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A/n- I am so sorry for not updating sooner!!!!! But here's the next chapter!!!!
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When the Christmas Holidays ended and the school weeks flew by, Lily was much more tense and silent. She rarely talked to anyone, unless it was her little group of friends, James, and the professors. Some of professors noticed what was happening, but didn't comment on it, thinking it was just a stage she was going through, not knowing what had happened at home. However, some knew different and was concerned for her. James couldn't help but worry... He worried every second of the day, especially when he wasn't around her. He was afraid someone would hurt her and break her beyond his repair. That was what woke him up at night drenched in a cold sweat.
Lily's friends were helping Lily get through this, or trying to help her. None of them really knew what to say to make her smile or laugh, none of them knew or felt the pain that coursed through her every second of the day. They all saw that she was getting more and more depressed everyday, but yet they couldn't do anything to help her. It was as if they were talking to rock and nothing penetrated it. As if she was on a totally different planet and they could never reach her. Their worry increased by the day, grew by night, none ever fully having a peace nights rest and suffered like she did... but Lily suffered the most.
Lily was restless, she hardly ever felt safe or relaxed. The day would seem to last an eternity to her, making her suffer endlessly and making her listen to the insults that people would throw toward her... namely the Slytherins. The nights though... the nights were the hardest on her. She dreaded when the sun would lower itself below the horizon and would be replaced by the moon. She dreaded when she would lay down to go to sleep. The night was truly hell for her. She would be haunted by memories and her father, she would go through everything all over again. She would wake up screaming at night, the tears running freely down her cheeks intermingling with the cold sweat that chilled her to the bone. She would never be able to go back to sleep again, but the memory would always be there... would always torture her. The nightmares all felt so real to her, she could feel his body on top of hers and his hot breath on her neck. However, no knew of her nightly terrors, no one knew how much she suffered at night... no one. She had made sure of that thanks to magic.
The dark circles and bags under her eyes and her deathly pale skin and lifeless dull red hair making her seem like a zombie. People stayed away from her now, well most people. They didn't want to associate with someone like her and they made that known. Some of the professors were even avoiding her, giving her a harder time then usual manly the ones who favored Slytherin, there were others though. But Lily didn't care, not anymore... all she felt was pain. Her days were darkened now, the light that once had shown hidden under masses of heavy darkness... suffocating, dieing away... and taking Lily with it.
Lily blended in quiet well with the depressed and dark walls of the dungeon staircase. She didn't feel the dampness or the coldness of it, all was dark and cold in her world... always. Her light footsteps made quiet echoes off the walls, making her clutch her books tighter to her chest. Her eyes were cast downwards, like usual, as she walked making it impossible to see the two tall figures step out in front of her, evil smirks planted on their faces.
"Watch it you mudblood slut!" A voice sneered at her, when she bumped into them. Lily quickly looked up to see who she had ran into. Snape and Malfoy.
She didn't reply, knowing whatever she said wouldn't help... it never did. "Don't you have anything to say?" Snape spat at her.
Lily looked at him before looking at the ground. It was a lost cause to try and fight with them. After all they were going to do what ever the wanted to her no matter what she did, why make it even worse for her. Might as well get it over with, it was bound to happen sooner or later.
Malfoy grabbed Lily roughly by the arms and slammed her into the wall, a small cry of pain escaping her lips. Malfoy smirked down at the small girl her held roughly in his hands, she may have been in the same year of them, but compared to everyone else she was ant.
"When we ask you a fucking question, your to answer it bitch." He snarled at her, squeezing her frail arms even tighter, making her whimper in pain. "Do you understand?" He asked her.
"Y-y-yes." Lily whimpered quietly. Forcing the tears that she knew wanted to fall back. She could deal with Malfoy, whatever he did to her she could deal with. After all she had been through more then just insults and being slung against the wall.
A crazy glint was in Malfoy's eyes and a cruel smirk plastered on Snape's lips who stood beside of Malfoy, both towering over her small frame. One of Malfoy's hands released it steal grip on her arm and started to thread his fingers through her hair. Lily closed her eyes, not sure of what his intentions were for her. Was he going to use her for his pleasure toy? She doubted it, he might use her as his punching bag though.
