Author's Note: This is a fan fiction that I wrote because I'm feeling down right now and I hope you like it. Don't worry no one dies or anything like that. The memories start out in Ginny's fifth year.
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Our Love Is Forever
Ginny's POV
I woke up because of something pecking at my window. I looked up and smiled, knowing exactly who the owl belonged to. As I opened the window to get the letter from the owl, I got an owl treat to thank the owl for coming. Once the owl had flown away, I shut the window and ran over to my bed, pulling the curtains shut tight. I lit my wand, opened the letter, and grinned as I read:
Ginny-
Please meet me by the lake as soon as you get this. I have a surprise for you.
-Will be waiting
Draco
When I finished reading, I leaped out of bed and dressed as quickly, as nicely, and as warmly, as I could seeing as it is winter. After grabbing my cloak, I raced out of Gryffindor Tower, and then out of the castle. Heading towards the lake, I saw no sign of Draco anywhere. I started to get worried, when after waiting for 10 minutes he still hadn't shown up. After waiting for 15 more minutes, I turned around and started to walk back towards the castle, angry that Draco stood me up. But when I passed by the big oak tree by the lake, I thought I heard something so I turned around.
"Hello? Is anyone there? Draco?", I whispered quietly. When no one answered, I crept towards the other side of the tree. 'NO! He wouldn't! He told me he loved me!' On the hidden side of the tree Draco was kissing Pansy. I backed up, trying to be as quiet as possible. My luck wasn't with me today because I snapped a branch under my foot. Draco pushed Pansy away and looked straight towards me. I started to back away, feeling my eyes start to burn with tears. Draco reached out his hand towards me but I just kept backing up.
"Ginny! It's not what it looks like, I swear!", he said quickly, looking at me with pleading eyes. I didn't care that there were tears streaming down my face, or that my heart was breaking. I just let him have it.
"Oh, really", I say smirking sadly at him. "It looks to me like you were making out with Pansy-pug face-Parkinson. What was that note? A sick joke to break my heart. Well congratulations Draco, it worked." He took a step towards me, his eyes getting wide and shaking his head like he really didn't mean to kiss Pansy. No way was I going to believe him now. "I gave you my heart completely. I don't know why I did but I loved you and trusted you with my life, but now I realize that I should never have trusted you when you obviously never loved me. It was all a lie!", I yelled at him turning around and walking faster.
I heard him yell after me, "Ginny, please, I can explain!" When I heard him start to walk after me, I started to run back to the castle, tears burning my eyes and rolling down my cheeks, not caring that I was already freezing.
I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
I ran to the castle, in the doors, and up the main staircase. Not knowing where I was going, but not caring. All I knew was that I had to get away from him.
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
Thinking that I had lost him after running through random hallways and up many different staircases, I ran towards the door in front of me, opened it, ran through, and slammed it shut behind me, leaning against it and then sliding to the floor. I looked up and realized where I was. The astronomy tower. The place where Draco first kissed me and told me he loved me. I shakily stood up to go sit at the window, staring out through it.
Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone
I started shaking with sobs as the memories of this place came slamming into me.
These wounds won't seem to heal
I cry even harder as I realize that I meant nothing to him. I was just a stupid joke. My heart feels like it's tearing in two.
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
I look at different places in the room and remember all the things we did here.
Middle of the room
Our first date was a picnic and I laughed at his jokes. I remember thinking, 'For a quiet guy he has a wonderful sense of humor'.
Where I'm sitting
Six months after we started dating, we met up here and he told me that he'd love me forever. Then he kissed me.
The left corner of the room
Ten months, almost a year of bliss together, Draco and I announced our relationship to the Golden Trio, otherwise known as Harry Potter, my brother, Ronald Weasley, and Hermione Granger, who thank god had finally gotten together with Ron. But the announcement went worse than I had expected and believe me I had expected really bad. After we told them everyone was extremely silent. The person I was most concerned about was Ron because he usually explodes whenever he finds out I'm dating someone, but for some reason he was deadly quiet. "Ron?", I ask nervously. When he looks at me all I see is hate and betrayal. He stands up and I take a step back feeling slightly scared at the way he's acting. What he says next I never want to hear again.
