Disclaimer: I do not own Inuyasha

Warning: This chapter is one big flash back, drug use, something close to a threesome, death.

A/N: Okay this is Kagome's last high school days; it just starts off in the high school. If you get confused tell me and I'll explain in the last chapter.

Chapter 4: I killed Him…

"Talking"

-flashbacks-

Dreams

How pathetic I've become to cut myself and pretend that it would take the pain away. Getting unwanted attention from those I hate. I should have cut deeper with my razorblade. Thinking these words as I cry myself to sleep hoping tomorrow the sun will shine brighter just for me. But like that's ever going happen.

I stared into the school's bathroom mirror glaring at myself kind of creeping myself out with my evil looking eyes. I guess I shouldn't have done my make-up today since it is running down my face now. Running the water and getting some soap I washed my make-up off looking back up into the mirror looking at my red face. No more crying, but if those jocks would have just shut up I wouldn't be in here crying. Thought what they said about my father and mother was true both gold-diggers and my sister is a whore. My brother didn't do anything though! How they even know who he is surprises me no less.

I sighed, feeling sick again. I walked back into the stall leaning over the toilet losing what small food that was left in my stomach into the "clean" toilet. Hearing the door open and my name being called out with a small voice none other then Shippo. I flushed the toilet and walked out of the stall to the sink again to rinse my mouth out. Shippo rushed over to me and was already digging through his pockets getting out some gum handing it to me watching me pop it in my mouth after I had done washing my mouth out with water.

"Sesshomaru said that you are to go out to his car and he'll take you to my place" Shippo explained and pushed me towards the door. I walked out forcefully by Shippo. I smiled walking out of the school Shippo following me, skipping wasn't a big deal for us for some reason. Sesshomaru was already accepted to Tokyo U. and Shippo was just going to follow Sesshomaru where ever he went and me, well I didn't have a future. Sure I would like to become a writer but like that's every going to happen.

I slide into the back of Sesshomaru's car, Shippo hopping in the front. Sesshomaru backed out of his spot fast speeding out of the school's parking lot. I closed my eyes as Shippo talked to Sesshomaru about something not really important, to me at least.

I must have had fell asleep cause I was awoken by Shippo shaking me awake. Shippo smiled at me (more like beamed at me) and told me that we were at his house, well apartment and Sesshomaru refused to carry me up the stairs. I rolled my eyes and slowly climbed out of the car yawning. I raised my arms above my head and held onto my arms holding them above my head while I followed Sesshomaru and Shippo (who was holding onto Sesshomaru's freehand the other holding a cigarette) into the apartment building.

We got up to Shippo's apartment already taking their shoes off as they went inside. They throw their shoes at the wall letting them bounce to the ground, walking to Shippo's room. Shippo's dad was out working at some restaurant as a cook or something. They all got settled on Shippo's bedroom floor Shippo digging under his bed reaching around under there. With a little 'ah ha' Shippo crawled back over to us and pulled out an already rolled joint and a lighter. Shippo smiled and handed it to me; I rolled my eyes at his happiness. I put the joint in my lips holding it there lighting it up good. Before taking a hit, holding it in coughing a bit handing it over to Sesshomaru before letting it out.

Sesshomaru took a hit and did the same but not coughing or anything like that. After we were finished, Shippo was giggling and wiggling over to me after he got into my lap he pulled Sesshomaru over to us. Sesshomaru had a small grin on his face kissing Shippo once on the lips before looking up at me and bring me into a kiss. Shippo had his head in my lap sliding in between his legs watching us kiss. He giggled breaking us apart kissing me like Sesshomaru had. Kissing Shippo was like kissing another girl though. Sesshomaru sat back and watched us taking off his shirt, Shippo sitting up breaking the kiss for a moment before pulling me into his lap so I was on top of him.

Sesshomaru came up behind me grabbing the end of my shirt lifting it over my head forcing me and Shippo to stop again. Shippo sighed all heavenly like taking his shirt off too kissing my neck as Sesshomaru's hands moved to my pants. Some how when ever I get high with these two I end up naked, getting fucked by Sesshomaru and sucking Shippo off. Can you believe I had my virginity token by Sesshomaru when I was 15? In Shippo's bed while Shippo and his father was away in America to some cook off thing.