"You know Evans it's not safe to go and wander the castle at night. Especially some one as small and as vulnerable as you... something bad could happen." He told her, his voice low and dangerous, making Lily shiver in fear. She wished beyond anything that someone would come and help her out of this. She cursed herself for not waiting until tomorrow to come and get the book she had forgotten in the potions room. Now this is the price she had to pay.
'Like the saying goes every action has consciences.' She thought o herself, or at least she thought she had thought them to herself.
"Every action has consciences?" Malfoy asked, after hearing her voice her thought out loud.
Lily gulped and tried to shrink back away from her, but he balled a fist full of her hair and held in tightly in his fist making her cry out in pain as he jerked her head toward him.
"Yea, every action does have a conscience, and you're about to get yours." A dangerously low voice ground out from behind them. The two Slytherins spun around, Malfoy taking Lily with him, to meet a very angry James Potter.
James Potter's eyes were blazing. He couldn't believe what he was seeing, Lily, his Lily getting harassed by his two most hated adversaries. He had just got done planning a new prank with the guys when he went down to find Lily, her friends had said she went out to get a book she had forgotten and probably walk back up with Candy. However, James knew better, his instincts never lied. And his were telling him Lily was in trouble. How right they had been too.
"Potter come to rescue your little Mudblood bitch I see." Malfoy sneered at him while tightened his hold on Lily, making her cry out again.
That only made James angrier, and an angry James is something you never want. "Get the fuck off her Malfoy." He spat at him, not daring to draw his wand for Lily's safety. Lily was in a delicate position and in the hands of a slimy Slytherin that could easily hurt her at any moment, especially if James made the wrong move.
"Or what Potter? You wouldn't dare put your filthy mudblood in danger would you?" Snape asked him, while Malfoy tightened his grip on both her arm and hair.
James glared at him. "Your both really pathetic when you having to hide behind someone just to protect yourself." He spat at them. "Just because your scared."
The Slytherins glared at him, furious about his last statement. "You'll pay for that Potter." Malfoy hissed and shoved Lily to the side. Lily hit the wall and crawled over in the corner as James proceeded to deal with the two Slytherins who were advancing on him.
James watched as Lily crawled to safety as he drew his wand, preparing to duel with his arch nemesis, before looking at them. His eyes never leaving the two Slytherins coming toward him with their wands out, and their eyes blazing much like his were... except his was for a different reason. Malfoy was the first one to throw a hex, quickly followed by James ho had dodged the hex Malfoy had threw at him.
Lily watched from her dark little corner at the fight that was taking place a few feet away from her. She hoped that none of the hexes they were throwing at each other missed and hit her, but she most of all hoped James didn't get hurt... all because of her. She wanted to draw out her wand and help him, she really did, but her fear kept her in the cornering shivering like a small child. Her attention, however, was quickly tore away form the fight when she heard footsteps coming up the hallway.
"What in merlins name is going on here?!" The potions master yelled. The two Slytherins and Gryffindor forgot what they were doing and spun around to see their angry potions master.
"It was Potter sir, he started it!" Malfoy lied, pointing his finger toward James.
"You basterd that's a lie!" James yelled, shaking with anger.
"Enough!" The potions master yelled. "60 points from Gryffindor and detention for you Potter. Ten points from Slytherin!" The potions master bellowed. "Now get out of my sight!" He yelled at them.
"This is over Potter! You and your little mudblood whore's going to wish you had never met me." Malfoy warned him. James pushed him out of his face, and before Malfoy could retaliate the potions master caught him.
"Mr. Potter! That is enough! 70 points from Gryffindor!" the potions master yelled. "Now go!"
James glanced toward Lily who gestured him to go. With much hesitation James turned and walked out of sight. When he was gone The Slytherins also started to disappear, Malfoy sending a murderous glare turned Lily.
When everyone was gone, Lily slowly got up from her spot on the floor. Tears streaming down her face. 'Great look what you did Lily. You just got James in trouble, just because you couldn't take care of yourself.' She thought. Lily wiped at her eyes as she gathered up the books she had dropped and walked up the steps. She hugged her books to her chest as she walked, not daring to let go. As she turned a corner someone gentle grabbed her arm. Lily turned to look at them her emerald eyes wide and fear clearly written in them.
