Chapter Six

Over the next few weeks I really began to understand Sesshoumaru. I really grew quite fond of him. I enjoyed his company. He was a lot like his brothers and in some ways he wasn't. He treated me like any other woman. He didn't care about the Shikon no Tama. I began to notice I began to feel similar feelings. It was like the feel I felt when I first meet Inuyasha. But no, I couldn't cheat on Inuyasha. Even he treated me bad I still loved him. I'm surprised that I felt these feelings again. I thought my heart couldn't afford to feel anymore pain. Why am I falling in love again? You'd think I'd learn from my first experience.

"Kikyo."

"Yes."

"What exactly happened between you and Inuyasha?" I hesitated. Did I really trust Sesshoumaru enough?

"He is my lover." For some strange reason he looked hurt.

"Why did you want to get away from him?"

"He beat me and forced me to have sex with him. He always got so jealous."

"Ah," he said like he realized something. "You can't exactly blame him. It's in his instinct." I was confused. "With demons we are highly protective of our partners. Why did you think my father went of to war?" He did have a good point. "He did it to protect my step mother. In our instincts we think we own our partners. If you do not obey we will force ourselves on you. And it's only natural that we would want sex." His logic did make really good sense to Inuyasha behavior.

"Ya, but he still shouldn't beat me. But I guess in these times nobody cares." Sesshoumaru looked concerned.

"No." he said. He wrapped his arms around me, holding me in his embrace. "No, Kikyo, I would care." My heart was beating so fast I thought I was going to have a heart attack. Get a hold of yourself Kikyo. You love Inuyasha. But did I? Yes of course I do. What about Sesshoumaru? I kept having an argument going on in my head. I was so confused. I cared about Inuyasha, but I also cared about Sesshoumaru. I can't have them both. I had to choose. Who did I like better?

"Kikyo." I looked up into his eyes. I saw the same love in his eyes as I saw in Inuyasha. Please don't look at me like that. That only made me more confused about my feelings for him. "If he does that to you again. Tell me, okay?" I looked at him. He was so sweet. I didn't deserve him. He doesn't deserve a two-timer. "Promise me please."

"I," I started. I made up my mind. "I promise." He held me tightly to his chest. I listened to his heart beat. It sounded so gentle, so loving. I wish I could stay like this forever.

He eventually returned me to Inuyasha. Secretly I was sad to leave him. He had treated me so well. He took care of me. In my mind I never wanted to see him again, but in my heart I wished he never returned me.

"Kikyo, you look as beautiful as ever." He began to play with my hair.

"Ah, thanks." I said as I smacked his hand away from me. Why was I doing this? I loved Inuyasha. He should have me when ever he wants me. No, I couldn't be feeling guilty. But I did. I felt like I was cheating on Sesshoumaru. But I wouldn't be. I wasn't Sesshoumaru's lover. Inuyasha was my lover. I could never love Sesshoumaru.

"Kikyo, come with me." I followed him. I saw Sesshoumaru watching to make sure I would be okay. I felt safe. Inuyasha pinned me to a tree. "Oh, Kikyo how I missed you. His tongue slides against mine. Oh, God! Please not this again. I began to tug on his robes and without breaking our kiss he manages to bare himself to the waist. One hand grips his rounded shoulder while I was trying to push him away. No good. He was just too strong. His hands have not been idle either. They rove down my back coming to rest on the underside of my bottom. He pulled me tight against his body so I am nearly straddling him.

Not satisfied with our position, he gets me to kneel over. I can feel his pulsing erection against my entrance even through our clothing. I whimpered in frustration and finally we end our deep kiss. He reached out one hand to cover my mouth. Where was my Sesshoumaru to protect me?

He reaches up to undo the ties to my priestess ensemble and at the back of my neck and with a quick tug loosens the laces all the way down the back. He reaches around grabbing the garment by the front collar and begins to pull it down my arms.

Once my torso was revealed he pulled it down my perfect legs letting it drop at my feet and forced me to step out of it. I stood there in the moonlight completely naked. I can't stop the nervousness that spirals in my gut and I shift my weight from one foot to another.

I looked at Inuyasha. He was on his knees pulling of his red clothing to expose his bare body. Heat joined the nervousness twirling in my stomach as I feast my eyes upon him. I look into his face to see him staring at me with such longing that it scared me.

He reaches for me and I collapsed. He lays me back on the floor.

Before I can draw a breath he stretches his length against mine and I feel him demanding entrance inside of me.

With a sudden burst of strength I push him off me and ignoring his look of confusion. I ran for it. I ran into the trees and tried my best to disappear from this earth. I collapsed and began to cry.