Chapter Twelve

Note: Well I will continue this story, but not for a while. I need to buy more books or get season two of Inuyasha.

I found the person I was I was looking for. I hid in a tree and watch Sesshoumaru from afar. I could tell he could sense my presence. He glanced up at me. "Jaken, stay here I will return in the morning."

"But master, what do you except me to do?"

"I don't care." He jumped on the branch where I was hiding. "Kikyo is it really you. I thought Inuyasha killed you."

"He did, but I was revived."

"Why so glum Kikyo?" He looked into my face and tears began to fall from my face. He held me close to him.

"He's replaced me with a mortal girl." He said nothing; all he did was hold me closer. "If I were alive would I have been the one to make him kinder? Why couldn't I be the one to tend to his wounds?"

"Forget about him. You have me now. I understand you still have feelings for him, but I will take care of you now."

"That girl ruined with my plan."

"What plan?"

"The plan to get rid of the Shikon jewel." He looked puzzled. That's right; I forgot to tell him the plan. "Before I died I asked Onigumo to say that he was the one to betray us. I lowered my barrier so that demons would consume him. If I didn't kill Inuyasha I knew he would. I told him he would have me and the jewel. But he did not know my secret plan. He would also be a half-demon and when I was to give it to him I would purify him. That would get rid of both and we could remain together forever without any interference from anybody." He tightened his grip on my arms.

He pushed me away. "How come you didn't leave it to me to kill Inuyasha?" I didn't understand why he was yelling at me.

"I didn't want him to hurt you." He looked into my eyes and starred into my heart. He knew I wasn't lying. "Inuyasha can be very persistent if it's something he cares about. I know he still loves me. He feels sorry for what he's done. He would kill you to get to me. I don't want you two to fight for eternity over me. That's why I chose Onigumo. At that time I didn't care who died. I was half hoping that they'd kill each other off. I didn't care about them. I cared only about you."

"Is that true Kikyo?" Some one else had joined the conversation. I turned around to see Inuyasha.

"How long have you been listening?"

"I just got here." I looked into his face. I could tell his heart was filled with sadness. I took pity on him.

"Where's the girl?"

"She went home for the holidays. But is it true Kikyo? Do you only care about Sesshoumaru that much?"

"And what if she does?" growled Sesshoumaru. He shielded me from Inuyasha. "You were the one who hurt her!"

"I know that and I feel bad about that now!"

"How do I know you're telling the truth!"

"Because when I saw you sleep with her my heart felt like it was ripped out of my chest and was being eaten!" Oh my god! I was right, he did see us. I felt sorry for him. It must have torn him up inside. "I had no control over myself! I transformed! I wanted to become a full fledge demon so I could kill you! I felt bad for hurting her, but it was the only way I could get the jewel! I only knew half the stuff I was doing and you knew it!" I gasped. Did Sesshoumaru keep this information from me intentionally? Why would he do that? I looked at his face and it was furious.

"Yes I knew! I could smell your blood change, but it was no excuse! You are not fit for her! You don't deserve her! You took advantage of her!"

"Look whose talking! You slept with her in her time of need! Would a really man do that, eh Sesshoumaru!"

"You're calling me low you rapist!"

"Kikyo chose! Who do you think is right? Who deserves your love? Who do you love more?" I starred at Inuyasha. How could they put me on the spot like this? I couldn't just choose one without the other ones heart being broken. They both waited anxiously for my answer. My lower lip was trembling.

"I can't decide!" I exclaimed. Tears were bursting through my eyes. "I love you both! Stop doing this to me!"

"I see." said Sesshoumaru. "I guess we will have to fight to the death. The last one standing will get your heart." He charged at Inuyasha with full speed. He was going to kill his brother. This is what I was trying so desperately to prevent. Inuyasha pulled out his sword.

"No!" I screamed. I used all my strength to knock out Sesshoumaru. Inuyasha starred at me as I panted. "Inuyasha go now. You will fight later, but not now." He nodded and he understood.

But before he left he said "I will fight Sesshoumaru to the death for you. And I will kill Naraku."

He put his sword back in his sheath and left me alone with Sesshoumaru. If there is no me to fight over then they'll stop. I kissed Sesshoumaru on the lips. "Good-bye." I muttered. I got my soul stealers to take me away. I had made up my mind. I chose neither of them. But if one were to be killed I would have no chose but to choose them. Until that time comes I will wait forever for one of them to perish or remain alone forever.