"Lily." Lily relaxed slightly when she heard his soothing voice. She scolded herself for not realizing that it was James sooner. James let go of her arm and stepped closer to her and pushed a piece of her dark red hair out of her face. "Are you ok?" He asked her. His concern and worry showing clearly in his voice.
Lily looked down at the ground, so he couldn't see her eyes tear up. "I'm sorry." She whispered softly.
James looked at her surprised. "What for?" He asked puzzled.
Lily gulped. "For getting you mixed up in my problems." She told him.
James looked at Lily sadly. He gentle tilted her head up so he could meet her eyes. "Lily don't be sorry. I want to help you... I need to help you." He told her sincerely. "I couldn't imagine me doing anything else." He told her.
A tear slipped down Lily's cheek. 'Damn you Evans for crying.' She cursed herself. "Yea, but because of me your hurt and have detention." She mumbled.
James shrugged. "Naw, they didn't really hit me" He told her before grinning. "Besides I thought you knew by now that I loved getting detention." Lily looked away from him and didn't say anything. James sighed. "Come one Lily, I'll walk you back." He told her. He wasn't going to leave her down here alone, no telling what would happen to her again.
Lily shook her head. "No, its ok you don't have to." She protested, not wanting to take up his time.
"Your right I don't have to." Lily's heart about stopped right then when he said that. "But I want to." Lily smiled slightly. If he wanted to walk her, she wasn't going to protest. Something about him made her feel so safe. So relaxed. She didn't want that feeling to go away, nor the person who made her feel that way.
OK that's it for now... I'll try to have the next chapter out sooner if you REVIEW!!! But seriously I'll try to have the next chapter out this weekend or sometime next week, I dunno... It won't be as long as last time tho... or at least it shouldn't... but PLZ REVIEW!!!!!!!!! And for everyone who has reviewed I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol, well plz review byebyes!!!
ZombieGurl98
Always & Forever
A/n- I am so sorry for not updating sooner!!!!! But here's the next chapter!!!!
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When the Christmas Holidays ended and the school weeks flew by, Lily was much more tense and silent. She rarely talked to anyone, unless it was her little group of friends, James, and the professors. Some of professors noticed what was happening, but didn't comment on it, thinking it was just a stage she was going through, not knowing what had happened at home. However, some knew different and was concerned for her. James couldn't help but worry... He worried every second of the day, especially when he wasn't around her. He was afraid someone would hurt her and break her beyond his repair. That was what woke him up at night drenched in a cold sweat.
Lily's friends were helping Lily get through this, or trying to help her. None of them really knew what to say to make her smile or laugh, none of them knew or felt the pain that coursed through her every second of the day. They all saw that she was getting more and more depressed everyday, but yet they couldn't do anything to help her. It was as if they were talking to rock and nothing penetrated it. As if she was on a totally different planet and they could never reach her. Their worry increased by the day, grew by night, none ever fully having a peace nights rest and suffered like she did... but Lily suffered the most.
Lily was restless, she hardly ever felt safe or relaxed. The day would seem to last an eternity to her, making her suffer endlessly and making her listen to the insults that people would throw toward her... namely the Slytherins. The nights though... the nights were the hardest on her. She dreaded when the sun would lower itself below the horizon and would be replaced by the moon. She dreaded when she would lay down to go to sleep. The night was truly hell for her. She would be haunted by memories and her father, she would go through everything all over again. She would wake up screaming at night, the tears running freely down her cheeks intermingling with the cold sweat that chilled her to the bone. She would never be able to go back to sleep again, but the memory would always be there... would always torture her. The nightmares all felt so real to her, she could feel his body on top of hers and his hot breath on her neck. However, no knew of her nightly terrors, no one knew how much she suffered at night... no one. She had made sure of that thanks to magic.
