Well, writing another fic! Hope you like it! It's a letter to Rhett and it goes on from there.
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Scarlett sat down at her desk and stared at the blank sheet of paper before her. It had been 4 weeks since he left and he had sent the divorce papers and each time she threw them away. She sighed and picked up her pen.
She took a breath and began to write:
Dearest Rhett,
She stopped there and said quietly, "No, no--not dearest." She crumpled up the paper and got a new one and then began to write:
Rhett,
You ought to know me well enough to know that when I want something I'm not going to give up that easily. I don't want a divorce, I want you. You're not going to get a divorce so you needn't waste your time sending them because it won't do either of us any good.
I need to say a lot of things and make some things clear. I don't know where to begin for there are so many things. Well, I guess I'll begin with the reason your not here right now. Ashley. Do you know when I first started "loving" him? At the age of fourteen, I was sitting on the porch steps of Tara and he came riding to me like a prince I had always hoped would ride to me and take me away, when I was younger. He had just come back from England and to me, at the time,was the most handsome man I had ever seen in my fourteen years. I was determined then that I was going to have him. Now, I neither want him nor ever want to see him again, but for Melly's sake I will. I made her a promise remember? I promised to take care of Ashley and Beau for her. Well, I am going to keep that promise if I have to go through hell doing it. I know you're probably wondering where my love for him went. It started to fade after that incident at the mill. And for the last time nothing happened. He was talking of the old days and how Tara and Twelve Oaks used to be before the war. I started to think of Pa and my mother and I started crying. He told me he didn't mean to make me cry and he hugged me like any other gentlemen would do. Don't you think you would do that if Melly cried? Well as I was saying, my love for Ashley started fading after that. He did nothing to defend me, let alone defend himself! I thought of him as a coward from then on. Then after the party and the events that happened...need I spell it out for you? Well, I thought you loved me. You said you did and I was beginning to love you back. But then you left. With Bonnie...and came back months later and didn't even look happy to see me. Well, I was happy to see you! And I was happy about our baby. But after you said...Rhett you can't blame all the troubles of our marrage on me. It wasn't all my fault! Well, anyway, after you said that to me and the accident happened, I called out for you. I really did...and if I don't remember correctly if I did or not then I wanted you and needed you. Then when you said we could go away after I was recovered...I wanted to. I wanted to make our marrage work. Then after well...after Bonnie...when I said those horrible things to you...Rhett I didn't mean it! I was suffering as much as you. God's nightgown I was hurting like I had never hurt and still am. I loved her as much as you did and I was just frustrated, angry and hurt. When I said you killed her Rhett, I didn't mean it. Rhett, she's as stubborn as Pa and she would have jumped even if you had stopped her. Why, she would have jumped while no one was looking to proove that she could! Rhett, then when Melly passed on, you know you couldn't have picked a better day to leave me! I confessed to you what you didn't confess to me for years and I confessed it right away. You waited until you "weren't" in love withme. Well, I don't believeyou're not in love with me. It's just impossible to love someone for years and just stop loving them. Mine with Ashley didn't just stop.
Rhett, I told you I loved you and I still do. You were a coward to leave. Well, I'm not going to give up that easily. No. I'm just as stubborn as you are. You married me and made me love you now I'm going to get you back. Whether I have to go through hell doing it!
All my love,
Scarlett O'Hara Hamilton Kennedy Butler
She looked at the letter. Re-read it and sighed content with what she wrote. She took an envelope and put the letter in and sealed it.
Tell me if you like it...please review! I will have the next chapter up very shortly!
-Katherine