A/N: Ok it's been forever we know butI think for the amount of time you've had to wait you will all applaud this chapter because there is alot said that neeeded to be said and alot of things you might find yourself screaming at the televison come out so...I hope you allenjoy the chapter and againIappoligize Jess andI are super procrastinators and we know how it feels to be on the recieving end so again we are sorry and read and enjoy!

Chapter 5

So there they stood, watching as the four of them ran out of the room, not giving a second thought about the impact that the past couple of hours had had on their relationships. Jason had run out of the room, not willing the face the truth and Courtney had followed. Carly ran after her two best friends, not being able to be in the room that was so full of deception, and Sonny had followed. It really was the four of them, forever and always and everyone finally understood.

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"Jason, wait!" Courtney yelled running after him and out onto the roof. She wasn't planning on following him but something inside her snapped and she had to get out of that room, and when she saw Jason run she found her shot, and she had to explain. Explain, the real reason they had kept all of those possessions, those memories.

He heard her behind him but he couldn't stop. He was too afraid of what would happen if he said what he wanted to say. He had so many emotions raging through his veins. He loved Sam… but why had he gotten so angry, so jealous when Jax shoved it in his face that Courtney was his wife? Why did he feel the need to protect her? He could tell himself that it was just him caring for her, he always would, but he knew it was more than that, he knew he cared more for her than he was willing to admit.

There had been a time where she was his world, all that he cared about. Everything that he did, he did for her. For their love and their life together. What had happened to them? Where had they gone wrong? He wasn't sure… but he did know that when things finally came to an end, when he took his ring off and when he signed the divorce papers, his heart had never be the same. And that wouldn't changed. Even now when he was with Sam and he woke up next to her every morning, he wasn't complete. He still dreamed about her at night, he still remembered how she looked first thing in the morning, he still remembered how his skin felt beneath her touch and how his lips felt with her kiss. He was alive. And no one would or could ever make him feel that way again.

"Please…don't. I can't handle this right now." He stated a little more harshly than he had intended.

"You can't handle this? What about me? I didn't expect your girlfriend to go searching through private things that belonged to me and Carly." She said defensively.

"No…" He was interrupted when Sonny and Carly ran through the same door that they had.

"No don't stop Jason go ahead… speak. Tell me once again how all of this is my fault!" She yelled. It was time to get their emotions out and let each other know how they really felt. What the hell right did he have to get angry at her? It was her and Carly's privacy that was invaded… not his.

"I'm not saying it's your fault…"

"No you're just thinking it right, bad Courtney brought up the past, mean old Courtney kept some things that might just give us some conflicting feelings, hell why don't we blame Courtney when it starts to rain!" Courtney suggested...CRACK. It was really perfect timing, when that sky fell out all was momentarily forgotten.

They all had to laugh at the irony of it all! And that they did, they stood and laughed just like old times, with the rain pounding on their heads, soaking their clothes.

"You guys remember when we were at The Cellar that one night right after you two got engaged?" Carly said, motioning to Jason and Courtney.

"Oh God… remember Jason fell and got mud all down his pants and then Sonny fell while trying to help him up!" Courtney laughed.

"Well if you two weren't laughing we could have used some assistance!" Sonny said trying to be bitter at the memory of being wet and muddy and feeling disgusting.

"Hmm… no. I remember the dresses we were wearing they were classic Jean Paul collection. I think not!" Carly said matter-of-factly.

They all laughed just the thought that Carly would remember what their dresses were was just too funny! "Only you Carly!" Jason laughed.

"We've had some great times..."Sonny said thoughtfully.

"Yea...we were the best!" Carly agreed.

"What happened to us?" Courtney asked as she folded her arms the cold of the rain starting to get to her a bit but mostly it was numbing her...it was numbing them all.

"Does any of this even matter? It's not like we can go back..."Jason said hurtfully as he turned around and stared out at the skyline.

"Yes it matters!" Courtney said adamantly. "You and Sonny will always be brothers married to me or not, you and Carly will still be best friends, like it or not, and Sam or no Sam you will always love me somewhere deep inside that heart of yours, whether you want to admit it or not and you need to accept that!" She paused for a moment, letting her words sink in. Words that she hadn't meant to speak out loud. "Jason we used to love the rain… We shared some great times." She smiled as the memories flooded her thoughts. "Now look at us. We pass each other on the street and we are like strangers. We never talk…"

"We moved on Courtney!" He turned to face her. He watched as the pain flashed through her eyes. He hadn't meant to hurt her. "I still love you, okay? Is that what you want to hear? I always have and I always will...It kills me to see you with Jax, and I will always protect you whether you like it or not but I love Sam now and I've moved on and maybe you and Carly should do the same!" Jason said, hoping that the rain would hide the pain in his face as he spoke.