The dark circles and bags under her eyes and her deathly pale skin and lifeless dull red hair making her seem like a zombie. People stayed away from her now, well most people. They didn't want to associate with someone like her and they made that known. Some of the professors were even avoiding her, giving her a harder time then usual manly the ones who favored Slytherin, there were others though. But Lily didn't care, not anymore... all she felt was pain. Her days were darkened now, the light that once had shown hidden under masses of heavy darkness... suffocating, dieing away... and taking Lily with it.
Lily blended in quiet well with the depressed and dark walls of the dungeon staircase. She didn't feel the dampness or the coldness of it, all was dark and cold in her world... always. Her light footsteps made quiet echoes off the walls, making her clutch her books tighter to her chest. Her eyes were cast downwards, like usual, as she walked making it impossible to see the two tall figures step out in front of her, evil smirks planted on their faces.
"Watch it you mudblood slut!" A voice sneered at her, when she bumped into them. Lily quickly looked up to see who she had ran into. Snape and Malfoy.
She didn't reply, knowing whatever she said wouldn't help... it never did. "Don't you have anything to say?" Snape spat at her.
Lily looked at him before looking at the ground. It was a lost cause to try and fight with them. After all they were going to do what ever the wanted to her no matter what she did, why make it even worse for her. Might as well get it over with, it was bound to happen sooner or later.
Malfoy grabbed Lily roughly by the arms and slammed her into the wall, a small cry of pain escaping her lips. Malfoy smirked down at the small girl her held roughly in his hands, she may have been in the same year of them, but compared to everyone else she was ant.
"When we ask you a fucking question, your to answer it bitch." He snarled at her, squeezing her frail arms even tighter, making her whimper in pain. "Do you understand?" He asked her.
"Y-y-yes." Lily whimpered quietly. Forcing the tears that she knew wanted to fall back. She could deal with Malfoy, whatever he did to her she could deal with. After all she had been through more then just insults and being slung against the wall.
A crazy glint was in Malfoy's eyes and a cruel smirk plastered on Snape's lips who stood beside of Malfoy, both towering over her small frame. One of Malfoy's hands released it steal grip on her arm and started to thread his fingers through her hair. Lily closed her eyes, not sure of what his intentions were for her. Was he going to use her for his pleasure toy? She doubted it, he might use her as his punching bag though.
"You know Evans it's not safe to go and wander the castle at night. Especially some one as small and as vulnerable as you... something bad could happen." He told her, his voice low and dangerous, making Lily shiver in fear. She wished beyond anything that someone would come and help her out of this. She cursed herself for not waiting until tomorrow to come and get the book she had forgotten in the potions room. Now this is the price she had to pay.
'Like the saying goes every action has consciences.' She thought o herself, or at least she thought she had thought them to herself.
"Every action has consciences?" Malfoy asked, after hearing her voice her thought out loud.
Lily gulped and tried to shrink back away from her, but he balled a fist full of her hair and held in tightly in his fist making her cry out in pain as he jerked her head toward him.
"Yea, every action does have a conscience, and you're about to get yours." A dangerously low voice ground out from behind them. The two Slytherins spun around, Malfoy taking Lily with him, to meet a very angry James Potter.
James Potter's eyes were blazing. He couldn't believe what he was seeing, Lily, his Lily getting harassed by his two most hated adversaries. He had just got done planning a new prank with the guys when he went down to find Lily, her friends had said she went out to get a book she had forgotten and probably walk back up with Candy. However, James knew better, his instincts never lied. And his were telling him Lily was in trouble. How right they had been too.
"Potter come to rescue your little Mudblood bitch I see." Malfoy sneered at him while tightened his hold on Lily, making her cry out again.
That only made James angrier, and an angry James is something you never want. "Get the fuck off her Malfoy." He spat at him, not daring to draw his wand for Lily's safety. Lily was in a delicate position and in the hands of a slimy Slytherin that could easily hurt her at any moment, especially if James made the wrong move.
"Or what Potter? You wouldn't dare put your filthy mudblood in danger would you?" Snape asked him, while Malfoy tightened his grip on both her arm and hair.
James glared at him. "Your both really pathetic when you having to hide behind someone just to protect yourself." He spat at them. "Just because your scared."
