Written after hearing spoilers that Kim would return, and be involved with a controlling shrink. One-shot. Review.
She hated herself more and more every day.
Every time she lied to her fiancé about where she'd been.
Every time she dropped Angela off at her grandmother's, knowing she wasn't just going to the store.
Every time she let him climb on top of her, shattering everything she'd ever been taught about trusting people.
But in a way, she loved it too.
Every time she got away with the lies she told.
Every time she got rid of the constant reminder that Chase had lied.
Every time he made her feel like a woman. Like someone gave a damn about her, and that she wasn't second or third best.
And then she hated herself again. For being that person. The person who lied to her family, and snuck around, getting a thrill out of possibly being caught.
But then the love was back. Because it was proof that she was his child. She was like him after all.
It was a vicious cycle, that would eventually get beyond her control and hurt everyone she loved.
And somewhere deep down inside, she craved that burnout.
She hated herself more and more everyday, but at the same time, she loved herself.
1/16/05