Disclaimer: I do not own INUYASHA!

Warning: Willing Sex then Rape/evilness so sex in this chapter.

A/N: I hate writing rape… oh well have to do it here goes nothing.

Chapter 3: Writing out my Feelings

'thoughts'

"Talking"

-Flash backs-

Dreams

Last Time

"Hello this is Kagome Higurashi speaking"

"Hello love"

Now:

Rubber brakes easily if you make it cold enough I felt like rubber right now. His voice could always make me cold, even if I was hotter then the sun. He could bring back so much pain just by saying two small words. The master of my nightmares came to life again and really to take back his "love".

I froze my body was ice now. I had nightmares about his voice, his body, his eyes. They was all coming back in a flash causing tears to come out of my eyes sliding down my cheeks "Naraku…" I heard him laugh. "Don't sound so scared!" He said almost happy "I'm outside your apartment door so why don't you come let me in" "No"

I heard him sigh as he knocked on the door. "I'll pound on this door if you want" I hung up grabbing a robe putting it on closing it tightly, walking out of the room to the front door opening it a bit enough for him to come in. As he did, he went straight towards my bedroom. I followed him slowly closing the bedroom door behind me. He looked around taking his shoes off along with his coat, "So who do you all live with?" he asked.

"You know who so these cut the small talk and get to the point" I said coldly glaring at him. "Oh bit my head off well you" he smiled walking over to me untying my robe and sliding it off my body showing my cotton night dress that had little bunnies on it. "Today is the day we was married" he whispered against my neck as he kissed it nipping on my skin.

I moved my neck away pushing on him a bit looking away, being Naraku he shook his head and moved his head to look me in the eye, he brought his lips to mine pushing my head up and back against the door which I was now pressed against by his body pinning my arms to the side of my head. He deepened the kiss sliding his tongue in my open mouth, we tangled are fingers together. I pushed up from the door making him walk back to where the bed was.

We broke the kiss to get on the bed Naraku crawling up on top of me kissing me again letting my hands go running his finger's through my hair, he pushed up my dress with his leg to my stomach leaving my underwear in the open. Naraku broke the kiss taking his fingers from my hair sliding them down my body to my underwear grabbing the sides pulling them down him lifting my legs up to take them off. I gulped watching him take his shirt off then head towards his pants.

I lifted my gown off me, and continue to watch Naraku undress. I sighed and helped him because he was shaking a bit from excitement. I kissed his stomach pushing him on his back climbing on top of him taking his pants all the way off followed by his boxers. I kissed my way down to his large, hard manhood breathing hot air on along it getting a moan from Naraku. Sliding back up I licked his neck biting down a bit hard on the side causing him to flip us so he was on top, entering me he kissed me heatedly showing his passion and "love".

I moaned in the kiss as he pumped in and out slowly and carefully speeding up. I knew soon he would loss control of his need and go harder. I wrapped my legs around his waist pushing now into him, then he lost it he started to pound in me getting a nice loud moan from me.

I was the first to climax him following a bit after, both of us panting, and sweaty. Naraku pulled out and rolled off me catching his breath. I sat up slowly a little in pain looking at him "Let me guess you tracked me down just to have sex?" he nodded slowly rubbing my leg a bit. "Um jerk" I whispered smiling a bit as he got in between my legs a kissing my stomach. I frown as I lay back down so Naraku could lie on top of me. I felt him move a bit pulling the covers over us before laying on me again his head on my stomach.

-Flashback

-I sat out onto the pouch watching the rain fall from the sky freely. Naraku was inside typing away on his computer to busy to notice I walked outside without him. I know I would be punished but I wanted to see the rain so bad. It was a need he couldn't farfel. I breathed in the scent of the rain running my hands down on my black silk dress, I stepped out into the rain closing my eyes letting the rain fall on my face.

I parted my lips letting some rain come in. I loved it, it was like the sky was crying with me, I felt hot tears fall from my eyes them getting mixed in with the skies cold tears. I let a sob come out before lowering my head covering my mouth with a hand closing my eyes shut tight, my heart pounded in my chest as I let the thoughts of running away come forth. I opened my eyes looking back at the door before taking a step forwards away from the door.

Soon I was into a run, after I climbed over the fence that blocked the forest away. I ran into the woods as it rained harder my bare feet were cold and dirty along with my hands that stung when I pushed branched out of the way. I slowed down but the rain didn't. I knew he knew I ran cause I right after I jumped the fence I heard the back door slam shut. I started running faster again looking back me once think I would see those red eyes that seemed to glow in the dark. They weren't there but the fear that ran through my blood ran high causing me to run faster.

I stopped all of a sudden causing me to slide a bit falling on the muddy ground, he was looking I backed towards a tree closing my eyes tight so the tears wouldn't come out. He always said he would do anything that would make me happy but everything he did caused more pain and sadness. I opened my eyes looking up seeing the glaring red eyes stare down at me, I saw the pale hand reach out grabbing me by the neck pinning my head back to the tree.

I gasped and struggled against him clawing into his arm with my nails he didn't even flitch. I heard a inhuman growl come from her, as his other hand came to the edge of my dress ripping it he loosened his hold on my throat. His free hand felt my cold now naked body up since I wasn't allowed to wear underwear anymore since it got in the way.

End Flashback: (Just a short break)

I brought my hand up wiping the tears away. He wasn't asleep can't he sighed and sat up getting out of bed grabbing his clothes as I sat up hugging my body watching him dress then combing his hair with his fingers looking at him "See you later love" I pulled the covers up more remembering more of what happen that night.

Continuing Flashback:

I felt him pull himself closer pressing his wet clothes on my wet body, his pants had been pushed down letting his hard manhood press against my not-naturally wet womanhood. He slammed in as I cried out trying to push him away, I sobbed as he just went harder pressing me more into the tree making my back bleed some small dabs of blood.

I he slammed harder biting down on my neck leaving a mark on it as he raped me, he showed me who I belongs to. He always did when I disobeyed. I felt him climax in me him panting as I cried the pain engulfing me as he pulled out, he pulled his pants on grabbing my arms dragging me back to the house mud getting on my body and cuts. I blacked out before we got to the house.

End Flashback.

I cried harder standing up wrapping the cover around me walking to my laptop that sat on my small desk that I use to brainstorm. I turned it on flipping the lid open, opening up a new Microsoft Word thing typing the title of my new book.

The Devils Red Eyes: By Higurashi Kagome

It all started in high school when he asked me to marry him….

A/N: Done with that! I'm so weird and depressing. Thank ya'll for reviewing. And I'll put more of the past up next chapter.