Sorry that I didn't update in a while. I have the next chapter already typed up so I'll probably put it up in about a week.
Still don't own.
Now the chapter!
"Mmmm. . .oh. . .Yama. . .oh. .."
Must he make that noise while he's eating? Seriously, those noises don't belong in the kitchen. Way to make me blush Rick, good job. The foods probably not that good anyway. All I did was whip up something quickly.
"Oh Yama these are the best eggs I've ever had."
"Really?" It's hard to hide my disbelief. How can my eggs be the best? I'm sure everyone makes them pretty much the same way. Well, some people like them over easy and some like them boiled. I scramble them. I wonder how many ways you could make eggs? Stupid Taichi, I blame him for making me think such things.
"What kind of meat is mixed in with it?" Rick asked.
What kind of meat did I put in it? It doesn't really look like hamburger, but it's not ham or chicken. Hmmm. . .fish? I've now officially lost my appetite. I know it's not fish, but it could be a mixture of all of the above. Like hot dogs. Turkey, ham and chicken all rolled into one. Yummy. I'm even sarcastic in my head.
"I don't know what kind of meat it is."
"Mystery meat, my favorite. You going to eat yours?"
I push my plate over to him, a little disgusted that he's going to eat seconds.
"So, got any plans today?"
"No."
"Good, we need to talk."
Not good. No guy just comes into your house, tells you your food is good when you know it's not, and then tells you that 'we need to talk' unless it's bad news. Hell, no guy ever says that unless it's really bad. Guys just don't talk.
What could we possibly need to talk about?
Fuck. . .he can't.
"What do you want to talk about?"
"I don't think that this is working."
"You're breaking up with me?"
I guess it was bound to happen. I won't even let the guy touch me. We've been dating for almost a year now and the most we've ever done was hold hands. I'm just not ready to let someone come that close to me. I'm not ready for someone to come into my heart.
I thought that I was ready when I started dating him, but I guess I wasn't.
"Yes. I'm sorry Yamato."
"I understand. I'm not the best boyfriend ever."
"Yamato I. . .no you really aren't are you."
"I'm sorry for wasting your time."
"You didn't waste my time Yama. I enjoyed the time we had together. I just need something . . .more. I need to be held, I need. . ."
"Sex?"
"Yeah! You don't know how hard it's been. I wanted you so badly, but your so stubborn. So you see, I can't date you anymore because I won't be able to handle myself around you."
"You're lying."
"What do you mean?"
"I don't think you want to jump me."
"Oh no?"
"No. You want sex, but you don't want me." I smirk. Look at him, he's nervous. I must be on to something. "You want that guy you work with. The one with the glasses."
"Yes. He wants to go out with me too. I didn't feel comfortable with going out with him when you were still my boyfriend. So, that's another reason why I need to end this."
I don't really know how this makes me feel. I'm not happy that's for sure. It's not a happy thing to be dumped, even if it was doomed from the beginning. I'm probably just not meant to be loved. Not meant to love. It's something I can't do.
"I. . .I'll never . . .I don't feel comfortable around people. I felt somewhat okay around you. That's why I thought. . .I guess I just didn't feel comfortable enough. I guess I just. . .I'm so fucked up no one will ever . . ." I'm not crying. I'm not crying.
"Yama, it's okay. You'll find someone out there someday. You're just a kid now. You still have time."
"I'm not a kid."
"Yamato, have you ever considered counseling? It might help."
"Shut up. Get out of my house."
"Yama, I. . .I didn't mean to hurt you. I thought that this would be . . .don't look at me like that. I want to help you. I do care about you, just not that way. I want to be friends."
"Well, maybe I don't want to be friends with you."
"Yamato, I know you've been hurt. I know that your family life isn't the best. I didn't mean to hurt you're feelings. I want to help you."
"You can help me by getting out of my house. You already told me I was worthless! I hope this new guy is everything that I wasn't."
I don't know why I'm being like this. He probably was trying to be nice, but it still hurts. He's already got another guy. Sure, they're not dating yet, but he's still there. I shouldn't feel so bitter about it. This relationship was over the day it started. I guess I just needed to pretend that someone loved me.
"I'll be back later, after you've cooled down a little. Don't do anything stupid." Rick said.
"Bye."
Rick is 24. I see Yama dating older people, but mostly just see him dating Tai. Please Review!