The Slytherins glared at him, furious about his last statement. "You'll pay for that Potter." Malfoy hissed and shoved Lily to the side. Lily hit the wall and crawled over in the corner as James proceeded to deal with the two Slytherins who were advancing on him.
James watched as Lily crawled to safety as he drew his wand, preparing to duel with his arch nemesis, before looking at them. His eyes never leaving the two Slytherins coming toward him with their wands out, and their eyes blazing much like his were... except his was for a different reason. Malfoy was the first one to throw a hex, quickly followed by James ho had dodged the hex Malfoy had threw at him.
Lily watched from her dark little corner at the fight that was taking place a few feet away from her. She hoped that none of the hexes they were throwing at each other missed and hit her, but she most of all hoped James didn't get hurt... all because of her. She wanted to draw out her wand and help him, she really did, but her fear kept her in the cornering shivering like a small child. Her attention, however, was quickly tore away form the fight when she heard footsteps coming up the hallway.
"What in merlins name is going on here?!" The potions master yelled. The two Slytherins and Gryffindor forgot what they were doing and spun around to see their angry potions master.
"It was Potter sir, he started it!" Malfoy lied, pointing his finger toward James.
"You basterd that's a lie!" James yelled, shaking with anger.
"Enough!" The potions master yelled. "60 points from Gryffindor and detention for you Potter. Ten points from Slytherin!" The potions master bellowed. "Now get out of my sight!" He yelled at them.
"This is over Potter! You and your little mudblood whore's going to wish you had never met me." Malfoy warned him. James pushed him out of his face, and before Malfoy could retaliate the potions master caught him.
"Mr. Potter! That is enough! 70 points from Gryffindor!" the potions master yelled. "Now go!"
James glanced toward Lily who gestured him to go. With much hesitation James turned and walked out of sight. When he was gone The Slytherins also started to disappear, Malfoy sending a murderous glare turned Lily.
When everyone was gone, Lily slowly got up from her spot on the floor. Tears streaming down her face. 'Great look what you did Lily. You just got James in trouble, just because you couldn't take care of yourself.' She thought. Lily wiped at her eyes as she gathered up the books she had dropped and walked up the steps. She hugged her books to her chest as she walked, not daring to let go. As she turned a corner someone gentle grabbed her arm. Lily turned to look at them her emerald eyes wide and fear clearly written in them.
"Lily." Lily relaxed slightly when she heard his soothing voice. She scolded herself for not realizing that it was James sooner. James let go of her arm and stepped closer to her and pushed a piece of her dark red hair out of her face. "Are you ok?" He asked her. His concern and worry showing clearly in his voice.
Lily looked down at the ground, so he couldn't see her eyes tear up. "I'm sorry." She whispered softly.
James looked at her surprised. "What for?" He asked puzzled.
Lily gulped. "For getting you mixed up in my problems." She told him.
James looked at Lily sadly. He gentle tilted her head up so he could meet her eyes. "Lily don't be sorry. I want to help you... I need to help you." He told her sincerely. "I couldn't imagine me doing anything else." He told her.
A tear slipped down Lily's cheek. 'Damn you Evans for crying.' She cursed herself. "Yea, but because of me your hurt and have detention." She mumbled.
James shrugged. "Naw, they didn't really hit me" He told her before grinning. "Besides I thought you knew by now that I loved getting detention." Lily looked away from him and didn't say anything. James sighed. "Come one Lily, I'll walk you back." He told her. He wasn't going to leave her down here alone, no telling what would happen to her again.
Lily shook her head. "No, its ok you don't have to." She protested, not wanting to take up his time.
"Your right I don't have to." Lily's heart about stopped right then when he said that. "But I want to." Lily smiled slightly. If he wanted to walk her, she wasn't going to protest. Something about him made her feel so safe. So relaxed. She didn't want that feeling to go away, nor the person who made her feel that way.
OK that's it for now... I'll try to have the next chapter out sooner if you REVIEW!!! But seriously I'll try to have the next chapter out this weekend or sometime next week, I dunno... It won't be as long as last time tho... or at least it shouldn't... but PLZ REVIEW!!!!!!!!! And for everyone who has reviewed I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol, well plz review byebyes!!!
ZombieGurl98
Always & Forever