Wise Words from a Fool

Fall not in love; therefore, it will stick to your face

Hey readers whats up my homey g doggy's...ok joke...hahaha. i made a funny...not really...um ya so read on!

Kagome's POV

I used to have a handle on life, but then it broke.

Have you ever committed suicide before? The definition for suicide is 'to put ones self to death.' Now usually when one says suicide you think 'stupid people killing themselves' right? But what if that 'stupid person' was only finishing what someone else started.

For instance, if an evil wench tore your heart out and left you to bleed, but still not quite dead. You lay there in pain waiting for it to end, yet deep down you know that it will just hurt you more if you continue living. So you kill yourself. You help yourself. Almost like you're saving yourself.

In case you are wondering what point I am trying to make I will clear it up. Kikyo just pretty much told me in oh so many that I was not to love Inuyasha. To not look, think, or talk to him was a horribly slow death. With that she has me thinking it would be better to just tell him the awful to God truth and get it over with. So here I sit weighing the consequences of either action. To the first it would be death to my heart, but to the later it would be death to my relationship with Inuyasha. At least if I kept to myself I could still chat with him about work. But if I told him the truth I know that he would shun me and never forgive me. I guess I made my decision. I never was one for suicide. I am just too weak.

"Whatever, I agree." I spat out at her. Why was she doing this to me? There had to be a reason to why she would care if I talked with her boyfriend. It isn't as if I could steal him from her. "That would be the day." I said out loud with a choked laugh.

Kikyo just glared at me in confusion. "What would be the day?"

"The day that I told Inuyasha the truth would be the day. I was just stating the obvious out loud. Sorry, but I'd better get to work. You know more than anyone how my boss gets."

"Yeah, well, I am so glad we took care of that." She stated blatantly, sounding completely honest. How disgusting.

"Me too. It feels really nice to get that off my chest." I mocked her voice back at her, and turned abruptly. Stomping up the basement stairs I began wondering what I had gotten myself into. I, yet again, did something stupid without thinking. Perfect.

"Hey yo squirt!" Inuyasha's voice echoed through the parlor and raced to find it.

"What's up?" I inquired from behind the counter.

"You have a visitor. He says he knows you." My boss replied back at me in curiosity. "Do you know a Mr. Kagimia?"

When the voice escaped his lips my lungs closed on me. My brother's father never came to visit. Something was wrong, and it most likely had to do with Souta. "Where is he?" I asked hurriedly.

"What's wrong?" He paused as if waiting for the answer that I could not give him. "He said he would wait outside. Go on pee-wee I will cover for you."

"Thank you boss." I gasped before running out the door.

"Stop calling me that!" He yelled at my retreating form.

"What happened?" That was my quick question to Mr. Kagimia. "Where's Souta?"

The man looked down to the ground and stepped toward me. His eyes were shielded behind his bangs but I couldn't miss the frown on his face. With comforting hands he grasped my shoulders, but his grip was searching for support not giving it out. I felt his pain through his touch and all I could do was shed tears for him.

"What happened? Please tell me what happened to my brother." I could feel my face cringe in grief, having not cried for many years it was almost difficult to do. I heard someone step out from the parlor and stand still, waiting. It must have been Inuyasha for he was the only one who cared enough.

"Kago?" His tone was soft yet demanding some kind of response. My silence was all he needed to take leave. "I'll be inside when you are done." He left with that reassuring promise.

"I don't know what to do." Mr. Kagimia shrilled. He seemed to be falling onto me, and I could barely hold him up, but I still tried. I knew that what he had to say was bad but it wasn't really getting to me fully yet. All I could do was cry.

"Let me help you." I offered with a shaking smile.

He nodded and pushed himself off me. His eyes were shown to me now and I felt my heart wrench inside. They were bloodshot from obvious sobs that must have gone on for some while. "Tell me what is wrong."

"It's your brother. I guess…I don't know!" He shouted in defeat.

"Just tell me already!"

"Your brother left. He left us."

Okay, timeout. Stop and REWIND! 'Your brother left. He left us.' All right then let us begin. My brother is gone. Where? I just don't know. All I know is he is gone. There I can work with that.

"Where did he go?" I questioned gently, attempting to be the adult here.

"I don't know!" The older man cried.

Hmmm…that doesn't help me much now does it? "Why did he leave?"

"Something in the note said that he was tired of being a burden or some shit like that, and he left us!" More tears fled his eyes. It was so sad looking.

What note? He didn't mention a note before! "Where is the note Mr. Kagimia?" I watched him pull a folded piece of paper from his jean pocket. Very good. We are now making progress. He handed it to me and then scooted to the bench that sat just outside the parlor. I sighed as he crumpled onto it.

Dear Dad,

Look, knowing you this will be very hard to understand, but I will start with a simple 'I love you.' And I mean that. I really do. So here I go. This is a goodbye letter dad. I am going away for a while, but don't worry I will be okay. Yes, I am going alone, but at least this way you know I won't be getting some girl pregnant. That was supposed to be a joke, but somehow I doubt you're laughing. Hahaha, I never thought I would really go through with this, but believe it or not I have been wanting to for a while. Do me a favor and tell Kagome that I love her and will always be grateful for the shit she went through. I know it was hard for her to work instead of live. And she did it for me. So I am doing this for her, and you too of course. With me gone you both can start concentrating on what is really important. Kagome can go to college and you can take that job down in Boston. If you are wondering how I am going to make it, don't worry I made sure I had a job before I left. So no big deal. I am almost grown anyway. Back in the day when a boy turned sixteen he was a true man. So here I am a man on his own. I love you guys so much. You have no idea. Goodbye dad. Bye sis. Talk to you guys later.

Love,

Your man,

Souta

So what did you think...any suggestions...i finally came up with a way to have Inuyasha find out so conragulate me!

Ok now think about these statistics!

Birthdays are good for you. Statistics show that people who have the most live the longest!

On average, 100 people choke to death on ballpoint pens every year.

You are more likely to be attacked by a donkey than be bitten by a shark.

If you are one in a million, there are at least 100 people exactly like you in china

It is physically impossible to lick your elbow...
...75 of people who read this try to do it!

Termites eat through wood 2 times faster when listening to rock music.

90 of the worlds population are idiots and the other 10 ar in great danger of contamination

If 90 of the people in the world dont have it, why do they call it common sense?

Catch ya on the flipydo side!

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