My virginity token by a gay guy, though he wasn't gay then or as he likes to call it "bisexually" but I'm the only girl he ever touched in a sexual way. We took each others virginity so yay I was his first!

-1 hour, 37 minutes and 50 seconds later plus one more joint later

Shippo was on his bed Sesshomaru leaning over him kissing his neck rubbing their bodies' together while I laid on the ground staring at the ceiling. "I'm going home…" I said sating up rubbing my blood shot eyes a bit yawning standing looking at them ignoring me going in to their little world of pleasure stripping each others clothes off. I walked out of the room going into the kitchen to steal some food before I left. I opened the refrigerator grabbing a orange standing and closing the door walking to the door peeling my orange while slipping my shoes on.

I walked out the door closing it with my foot putting the orange peels into my hoodie pocket. I ate the orange slowly heading out of the apartment building walking down the street heading to my house about a few hundred, thousand blocks away. Or five. I crossed a few streets before walking up a sidewalk to a white perfect looking house with a loving mother inside who would understand why I left school, and a father who loved and adored me and would understand as well. My sister crying with me, while my brother tried to hide his tears. Blah whatever.

No one is that prefect, and anyone who says they are. It's a god damn lie! I opened the door to hear yells coming from the kitchen and crashes. I ignored them and headed upstairs going to my little brother and my room, shutting and locking the door behind me when I got in. I sat on the floor a few feet away from his bed watching him crawl out and lung himself at me in tears. My brother was about 10 years younger then me making him about 8 and me 18. Whoa I can do math!

He sobbed into my hoodie griping it pulling me closer, I petted his head until he calmed down enough to fall sleep. I brushed back some of his hair from his face seeing a cut on his face. I closed my eyes and listed him to his bed, unlocking the bedroom door and heading down stairs to the kitchen to take the orange peels out of my hoodie pocket and throw them away. My mum and dad must have gone out since there was no movement in the house and it was deadly quiet.

After about 30 minute….

I managed to make a good meal, I would say so at least. I put it on a plate and cleaned up the place walking open the stairs opening the bedroom door to mine and Souta's room. I put the plate down and woke him up telling him to eat which he did in a hurry. I sighed "Okay. I'm leaving to go shopping" he nodded and continued to eat. I smiled and walked out of the room then down to the kitchen grabbing my hoodie, and grabbing some money from the cookie jar. Walking out the door after yelling up the stairs for Souta to do his homework, it some how managed to get dark out after not that long of a time. I walked slowly to the closest store that was cheat but had good stuff in it; I stepped in and grabbed a basket going to the vegetable part of the store.

After I was done I walked to the counter just after the manger and a tall, dark, and handsome man came out of his office. I looked at them for a moment before I turned back to the lady who told me what I owned her. I paid hand helped pack the stuff in the bags then loaded them up in my arms. I walked out of the store with the handsome 20 looking man. He smiled and followed me out of the store.

(A/N: I'm just going to skip right through a few days since this is boring)

I continued to see that man a few times after the first. We even said hi to each other. It was talkier every time we saw each other. Shippo was all ignoring me and same with Sesshomaru, both to busy with each other to notice me. Jackasses. I think I should blow up their houses or something. Blow up a freaking cat and put it in front of Shippo's door on the welcome mat. See how they like the feeling, even thought that never happened to me or I would destroy the human who dare to do so. I feel an evil laugh coming on.

The next few nights, we started to run out of food once again. Souta locked himself in his room while I went out the door and hurried down the street to my normal store I go to. Stepping in with a little jiggle behind me I walked down the frozen with my hands in my pockets of my pants, I dodged an old woman taking my hands out of my pockets grabbing something that my brother and I could eat for the night and just come back tomorrow and do my normal shopping and get whatever I needed and whatnot.

I walked to the single counter and plopped the food down digging in my pockets getting my money. "Why hello there" A deep voice came from beside me making me jump. "Hello" I said slowly before paying what I owned taking the bag. I turned to him and smiled "How are you?" He smiled back and looked at the woman at the counter "Your boss wants you" she quickly nodded and zoomed off. "I'm fine. I'm glad I got to see you" he said lazy like "I want to ask you something" I looked at him waiting for him to go on "Would you like to go out some time?" "No" came my fast answer making his eyes widened a bit.

