As long as I'm thinking about you, setting my sights on what I think is unattainable, there's no chance of being hurt by someone else."-Samantha Carter
Dear Jack,
Do you remember our interaction after I got back from the Prometheus? All right, that's not how I wanted to start. Jack, when I was stranded in the gas cloud, I thought about a lot of things...saw my life flash before my eyes, you might say. Or rather, my regrets.
It was a battle between concentrating on my situation and my future. You see, there was this little girl. She kept appearing and disappearing. Jack, there was something about her...I don't know, something ethereal about her. But she wasn't the only one who cam to see me.
Teal'c came to warn me about the calamities that could befall me. Daniel was begging me to "seize the moment" and study the gas cloud.
But when I think about the visits that I got, two really stand out to me. They're the ones affecting my decision to resign from the Air Force. My dad came, but he didn't come to talk about my dilemma. He came to tell me to give up what was forcing me to be alone: to love and be loved in return. Part of me still screams that I'm safer not telling anyone about this. This isn't easy, and I hope you keep an open mind about the whole thing.
It was your visit that really influenced my decision. I know you would never ask me to give up my career, even if...something did develop between us. But I also know that I can continue serving the planet as a civilian while you cannot. And that we can never consider being together if we are both in the Air Force.
Jack, the version of you that surfaced from the depths of my subconscious mind said that I was the problem in our relationship: that you were a safe bet.
As I told "you" then, I'll tell you now. If you don't care for me, tell me and I'll let you go. It won't be easy, but I could do it. But, if the Air Force Regulations were just an excuse, I'm waiting.
There...it's out. Jack, I'm not sure if you were a security blanket that I kept to keep from being hurt by anyone else or if I've genuinely fallen in love with you. I guess that's a bad way to end a letter like this. What I mean to say is that I want to try to have a real relationship with you.
I don't want Grace to be an unattainable dream anymore.
Samantha"I don't want anything...but you do."-Grace