"You're no longer my sister. I wish you never were my sister. To me all you are is a nobody. I no longer have a sister. Don't come near me ever again." Looking at Harry, who I consider to be another brother I see that he's looking just as cold as Ron. But Hermione's looking at me with something else. Is that sympathy and understanding I see in her eyes? At least I have one friend...But Ron...I don't want to lose him. He's my brother by blood. He's always taking care of me...I bow my head down and squeeze my eyes shut to try to keep from crying. But it doesn't do me any good. Tears are already streaming down my face. I lift my head up again, tears of sadness and hurt rolling down my face. Looking at Hermione I can tell that she's about to run over to me but I shake my head at her. She doesn't need to have Harry and Ron mad at her as well. I look at Harry and notice that he doesn't look as angry with me as he did a minute ago. But when I turn towards Ron he still has the same expression of hate and betrayal on his face as he did a minute ago. I breathe in shakily thinking of what I'm about to say.
"If that's the way you want it Ron then I will leave you alone. But I want you to know that no matter what you think of me, and even though you don't consider me to be your sister anymore, I will always love you and consider you as my brother." I focus on all three of them when I speak next, "Goodbye." I look up at Draco and notice that he's seething and looks like he's about to beat the crap out of Ron. I catch his gaze and shake my head sadly. When he looks at me finally his anger fades away and is replaced with concern for me. "There doesn't need to be a fight over this, Draco", I say as I start to turn around. I calmly walk towards the door, but once I'm outside the Room of Requirement and have shut the door behind me I start to run, tears streaming quickly down my face. I end up at the astronomy tower. I run to the darkest corner of the room at the top of the tower and collapse to the floor, leaning against the wall, sobs wracking my body. I don't know how long I've been crying but eventually I hear the door crack open. I lift my head up off my arms slightly to see who it is but I already have a good idea of who it is.
"Ginny? Are you in here?", asks a voice, who sounds a lot like Draco.
"Draco?", I ask helplessly, still shaking with sobs. He looks over to where I'm sitting and rushes over.
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
He conjures a lounge chair and picks me up. He walks over to the chair and sits down in it, holding me against him. I hug him tightly trying to hold in the tears. But when he realizes that I'm trying not to keep from crying on him he hugs me tightly and speaks to me. "Oh, Ginny, I thought you knew this already. But I guess you don't." The way he's talking makes it seem like he's gong to dump me. I snap my head up to look at him confused. He smiles at me comfortingly and says, "Ginny, I love you dearly, you don't have to act strong around me all the time. I don't care if you cry on me or not. I just don't like seeing you suffer. Don't you trust me?", he asks, looking at me.
"Of course I trust you, Draco. I always have", I answer seriously.
"Then let me comfort you when you need comforting. Ginny, what Ron did was wrong. He shouldn't have hurt you like that. I know you're hurting because of it. Let it go, let it all out, I'll be right here with you", he says and hugs me to him again. "Just let it out, Ginny", he says, "I'll be here for you the whole time. I love you", he says stroking my back to relax me. I feel my eyes starting to water after he says that and I hug him tightly, as I let down my walls and release all the pain, and hurt from what Ron said to me. Draco just stays there hugging me and whispering soothingly to me the whole time I'm crying. Before I start to fall asleep against him from the exhaustion I'm feeling from crying so much I realize something and decide to tell Draco as I'm starting to drift off.
"I love you, Draco. I'll love you my entire life." Then I fall asleep, knowing that he would always be there for me.
