Desideria's coat gleamed like the moon, as it always did. I wiped my hands on my skirts, as I looked down I noticed my dress was completely dirty. My dresses were always dirty, so no difference. I started combing through her silver tail, it was hard work but it was the only happiness I got.

Rowan had left about an hour before I had started to tend to Desideria after our day out; or I should say MY day out. He had to be the knight in shining armor and 'save me' from Dante. Really he was just being an arsehole to put it straight; only thing he does best.

One of my maids came into the riding school, she seemed nervous though she always was around animals. I paid no attention and went back to combing Desideria's tail while thinking of ways to defeat Rowan at the next ball; which was in a few days. Desideria turned her white head and nipped the nearest part of me, which was my leg. Tend to forget about her faire blood, everyone else in the school didn't forget…except me.

"Your highness, I have a message for you" the maid curtseyed and stayed a fair distance from the mare. Though Des was trying to show she wasn't lethal…all the time. This won her a pat from the maid, only because of her beauty.

"Thank you; is it a letter or…" I trailed off lost in thought.

"Oh no highness, it's from your mother she says that you and the family are leaving for Kyrria in an hour" she seemed no longer scared of the mare but more bewitched by her.

I stopped combing her and stood perfectly still staring at the ground. I had totally forgotten about going to Kyrria, but with the things I've done lately, it was easy to forget. I smiled at the maid "Thank you; you may leave".

I turned back to Desideria and took her to her stall; fresh straw and feed had been placed from the stable boys. Flicking her tail she forgot about everything else in the world and went to the feed, smiling I left her to her pleasures.

"Um Highness?" I had forgotten about the maid, she was still standing there.

"Yes is there anything else"

"The queen wants you to get ready now, your bags have already been taken to Kyrria and everyone is waiting to leave now" she was nervous again, but the thought of the royals angry made everyone nervous…except me.

I was alone as I walked up the tower steps to my bedroom. As I went past Rowans room I thought of doing something stupid but thought better of it. The rest of the way up to my room I ran, jumping two steps at a time. I opened the door and walked straight to my bed, not noticing the visitor I had, I jumped on my bed face first.

"Well that definitely isn't ladylike"

I shouldn't have been shocked to hear his voice, but I was. "Get out before I kick you in the groin"

I rolled over and stared at Rowan; who was sitting at the end of my bed. He had his usual grin and twinkle in his eyes. "God are you ever ladylike?"

"Are you ever not annoying? Or not around me?" I stared up at the ceiling; I just couldn't look at him anymore; not after this morning.

You didn't answer my question" his voice was closer to me; I dared a glance and found he was lying right beside me. I turned over on my side with my back to him.

"Yes I am ladylike when YOU are not around" I scowled into my pillow. "Answer my questions"

"I'm not annoying and there is no where else as fun around you"

"Fun around me?" did anyone else notice the hint of sarcasm. I turned over and stared at him, it must have been minutes that we just lay there looking in each others eyes. Finally I stood up and grabbed the blue dress that had been set out for me.

"We should get ready" I was already behind my blind putting on the dress.

"You mean, you should get ready" he said it like it was obvious, which I guess it was.

"What do you mean?" I came out with my hands on my hips defiantly. At the sight of me he started grinning and tried hard not to laugh.

"You didn't choose that dress did you?"

'What…" I stared down at my dress, predictable low neck-line push up gown. I rolled my eyes and walked over to the door. "We are going now"

I came down the tower as calm as I could, which was surprisingly calm. Rowan was running to try and catch up to me, but I ignored him. By the time I was at the door he was right behind me, breathing hard and scowling. I just smiled and walked out into the entrance hall. He locked his hand around mine and gave me a meaningful look.

"Alright Lily sweetheart you are in the second carriage with Rowan" I nearly glared at my at my mother but Rowan squeezed my hand and I remembered the whole engagement thing; instead I smiled and watched as she, dad, Ella and Char went to the first carriage. I could have sworn Rowan was grinning.

As soon as we were in the carriage I pulled the blinds down and sat as far away from Rowan.

"Great impression on the villagers" he stretched out on the seat across from me.

"I don't care, they can think whatever they want" I had closed my eyes and was hoping sleep would claim me.

