Author's Note: Sorry its been so long i've updated, I just really haven't felt like writting.

Calleigh leaned up against the raling of her and Tim's back porch, watching the waves of the ocean gently sweep over the sand. Calleigh held a coffee cup in one hand and rubbed her face with the other. Why didn't she just talk to her father instead of casting him off to the side like a nobody. Calleigh jumped slightly when she felt a pair of strong muscular arms go around her waist.

"That stuff will rot your stomack out." said Tim as he gestured to the Miami-Dade Police academy coffee cup.

Calleigh smiled brightly. "Don't you just say the sweetest things." said Calleigh as she turned around in Tim's grasp.

Tim looked directly into Calleigh's bright green eyes. "You don't have to put on a smile for me, I know your hurting."

Calleigh sighed and sat her coffee cup down on the small table next to her, and then rested her head on Tim's chest. "I don't know what to do."

"I know, baby." Calleigh sighed heavily. "You know its ok to cry. I'm right here."

"I know you are. I just don't feel like crying."

Tim pulled Calleigh away from him slightly. "When you do, I'm here ok."

"Promise?"

Tim nodded. "I'll always be here."

Calleigh smiled and kissed Tim's cheek lightly and walked back inside.

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Calleigh stood in front of the mirror curling her hair. She didn't know why she couldn't cry, she just couldn't simple as that. She wanted to so she could grieve and let her father go but she just couldn't. She jumped when Tim walked up behind her.

"Good god don't do that!"

"I"m sorry, are you ok?" Calleigh nodded as she sprayed hairspray into her hair. "Calleigh honey are you sure you are ok?"

"I'm fine Tim just stop asking me." said Calleigh desperatley.

"Well I'm sorry that I care about you!"

"Well nobody asked you to!"

Tim sighed. "Calleigh...look I know you feel responsible for your father's death. Ok your a kind hearted person you feel responsible when we get a case. But sweetie this was in no way your fault."

"Well I feel like it is."

"But its not."

"Tim, you don't know. You don't know what I went through as a kid. When I became an adult I promised myself I wouldn't go through it anymore. So I pushed him away. And he came by the lab and wanted to tell me something but then you showed up and he knew you were protective of me so he backed off. Tim what if he knew something was wrong and he was trying to tell me, but I pushed him away."

Tim took a deep breath and starred at Calleigh's tear streaken cheeks. "Your crying." stated Tim.

"What?" said Calleigh slightly out of breath.

Tim walked slowly over to Calleigh and wiped her tears away. "It's going to be ok, I promise."

"Just please don't leave me." Calleigh cried.

"I won't. I promise." Tim closed his eyes, he didin't like to see his wife cry but he knew he had to let her. Tim gently rubbed her back in slow circles and kissed the top of her head every few seconds. "I promise." Tim waited for what he thought was minutes but when he looked at the clock it had been hours. Her breathing had finally evened out and he laid her gently on the bed. He took a white blanket from the chest at the end of the bed and placed it over her. Tim smiled slightly. "I love you."

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Tim sat next to Calleigh as the service went on. Calleigh looked around the room and saw everyone with tears in there eyes. Even Horatio had tears in his eyes and Calleigh thought that she'd never see the day were he'd cry. Calleigh looked over at Tim who was gripping her hand tightly. "Are you ok?"

Tim nodded. "You?"

"I will be."

Calleigh looked up as the preacher called her name. "Mrs. Speedle would you like to say a few words about your father?"

Calleigh nodded and kissed Tim lightly before walking up. "I um...stayed up for 4 hours last night writing down what I was going to say onto these pieces of papers but when I walked in here this morning suddenly what was on these pieces of paper didn't matter. It was what's in here that's matters." said Calleigh as she placed her right hand over her heart. "My father uh...he was a complicated man. He had problems but I mean who doesn't in Miami. My father was very confused he wanted so badly to be a great man, but he couldn't be. Most people knew my father as an A.D.A. but I knew him as an alcoholic, a child beater and a southern man who was very lost." Calleigh looked over as her mother glared at her. Calleigh knew what her mother was thinking of her right now but she didn't care she had to get this out. She looked over at Tim who nodded for her to continue. "I know you guys are thinking this is a wake, her father died why is she saying terrible things. Well that's because that's what I knew of my father. He was trying so hard to turn his life around. But I used my childhood against him and pushed him further and further away. So I'm going to ask all of you here tonight don't push your loved ones away just because they screw up once or twice. Don't push them away, if anything bring them closer because you never know how much longer you or they have on this earth."

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Tim watched Calleigh as she slept soundley. He knew it took a lot of courage to say what she did that afternoon. He wanted to wake her up so badly to tell her how much he loved her, to show her. But he knew she was drained she hadn't slept properly in days and she needed the sleep right now. So instead Tim settled for giving her a kiss on the cheek. Whatever it is he wanted to say to her could wait til tomorrow, because after all they had that time.

TBC...