The roof of the tower
A year and a half after we started dating, and just three months after Draco had helped Ron and I make up...Never really did find out how he did that...Anyways, apparently somehow Lucius Malfoy, Draco's father, had found out about us dating. I had been having as normal a day as anyone can at Hogwarts, but whenever I met up with Draco, he seemed to be acting strange. He looked paler than normal and he was really jumpy, and kept looking around whenever we met up like he was looking to make sure someone wasn't following us. Then, that night I got a letter from him, asking me to meet him on the roof of the astronomy tower at 11. I found that a little odd because we always just meet on the top floor of the tower, never the roof. But thinking that I'd be able to find out why he'd been acting so weird, I left the common room and began the walk towards the tower. But when I got to the roof I didn't see anyone there. Getting a little nervous, I whispered, "Draco, are you here?" Except I didn't see him anywhere. Hearing someone come up behind me I started to turn around.
"Oh, Draco's not here, but I am you little brat", Lucius Malfoy snarled at me.
"W-What do you want?", I ask nervously.
He sneers at me and says, "Oh nothing...Except to get rid of you!", he yells at me.
"W-What did I do?", I ask shakily.
"What did you do, you ask? Oh nothing, nothing at all. Except turn my only son against me and the Dark Lord!", he shouted at me, advancing forward. Feeling terrified I started to back up, but each time I moved back, Lucius stepped forward. Eventually, I felt the edge of the roof bump my leg. Realizing I was trapped between Lucius and the edge of the roof, I started to panic. "Nowhere left to run you little runt", he sneered at me. All of a sudden the door to the roof slammed open and to my delight, Draco was here.
"Let her go, father", Draco said calmly. Only that was not Draco being calm. That was Draco's calm tone when he is extremely angry.
"Why so she can turn you into her lap dog? I think not." Saying so he stretched out his arm and shoved me backwards.
I saw Draco lift his wand, point it at his father, and heard him say, "Petrificus Totalus", as I stumbled backwards. Lucius was knocked out cold from the force of it. But then my foot slipped.
Feeling myself start to fall over the edge I screamed, but there was barely any way Draco could get to me in time, but I screamed anyway, "Draco!" He heard me and turned around. He started to run towards me but by then I was all the way over the edge. I reached out my hand to try to grab the edge and I was able to hold it for a second but then my hand slipped. "Draco!", I yelled, squeezing my eyes shut preparing for the fall. But then I felt my arm jolt and I opened my eyes and looked up.
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
There stood Draco, sweating and all, holding my wrist. He started to pull me up. "Hold on, Ginny. I've got you", he said to me. Once he had pulled me back onto the roof I collapsed to the ground crying. Draco kneeled down next to me and hugged me against him, rubbing my hair and my back to soothe me.
"Draco, I-I thought that was it! I thought I was going to die!", I whimper out, through my tears. "Shh. Ginny. It's alright now. I've got you and I'm never letting you go. It's alright. I've got you now, you're safe", he whispered, holding me tightly against him. Eventually he summoned Dumbledore, who called the Ministry and had them take Lucius to Azkaban Prison. But we stayed there the rest of the night, Draco holding me and comforting me, and me hugging Draco.
But you still have
All of me
sigh'Why, Draco, why did you do this to me? To us? Did you ever truly love me or was it all just an act? I gave you my heart and all you did was break it. Was I not good enough for you? Did you not think I was beautiful enough? What happened, Draco, what!'
You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
'You were always so kind and gentle with me Draco. You aways pulled out my chair for me or you would open the door for me. You were always such a gentleman. What changed between us? What caused you to start being this way?...Why did you stop loving me? I don't know what changed Draco, but even though you may have stopped loving me I think I'll always love you.'