"Why not?" he questioned. "Because one: I don't know your name and two: I don't have time" I said calmly, turning around and walking away from him. Exiting the store him in follow, "My name is Naraku" he said hurrying to keep my pace. "Kagome" I said in returned he started to name things off about him and he asked thing about me which I didn't answer. He followed me into my house; taking off his shoes and coat he followed me into the kitchen taking a sit at the table. I started to begin dinner; he had stopped talking to look around the kitchen a bit.

I called up stairs to tell Souta I was home. "You live here with someone?" he asked calmly watching me closely like I was going to jump and run around like a mad woman. "My family if we must call them that" I answered I turned back around and placed the froze food in the oven after I was done with it. I could almost feel his eyes look at my back and slowly lower his glaze. I turned back around and leaned against the counter taking my hoodie off throwing it into one of the chairs. His eyes went from my face to my shirt looking it over before going back to my face.

"Do you smoke?" he asked for no reason. "Not cigarettes" I answered. He stood and turned to leave "I'm leaving" "Bye?" and he left. Strange man.

-The next day-

I woke at the sound of my brother crying. I looked over at him seeing him in a ball over his covers naked and bleeding a bit. I shot up from my bed and jumped on his bed carefully taking him into my arms. After he fell asleep and he was under some covers I got up slowly wiping the tears from my eyes walking out of the room closing the door behind me. I headed down the stairs to kitchen to see my father dressed and looked as though he just got out of the shower.

He looked up at me from his paper with a smile dancing on his face, "Good morning sweetheart, how's your brother?" I winced at his voice. Not answering I went to the counter taking a deep breath; a hand jerked me around to face my father. I didn't even hear him get up. "I asked you something" he growled out. I gulped still not answering, the fear building up inside me. He raised his hand bring it down fast on my cheek, I still not making a sound. He started to shake and beat me at the same time. Ripping at my clothing he stopped hitting me, he grabbed my neck closing in on me.

He let out a laugh his eyes glowing in what looked like anger and happiness. My hands went on the counter looking for something to hit him with. Grabbing the first thing I could, I raised it to hit him in the chest. Feeling the object in my hand slide into his body I opened my eyes that I didn't know were closed. Blood flowed out of the wound him felling to his knee then backwards the knife sticking out of his chest his eyes opened in shock. I stared at the unmoving body sliding to the floor I covered my eyes and closed my eyes letting out a scream.

Somebody must of heard cause a few minutes later the door was broken down and the cops came in, some went upstairs when I whispered something about my brother. The next few days I was questioned then sent to a place where they tested me and gave me drugs. I sat in my bed, my white clothing loosely hanging on my body, my hair a mess. My door opened and in came Naraku in a black suit. I sat there as he came closer to me. Softly sitting down on my bed he smiled and ran his hand down my face "Kagome" he said slowly pulling me a bit closer to him "Kagome, I can help you forget everything"

He pulled me closer to him and he whispers "I can make you forgot, if you marry me." All I did was nod. A month later I was married and brought to his home in the country away from everything. From what I heard from Naraku is that Souta was token to a home where he could recover from everything. I wasn't allowed to do pack any of my old stuff he had everything I needed with him. I wasn't allowed to wear pants or shirts all I could wear was dressed that were all black or gray. My hair had to be down at all times unless I was cooking or cleaning. No shoes, just slippers. I couldn't read anything but romance novels or something from Naraku's little library. I couldn't watch TV or read the newspaper, and I wasn't allowed to use the phone for there was none. There wasn't a TV and the paper was never around.

I was only let out of the house when Naraku was with me and it had to be in the back yard. I forgot everything in my past life with him, and only thought about him, cooking dinner and cleaning or a new book he brought me. It was like I was in a book that continued for five years.. That was until I ran away from him by putting sleeping pills in his coffee and found where Sesshomaru worked. Smooth I know.

A/N: One more chapter to go… oh and if you all want me to write about what went on in the three years with Naraku just ask. Even if its just one person that asks.