"Oh great, they might think we are having sex in here" he sounded hopeful. I just laughed at him.

"Don't get your hopes up"

Faintly I heard him sigh; I opened my eyes and stared at the inside of the carriage. It was very simple, clean and wide enough for three ogres. Even though it was simple, it was somehow enchanting. The fairy designs could have had to do with it. I sat up and stared at the sleeping Rowan, I noticed how cute he was with his chest rising and falling. He had taken off his doublet and was laying there in his breeches, black riding boots and white shirt. Some of the buttons on his shirt had come undone to show me a nice peek at his hairless muscled chest. I leaned over him and brushed the side of his cheek with my fingers.

"What are you doing" the sound of his voice shocked me that I fell to the floor, but he didn't sound angry but more like curious. My head throbbed as I placed my hand over it, I hissed at the pain.

"Lily are you alright?" did he actually sound worried. I tried to stand up but found I was already up; I was sitting in his lap.

"I am fine" I got up and dumped myself on the other seat opposite him. I turned my back to him and tried to rest.

"Well sorry for trying to be nice"

"You weren't trying to be nice; you don't even care" my voice was muffled from the pillows but I knew he could still hear me.

"I do care" he was being defensive.

"Yeah you care about the fan of girls who want to rape you…Oops did I say that?"

I was satisfied to hear a growl from his part of the carriage.

"You would be surprised at how much I care about us"

"What us? There is no us" I sat up and stared at him; where was he going with this.

"So what is the engagement?" he stared at me as though making a point. I just glared back at him.

"That was only because you kissed me in front of the news reporter so everyone now thinks that" I shot right back at him with my point.

"But still you kissed back; even in my room you kissed back, don't deny it"

"Yes I admit I kissed you back but it means nothing to me, I wish none of this had happened"

"Well I'm glad it happened and it was going to happen sooner or later". He sounded hurt but right then I didn't care.

"What you're glad just so you can get those girls off your back?". I didn't have to hurt him physically but mentally was good enough.

"I don't care about the girls! Haven't you been listening to me" he looked annoyed now. That's it just drive him a bit further.

"I have been listening but you don't make much sense"

"Get the point will you, I want us to be married" his words shocked me so much that I went silent for a few minutes.

"You can't seriously be telling the truth?" I stared at him in horror. He ran a hand through his crispy hair.

"Yes I am telling the truth. Would I lie to you?" he looked frustrated.

"Hmm let me think…yes" he was starting to annoy me.

"We have known each other for our whole lives and have I ever lied to you?" he started to look more like himself.

"Lied I don't know; hurt me I…. a definite yes"

I smiled sweetly at him then sneaked a peek under the blinds. The sun was setting, throwing the sky into shades of pink, orange and yellow. I gasped at the beauty.

"Look I am sorry for that but still you know deep down you love me"

I had totally forgotten he was there; I had been fixed upon the sky that I felt relaxed again. But his words brought me back into reality.

"If you had ever asked me to marry you I would have said no" I said the words with a passion; but it did hurt to see his face crumble.

"Fine I give in; it's not worth the pain". He sat in the corner opposite me scowling.

"What are you giving in?" He had always fought for what he wanted; he would never give in now.

"All this; if you truly don't want it then I will call it off when we get to the palace"

The words sunk in like a dagger to the heart, I didn't know what to say, a part of me didn't want it to end.

"No you can't do that!" I nearly screamed at him. He looked up at me stunned.

"What do you mean no? You just said you didn't want it and you hated it"

"I didn't say I hate it and well it wouldn't be good for the kingdoms"

He looked surprised at that, grinning like nothing had happened.

"Well in the end we will have to tell them all" he was calm again but more so ever he looked peaceful. My heart sank a little at his words.

"Yes in the end; but for now I suppose we had better act more….nicer"

I moved over to sit beside him; I wrapped his arm around me and laid my head on his chest. With him stroking my hair I was soon able to fall asleep.

wow i think this was the worst chapter shudders

WellI don't really know where I am going with this but I will soon find out. Nothing much is happening between Rowan and Liliania, all they will get up to is kiss and stuff. No one would read it if I put a sex scene in. Or would you? please review and tell me! lol