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
It's night outside now. I have no idea how long I've been here and I'm starting to feel drowsy but I don't move. I've drained all my energy from crying. As I start to feel myself nod off I think of him one last time. 'Draco, please just tell me why you did this to me. Please.' falls asleep
Ginny's Dream
'Huh? Where am I? What's going on?', I think as I look around trying to figure out where I am. Then I recognize the tree. It used to be our tree...Draco's and mine. Now it's ruined. Everything is totally ruined all because of when he kissed Pansy. 'Wait a minute. This looks like earlier today. What's going on?', I think as I look around. I head over towards where I was supposed to meet Draco earlier...Then I see them. Kissing. All over again. But this time it's different. I walk up to them and when I'm right behind them Draco turns around and sneers at me. "It's over between us Weaselette. Get lost. I hate you", he says cruelly. I start to feel light-headed and sweaty. 'No, this can't be happening. This can't be real', I think as everything starts to blur and gets dark...
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
-wakes up and blinks-'What? Where am I?', I think as the memories of yesterday start to drift through my head. As I remember the dream I had, I feel my eyes start to water.
Your voice it chased away,
All the sanity in me
'No Ginny, don't let him win. Don't show him your hurting. Get up, go to class, and act normal. Don't show him he's won', a voice said inside me. 'But he already has', I think to myself as I stand up and look out the window. 'Daybreak. Potions starts at daybreak...Wait a minute! Daybreak! Crap, Snape's going to kill me!', I think as I slam open the tower door, run down the stairs, through the halls, to my dorm, grab my books, and run to the Dungeons. 'Please just let me slide this once', I pray as I open the door. As I open the door people turn around and stare at me. 'Ignore them, Ginny. They don't matter', I think to myself as I walk to my seat calmly, while staring straight ahead. Snape takes a glance at me and stands up.
"Miss Weasley, you do realize you've missed half of my class, do you not?", he asks me while looking at me.
"I know, Professor, and I'm truly sorry. I-I..", I trail off and look down, but then hear someone knock on the classroom door. I look up and feel like I just got thrown into a wall.
These wounds won't seem to heal,
This pain is just to real
'Draco...', I think as I watch him enter the room. He looks up as though he feels me staring at him and sees me. His eyes widen in shock and he opens his mouth to speak but is interrupted.
"Thank you, Mr. Malfoy. Tell Professor Sprout that I'll have it sent down as soon as I can", Snape said as he stuck his hand out for Draco to take the note. "Mr. Malfoy!", Snape snapped at Draco, "Is there a problem?", Snape asked icily as he noticed Draco staring at me. I could only bow my head as I felt my eyes starting to water again.
"No, sir, none at all", Draco answered stiffly as he left the room. Snape turned and looked at me after Draco left.
"Miss Weasley, come see me after class", Snape told me coldly as he turned around and sat back down at his desk.
"Yes, Professor", I answer quietly, as I try to stop shaking.
End of Potions
'Please don't give me a detention, please just don't give me a detention', I prayed as I walked up to Snape's desk.
"Miss Weasley, I noticed that you seemed a bit distracted in class today. I there something that's troubling you," Professor Snape asked, making me almost fall over from shock.
"I-I...", I stuttered for a minute trying to comprehend that he really was concerned about what was bothering me. "N-No, Professor Snape. Nothing's bothering me. Really," I ramble out quickly, then stare at the ground. I sneak a look at Professor Snape to see his reaction to what I said, but can't tell what he's thinking.
"Are you absolutely sure, Miss Weasley?", he asks while staring me directly in the eyes. I start to squirm and wish I could just get out of the classroom.
"Y-Yes, Professor Snape, I'm absolutely-," I start to answer but the opening of the door to the classroom cuts me off. I jerk around, only to see Draco walking into the room.
"Professor Snape, Professor Sprout wanted to thank-," Draco stops suddenly as he sees me. "Ginny-," he starts to speak to me but I cut him off.
"Save it, Draco. I'm sick of this. I-I-Excuse me, Professor," I mutter out quickly, before dashing from the room, feeling my eyes start to burn from tears. I hear footsteps behind me and I start to run faster. I can't let him catch me, not now.
There's just too much that time cannot erase
"Ginny! Ginny, wait! Let me explain!", Draco shouts down the hallway to me. I just shake my head and keep on running, trying to keep him from catching me.
