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Just Don't Think

Maybe Ignorance is Bliss

It was dark when Raven heard the noise, someone crying. Raven was up late reading. Guessing everyone else was asleep she had crept into the large common room with a book to read. She put her book aside and stood up walking into the hall to go see what was the matter. Everyone thought Raven didn't care about the members of her team but the truth was she did. Even if she wasn't allowed to feel as much as they did, she still wanted to help and comfort them.

She tried to pinpoint where the sound was coming from as she walked by the boys' bedroom doors but it wasn't from their rooms or Starfire's. That left one room, Divinia's. Although she was a new member of the team Raven was curious as she drew closer to the door. The sound lessened the closer Raven got, as if Divinia knew she was coming. Raven smiled slightly at that remembering that Divinia really could see that she was coming. Raven stopped in front of the door before entering, not bothering to knock. She noticed Divinia was on the ground, leaning against the foot of the bed. Her eyes where staring straight forward (as far as Raven could tell).

"What's wrong?" Raven asked stepping into the room, letting the door shut behind her. Divinia didn't move at all, giving no sign that she had heard Raven.

"Nothing" Divinia replied but Raven could see that silent tears were leaving wet trails down Divinia's cheeks. Raven rolled her eyes as she sat down next to Divinia propping her chin on her knees. It was very unlike her to seem to care but she knew she could just leave now. Mentally she kicked her self for her curiosity.

"Nothing is not something that makes you cry. What is it?" Raven asked trying to make her voice sound soothing, but failed. Divinia still refused to face her.

"You love having your powers don't you?" Divinia asked, her voice tight from crying. Raven nodded. "You hate them also though, for restricting your emotions, binding you." Raven nodded again. "It's the same for me." Divinia finally turned to face Raven. "I can stop time, making a second turn into eternity. I constantly change who I look like, a powerful tool on it's own. I can fight and win almost every time. And I can see everything." She stopped, taking a deep breath before continuing. "I see pain, war, hate, violence, death every second of my life. I see love, beauty, and happiness too but it does nothing to stop the screams of the dying from filling my head. It isn't the screams that are so bad; it is the fact that I can do nothing. I can't help those people, ever. Maybe one or two here and there but not all of them. That's why I need this team; I need the help to save more than one or two. I need to save them all." Fresh tears ran down Divinia's face. "I need to save them all." She repeated in a whisper that was barely audible.

Raven looked into Divinia's eyes and for the first time could see something other that pale swirling colors. She saw death on a battlefield, a mother burying her son. Images of pain filled Divinia's eyes, overwhelming Raven. Raven quickly looked away. For the first time she thought someone had it worse than she did. Wanting to ask how Divinia had found and chosen them out of all the great teams of the world, Raven opened her mouth to speak. She immediately closed it realizing it wasn't the time for questions. Raven wasn't sure how to comfort anyone let alone someone who saw all the pain of every world, planet, and dimension constantly. Guilt was something no one could really abolish.

"We will do everything we can to help anyone we can, I promise." That was all Raven could give, a promise. Divinia looked at her and smiled, the finally tears stopping. She stayed like that for a moment, smiling, before she nodded and got up from the floor. Raven also stood, figuring it was her time to go. She had done all she could, for that moment. As Raven walked out the door she could hear an almost silent "thank you."

She frowned as she left Divinia to her dreams. Raven walked silently back to her book wondering why Divinia had chosen them.

And that ladies and gentlemen is chapter four.

I feel so bad about writing Divinia that way, so sad. "All the pain in the world" is something very hard to cope with. Okay, now I feel evil and mean.

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