So, plots... the plot for this story... its confusing.. don't you think? Even I'm confused! But its allright, cause its a good story, and its mosly just my emoitions about how much I wanted to do what Hiei does... kinda.

-Josh

I felt cold again. My hand, cold. My arm, cold. My body, freezing. I could feel the liquid on me, my face, and my hands. I could taste it in my mouth.

Blood.

Had I killed again? I can't handle this. I don't want to do this. I'm not doing this, it's not me, and I didn't kill him!

Stop it!

It stopped. Everything quickly flashed before me in a bright light. I saw myself as if watching me on a t.v. screen… The last thing I saw was Yusuke, and me about to stab him with my sword. I could almost hear Yusuke yell my name, then I could almost hear his breath leave him as the metal sliced threw his torso.

I used to love that sound. Used to listen to a persons skin shred apart and listen to the blood slowly drip to the ground. But now I would be the grateful in I never heard that sound again.

I'm alone again, I can feel it. The wetness is gone on my body, and I feel oddly warm, but alone. Yes, still alone.

I'm lying on a bed when I awake. My eyes slowly flutter open and I just as quickly sit up and look at my soundings. I'm in Kuramas room… how is that possible? I was just killing Yusuke, he should be dead.

"Whats wrong with you?." It was Yusuke… he was alive. I didn't kill him. I didn't kill him! I wanted my nightmare to stop, and it did. "Why did you attack me?" It was over, but…

"Where's Kurama?" I hastily asked, uncovering myself from the warmth of the blankets. They where getting too tepid.

Yusuke looked down at the floor, his expression quite, but I was unable to read it. I asked again, but demanding to know. "Damnit Yusuke, tell me!"

"Hes-" Yusuke started but he couldn't seem to finish his sentence. What was wrong with him? Can't he just tell me? Where is he? Where is Kurama? My friend! The one that I…

"Is he… alive?" I asked, wanting to know, but dreading the answer.

Yusuke shook his head. I thanked hyne that the direction he was shaking was up and down. Then I didn't kill my friend, but…

"Then where is he?"

"Hospital. Critical condition. Did you attack him too?" He stated. I quickly jumped out of bed, grabbed my sword, and ran out the window toward the hospital. Great, so now Yusukes thinks that I wanted to hurt Kurama, I would never want to hurt him!

At least, I thought I didn't want to him.

I swear I have never ran this fast in my life. My heart has never beat this quickly, my blood has never flown threw me like lightning before.

My thoughts consumed me, all about Kurama. Was he going to be ok? What exactly did I do? Why did I do it? Why?

The Blue Cardinal…

Every time I tried to hurt someone was because of the blue cardinal… was is it?

"Hiei, only red cardinals exist. Perhaps it's another bird you are seeing." That what Kurama said, but it's a cardinal and it's blue. I'm positive.

Then it appeared. It was flying as I was running atop all the buildings in the city to the hospital. It was easily able to keep up with me so I increased my pace. Perhaps it's just a figment of my imagination.

But it kept up with me. All the way to the hospital it stayed with me, and even when I entered and found Kuramas room with just about everyone in it.

It sat on my shoulder.

I'll be your friend. You only need me. I only need you. We're the only ones that exist. You know that. No one else. No one else!

I walked into the room, everyone turning to look at me. Botan, Keonma, Ogre, Kuwabara and his sister, Kuramas mother, and Genki who had the oddest look of them all.

She wasn't looking at me, but my shoulder. Could she see it?

"Everyone, get out." She said, still looking at the bird, but more glaring at it. Everyone sat or stood where they were.

"Why Genki?" One of them asked.

"NOW!" She yelled. I turned to leave but then she said, "Hiei, you stay." I went into the room and walked to Kuramas bed, looking at him as everyone else left the room. Genki stood up and closed the door behind everyone.

"Is he going to be ok?" I asked, actually concerned for the first time in my life.

"You did quite a number on him."

I was shocked. How did she know that it was me? I turned to her. "How did you know it was me?" I asked, needing to know.

She merely point to the bird on my shoulder.

SO! What do you think? I give it one more chapter,which I will do when I get around to it, so review while you still can then look for my review replys... .

-Josh