"Leave me alone, Draco!", I yell back at him while running. "You've already done what Pansy and yourself had planned to do! Now just leave me alone!", I scream at him harshly, while trying to see clearly through the tears running down my face. I see the Castle doors ahead of me, I slam them open and run outside, only just then realizing that there's a blizzard outside. But I hear him running after me so I don't stop running. I don't know how long I ran for but eventually I collapsed. My legs couldn't bear to run any longer. I tried to stand up, but my legs gave out under me. I just sat there looking around not knowing where I was, but not really caring at the time, even as sobs continued to wrack my body. All I knew was that I had gotten away from Draco.
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your of your tears
Nightfall
I don't know how long I've been sitting here, but I know it has been a while cause it's starting to get dark. I tried to stand again, but like before my legs gave out under me, only this time from the cold. I start shivering even more and start feeling sleepy. 'No, Ginny. You have to stay awake! You can't fall asleep out here, if you do you'll freeze to death', I think to myself forcing my eyes to stay open. But then I start to feel weaker. 'I-I can't do it. I'm so exhausted. I-I'm so cold. My body is freezing...', I think as my eyesight starts to go dark.
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
I think I hear someone shouting , but then just pass it off as the wind. 'It's too late out now. No one would be out looking for me right now', I think as I fall over on my side into the snow. I think I hear it again, but by then I'm only half conscious. Suddenly, I feel arms wrap around me and pick me up, and I hear someone talking, but they sound so far away. "Ginny! Ginny, talk to me!", I hear someone shout at me, even though it sounds like a whisper. I'm still shivering and try and get closer to the person.
"S-So c-cold. I'm so cold", I stutter out quietly. Suddenly, I feel something being wrapped around me and I start to feel a little warmer.
And I held your hand through all of these years
"I've got you now, Ginny. You're safe. You're going to be fine. Madame Pomfrey is waiting at the castle, just hang on. I've got you", I hear the person say as everything starts to go dark.
"T-Thank you", I manage to whisper out before I pass out and everything goes dark.
But you still have
All of me
Daybreak
-starts to wake up-'Uggh, where-where am I?' I wonder as I try to get used to the brightness in the room...Then I notice that someone is asleep next to my bed. 'Draco? Wha-What is he doing in here!', I start to panic when I realize he could wake up soon.
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
'Gotta get out of the bed, gotta get out of the bed!', I repeat to myself over and over, as I slowly slide towards the edge of the bed, away from his chair. I manage to get one foot on the floor, but as I move to set the other one on the floor and stand up, my foot gets caught in the blanket and I'm no longer on the bed, but on the floor. 'Okay, that hurt' I think to myself as I try to stand up again. "God, I hate feeling so weak", I mutter to myself as I manage to get to my feet, but just barely, with my whole body trembling. Suddenly, I hear something starting to move behind me. 'Oh God, why's he have to wake up now?' I glance around and notice a window seat, and I hurry over to it as fast as I can before he wakes up. I manage to seat myself and look out the window by the time I hear him starting to come around. 'Phew', I mentally sigh in relief as I continue to stare out the window waiting for him to notice. 'Five, four, three, two, on-', I start to countdown the seconds and as expected, right when I hit one he notices.
"Ginny? What are you doing over there? You're supposed to stay in bed!", he starts to lecture me, but I could care less at the moment. I just stare at him, not blocking how I'm feeling, but showing him just how much he's hurt me. He doesn't seem to notice or if he does he just keeps talking. 'Alright, that's it!', I think to myself as I stand up and calmly walk over to him. He's so busy ranting he doesn't even notice. 'God, this better get you to shut up', I think bitterly as I slap him right across the face. He stares at me in shock and then goes to speak again, but I interrupt him.
