached the end of it.

There were boxes, perhaps filled with a rat family, and garbage cans along the far wall. It was dark, but our eyes adjusted.

I looked up at the sky; rain drops falling, and making me blink every second. In the sky I saw a bird flying… its here.

The blue cardinal soared in the sky, in a circular motion like a vulture. Then he swooped down and gracefully landed atop the nearest garbage can.

"So where is everyone?"

My gaze was set on the bird. Before it was calming, now it made me feel spellbound. Yes, I felt like I was being put under a spell. Its eyes… I can't tear myself from those eyes…

"Hiei?" Yusuke took a step closer to me.

"Stop looking at me." I told the bird what to do, but it didn't listen…

"Why?" Asked Yusuke, thinking I was talking to him. "And why are you looking at the garbage can?"

His words sounded like buzzes in my ears, everything was being blocked out again, just like it was before when I-

No!

Stop it!

No one exists but you and I.

My eyes never once moved from the bird, soon the only thing I saw was the Blue Cardinal. The ally, the boxes, the garbage cans, and Yusuke had all been blocked out. Everything around me was black, everything but the bird.

Soon the bird became a shinning blue light and eventually faded.

No! No! Don't go! This is what happened before! I don't want to… kill.

So? Will Hiei end up killing again? Tell me what you think is going to happen and then what you want to happen... your review might just have an imput in the last and final chapter! .

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