Carly watched the exchange of her two best friends, standing in front of her with her own tears falling from her eyes. Those words hurt… they hurt a lot. And hell would be damned if she was going to let him get away with it. "Excuse me Jason Morgan! Let me tell you something! I was in your life way before little Ms. Samantha and I will still be in your life long afterwards so don't you ever tell me to move on! And obviously you haven't moved on because you wouldn't have stood up to Jax. You wouldn't have stopped him from degrading Courtney like that and you wouldn't have left Sam in there when she was trying to play Dr. Phil!" Anger seeped through her words.

Sonny, up until this point, had stood quietly but now felt he needed to step in. "Alright Carly just stop, let's not get into damaged goods it's only going to cause pain!"

"Damaged goods?" Courtney questioned. "Is that what our relationships with each other were to you? 'Damaged goods?'" Wow. How shallow could Sonny get?

"That's not what I meant!" Sonny said angrily annoyed that his sister had accused him of not caring for her, Jason or Carly.

"Well I don't know Sonny… you threw Courtney away like it was nothing, when she was merely trying to save you AND Jason from a life in prison away from your lives and the boys!" Carly pointed out referring to the Alcazar incident that had caused Courtney to be "banished" from the family.

"She called the COPS!" Jason yelled angrily the wound now officially reopened.

"Oh and God forbid I actually try to save my brother and my husband!" Courtney chimed in.

"How many times did I tell you not to get involved...and you never listened! It wasn't your place! It was a selfish thing to do!" Jason yelled.

"Selfish?" Carly interrupted. "That was the most unselfish thing she could have done! She saved you two from a life in prison, and she didn't do it for her or for me she did it for those boys!"

"ENOUGH!" Courtney screamed! "I called the police that night because I didn't want to see the man I love and my brother spend the rest of their lives in jail over some piece of trash! He had already killed our baby Jason, OUR BABY! Do you think I wanted him to ruin my husband and my brother and our lives together?"

"You had no right to call the police." Sonny said quietly trying to keep his emotions in check.

"I had no right?" Courtney said nodding her head "That's right… I had no right to protect my brother and my husband. No right at all and you know you had no right to take the boys from their mother in that stupid custody hearing, and you had no right to try and keep Jason and me apart in the beginning especially by firing him. And you know what else you don't have and haven't had the right to do...expect nothing but honesty and loyalty from everyone around you and then turn around and lie and cheat and do all the things that would make someone unacceptable to you!" She finished taking a deep breath. Oh how long she had wanted to say that!

"Amen Sister!" Carly said amazed that in about a minute she had just let Sonny have it for all the Hell he had put her through in the past two years! "And I have something to add to that! I think you should both take a step back and look at how much Courtney has done for us all, first she got AJ to confess to setting up the witness for Alcazar's murder trial. Then, she helped me deal with the rape when I couldn't tell you two, and then she saved me and YOUR baby!" Carly emphasized the your as she point to Sonny. "Not to mention she took care of Michael when I was being held against my will by your brother, that might I add you have shockingly decided to give another chance! The man who was going to kidnap your baby and KILL ME!" She rolled her eyes. "But your sister you still haven't forgiven. I mean for god sakes Sonny, honestly! She took care of your kids when we couldn't! She is Morgan's god mother she and Jason were Michael's sanctuary during the custody battle! How can you forgive a man who purposefully hurt you when you can't forgive a woman who did everything in her power to protect you?"

Silence.

"That's what I thought!" Carly stated knowingly. "You two are such hypocrites, without a second thought you threw Court out like yesterday's trash but now that you get the full picture that's exactly what you see...the mistakes you made! Sonny, can you honestly say that Courtney means nothing to you? Can you honestly say that she hasn't been there to help you, despite her reservations about the business?" She asked Sonny, who refused to make eye contact. "And Jason, can you honestly say that you are the happiest you have ever been with Sam? That she gives you everything that you have ever wanted?" He too, refused to make eye contact.

"You're not perfect Carly and neither is Courtney! Neither Sonny nor I ever claimed to be!" Jason said he was still reeling from everything the two had just unleashed. They certainly hadn't held anything back! "You both knew that from the start!"

"But that's the point Jason!" Courtney said desperately wanting them to listen. "We all make mistakes and we have to live with them! Not shut each other out because that's just easier. You can't just forget everything that we all went through together. We can't forget that we are family."

"And that's just it… we are family. We are supposed to forgive each other, look past the mistakes and imperfections." Carly stated. "I know that we are all in different places in our lives right now and we have 'moved on,' whatever that means. But I miss all of you. I miss the connection we had; I miss the love we shared." She paused and looked out at the sun rising from behind the clouds. "Now the question is, can we still be who we are today and be the family that we were always supposed to be?"