"Shut up, Draco. Just shut up. I don't get why you're acting so damn caring all of a sudden when just two days ago, you were snogging Pansy. You're what made me like this, Draco, nothing else did it. God, I can barely focus anymore thanks to you. You planned to ruin my life, well you succeeded very well in doing so. I loved you, I loved you with all my heart, but I guess it was never good enough was it? What was I thinking? I actually thought that you could care about me, but once again you turned about to be exactly how everyone says you are. A cold, heartless, jerk!" I shout at him and then turn and walk towards the window again, because I feel tears starting to fall down my face.
But though you're still with me
"Ginny, please. Let me explain-", he starts to say, but I cut him off and shaking my head I turn to him once more.
I've been alone all along
"Explain what, Draco? Explain that what I saw was supposedly a figment of my imagination. Forget it, and forget about me. Just leave me alone", I manage to get out in a whisper as I start to sob.
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
All of a sudden I start to feel dizzy, and my legs give out under me. I brace myself for the impact of the tile floor, but instead someone wraps their arms around my waist and gently kneels down and helps me sit on the floor...'Draco..', I think briefly as I try to focus my vision, and then I feel someone stroking my hair. 'Draco...'I feel so dizzy from looking around that I just rest my head on their shoulder trying to stop everything from spinning. Finally, I start to feel normal again, and then I realize just who it is that's holding me. Suddenly, I struggle a bit and shove him away from me. 'How much more must he make me suffer?' I cry silently to myself.
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
"DON'T touch me, Draco. You've done enough damage as it is. Please just leave!" I cry out at him and then bury my head in my hands. Suddenly, I feel him wrap his arms around me again, but by then I'm so weak I no longer can fight it. He pulls me closer and starts to speak. 'Please just let this end', I think to myself as I just let him talk.
"Ginny, please forgive me. I'm so sorry for what happened. I never planned it, any of it. I don't care about Pansy and I never, ever will. I know you probably won't believe me, or what I'm about to say, but it's the truth. I woke up that morning and was planning to see you, so we could hopefully go to Hogsmeade and eat at one of the places there, like we always do. I decided to grab a snack from the Great Hall first and while I was there I drank some of the pumpkin juice from one of the goblets. I didn't realize it then because I started feeling strange, but Pansy had been watching me very closely at the table. I started to go into a trance of some sort and had no clue where I was or what was going on until I heard you come up behind me. I snapped out of it, and then realized what had happened. I wasn't totally sure what Pansy had slipped me, but then I spoke to Professor Snape, and after doing some tests he confirmed that I had been slipped a love potion of some sort. The only catch with the one she gave me is that, if someone shows up that the person is truly in love with, then the potion loses its effect over the person who took it..." I hear him stop and then look up at him. 'Is he really telling the truth?' I wonder to myself as I stare at him as his eyes look at mine with.. Is that love?
And I held your hand through all of these years
"Please, Ginny. Please just give me another chance. I don't want to lose you, please just give me another chance. Please, Ginny, I-I-I love you", he says to me with sincerity in his eyes and he hasn't told me that in weeks. 'Should I?' I start to consider everything and then realize it makes sense, everything all makes sense. 'He really loves me, Draco really does love me!' I start to mentally ramble to myself and look down at the floor for a second trying to stay calm, but I can't help it. I lunge at him and wrap my arms tightly around his waist. I feel him go stiff for a second, but then he relaxes and hugs me tightly. I look up into his eyes once more and open my mouth to say something.
"Just promise me one thing, Draco, and then I'll stay with you forever", I say softly, while looking into his eyes.
But you still have
"Anything, Ginny, anything at all. I just want you back", he tells me quickly, and with what looks like hope in his eyes.
"Just promise me this. Promise me that you'll never, ever leave me. I love you, and I don't know if I could bear to lose you", I whisper to him, and rest my head on his shoulder.
"I promise you, Ginny, I'll never, ever leave you or let anything come between us. I love you too, Ginny. Very much. You'll always have me. All of me", he promises me and then lifts my face up to his and kisses me.
All of me