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Sweet Lullaby
Chapter Two
-I'll be here -
'I'll be here waiting, until you come to me. '
She always found him there, sitting at the rooftop. Through a small creak in the door, she would watch him stare at the view that lay in front of him. Soon, his gaunt figure would shake violently. He would gather his two legs and bury his head in them, letting out muffled cries of pain.
It terrified her to see him in this state of pure anguish. Never in her mind would she picture him like this. He was not the type of person that would cry. He was the type that would smile and make nauseating jokes that always annoyed her. It wrecked Raven apart to see Beast Boy in this condition.
Ever since Terra left, he pulled himself apart from everyone. Beast Boy built a wall around himself; he wouldn't let anyone get near him anymore. He was scared of getting hurt again; he was afraid of feeling the pain.
Raven didn't want Beast Boy to do this to himself. He shouldn't be living in his own world of darkness like she did.
Raven parted herself from everyone to not hurt the people she loved; she wasn't meant to feel anything because that would only lead them to their own destruction. She didn't want to risk their lives for her emotions.
However, Beast Boy deserved to be happy. Unlike her, he had the right to enjoy the pleasures of life.
Raven was tired of watching him cry almost every day. She had to do something. He needed someone to offer him comfort; he needed a shoulder to cry on. Beast Boy needed a friend, and Raven was willing enough to help him through his suffering.
Slowly, she opened the door and stepped out into the freezing cold. She slightly shivered and saw him furiously wipe his tears with his hands. Raven approached him cautiously and sat beside him.
"Hey Raven. What are you doing here?" Beast Boy murmured softly not even glancing at the girl next to him.
"I came to see if you were fine." She spoke to him calmly.
"Yes, I'm fine. I've never been better." He responded sarcastically.
"You're lying Beast Boy." Raven watched him out of the corner of her eye. She saw him close his eyes in frustration.
"Then why do you ask!" Beast Boy snapped at Raven. "Why do you ask if you already know the condition I'm in?"
"Beast Boy I-"
"Just leave, Raven." He replied bitterly.
He had never spoken to her in this way. Usually, it was Raven that behaved in this manner toward Beast Boy. It surprised her to have him speak in such a cold way.
She felt hurt by his behavior towards her.
'Now you know how Beast Boy feels when you treat him this way.'
She turned to see him and realized that the voice was right. When something was wrong with her, Beast Boy would try to help her. He tried anything to make her smile and laugh, but she always ignored him. Raven would snap at him, and tell him to leave her alone. She treated him badly.
'You have to help him. He needs you now more than ever.'
"Beast Boy, you can't do this." She whispered, "You can't keep everything to yourself."
He turned towards her, and Raven noticed that the spark his emerald eyes usually gave off was gone. "Why?" He said coolly. "You do that all the time. I don't see why you would even bother to tell me that."
"You should try listening to your own advice." Beast Boy added angrily.
The pale teen desperately tried to control the anger that was starting to seethe within her.
'Raven, remember the state he is in. Don't lose your patience…don't let rage take over.'
"This is not about me, Beast Boy." Raven tried to respond evenly but her tone of voice came out rather harsh. "It's about you; you need help."
The changeling held her gaze for a few moments and turned his head to view the sea ahead of him. "I don't need your help, Raven."
Something burst inside of Raven; the anger she had tried to contain escaped. "I can't believe I even considered helping you! I was tired of watching you cry over Terra almost every day!"
An uncomfortable silence overwhelmed them both. Raven's violet eyes watched him. He was registering everything she had told him. His face turned into a fierce look.
'You shouldn't have said her name, Raven.'
The changeling glared at her with his cold jade eyes and hissed, "Don't you ever say her name again." Then, he grumbled, "She is nothing to me now."
"How can she be nothing to you Beast Boy!" She exclaimed, "You haven't yet forgotten her."
"What happens to me is none of your business." He stated. "I can't see why you are even trying to help me."
"It's all about pity, isn't it?" The changeling continued callously. "You must feel bad because I'm suffering, right?"
Raven couldn't believe his words. This wasn't the Beast Boy she knew. He was showing her a darker part of him.
'You thought you knew him, Raven, but you really don't.'
"Of all people, you should know that I wouldn't feel sympathy towards anyone." She told him.
"I don't think I know you anymore, Raven." Beast Boy told her as he stood up from his place. "You don't understand the fact that I want to be left alone. I thought that you would comprehend that, but it seems to me that you don't."
The pale titan also got up from her position, and she gazed at his forest eyes from her violet orbs. "I do understand you Beast Boy, and it's more than you think. That is the reason why I want to at least try to help you. I know how it feels to be alone."
Raven saw something flicker within his emerald green eyes, but it quickly vanished. "You never let me help you, Raven. You always refused my attempts of letting you out of your shell. Why should I listen to you?"
With the words spoken, he turned around and left Raven alone at the rooftop, pondering the answers to his question.
'Why should I help him? Why did I even bother in offering him my hand?'
Unbeknownst to her, the answer lad been there standing a few moments ago.
To be continued…
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